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Jun 2013 · 573
Like life is a movie
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
Drinking whiskey neat
ends up with sloppy drunk
sloppy moments
splashed out across our history
like paint brush splatters
everybody is high
because they are so low
and the room starts spinning
and spinning                     and spinning
  and spinning        and spinning
         and spinning
until
everythingblursintoeverything
and the night doesn't end with a bang
or a whimper
but with a jump cut
to a hung over next morning
like life is a movie
had some fun with this one
Jun 2013 · 960
release
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
the black tarmac was still hot from the daylight
sitting there as people took turns
bombing down the driveway on metal scooters
drinking beer from multicolored solo cups
the passage of time loses meaning
there's a sense of ease to the night
a sense that we were on the right path
a sense that there was never a path to begin with
certain windows began to slowly close
and people were seen scrambling for them
not wanting to be left alone
on the inside
sleeping on a couch
alone,
with a case of beer as a pillow
and when the next morning rolls around
naked bodies pressed together
warming slowly in the morning sun
they resort to physical intimacy
to hide from any conversation
all of which is deemed
simply too awkward
and when it is all over
nothing is ever really changed
but they feel better
better for the release
Jun 2013 · 681
party hardly
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
The neo-hippies were all in play
dancing from the hips while playing the bongo drums
talking about love and peace
feeling like a mix of molly, ***, and pbr
and the anti-frat guys were there
everything they do is just to be the opposite of the norm
they don't actually live a life
they just deny others
and my friends were there
bombed out of their brains
seeing strangers as if they were old friends
with smiles on their faces
and arms around shoulders
and a resounding chorus of slurred pub songs
and there were the strangers
leaning up against fences
or standing by the fridge
hoping somebody they know shows up
or hoping that somebody would talk to them
hoping they aren't as awkward as they feel
then there is the wannabe DJ
he brought his ipod
and his taste in music is just so incredible
that you need to hear it before you die
and wouldn't you know?
it's nothing but bass and generational fads
all of these people mesh together
and together they create
something which is just
so
boring
Jun 2013 · 782
smoking up the room
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
the piece fell in the James
floated away to lands unknown
off on its own adventure
and we were just ****** to see it go
if you fill up a room with enough smoke
you start to see the things in people
which writhe, twist, and turn like snakes
the poisonous reaction sending up cries for help to an empty throne
and the fuel we run on:
nothing more than chemicals ****** out of the long **** of corporate fat cats
and we drink it happily
and wear the clothes they say we look good in
but in that room,
slowly filling with smoke,
we were trying to take it some place else
somewhere naked and honest
and full of the shame and secrets
that the youth of America have been carrying with them for years
like bowling ***** sitting in our gut
in the smoke filled room lies become prophetic wisdom
and like dominoes
our flaws and false beliefs
all fall down
one at a time
and when the room is completely full
we suffocate
only to disappear when the smoke clears
Jun 2013 · 651
the green bullet
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
caught a slug from the green bullet
as blood vessels rush to the surface
of tired eyeballs
which sit atop
a mountain of wrinkly black trash bags
he coughs up everything but his blood
blood which visits every *****
every muscle
every hiding place
bringing the body quaking
rips of sad clown laughter
tearing through strained necks
and tears
the monologue is off the leash
echoing down hallway after hallway
finding an empty abandoned room
to hole up in and wait for respite
the green bullet
which he loaded himself
Jun 2013 · 2.1k
denim sofa
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
the sofa was soft
an indent in the middle
molded after a year of nothings
cigarette burns dot the denim
and the smell of stale beer
and cereal
and *****
come out like great dust clouds
shooting poison into the air
only to be hurried out the open window
by the constant whirring of the ceiling fan
a denim couch
a blue jean clad monster
a vampire of the modern world
greedily ******* the life
out of all unfortunate to fall prey to its trap
its dance of decadent seduction
and all it leaves of its victims
are loose change
and a few beer caps
deep in the valleys and cracks
of its ever hungry stomach
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
I didn't sleep again last night
my yesterday is still taking place
as my fingers gently press these keys
so as to not wake my brother
restless,
I realized,
I've seen a sunset
but never a sunrise

the streets were still asleep
the only ones about
only the down and out
the poor black folk
the aimless hipsters
the homeless
the single mothers with three jobs
who wait alone
under a flickering street light
for the bus which will take them
to their deadpan jobs
the puddles from last night's storm
rest with not a ripple
and the pretty little birdies
start finding their voice
restless,
I realized,
after the sunsets
the world opens up her eyes

periwinkle horizons
blend easily with the grey skyline
and the line between man and God blurs
the sky is tropical mango cocktails
and pillows of white Caribbean sand
the smell is left -
like a residue -
chasing after the tail of a storm
but the air is wet to the touch
hinting at repeat of the downpour
and I would've sat on the arm of that denim sofa
hour after hour
until the world was ready to wake up
giving me a chance to sleep off their insecurities,
only,
I felt like writing this poem
only,
I felt like a sunrise
or maybe a sunset?
or just maybe
a ******* supernova
I felt good
brimming with peace in my gut
like a warm fire
restless,
I realized,
that after all is set
I will still love the sunrise
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
I think I'm going to write a book
school shootings for dummies
just to **** people off
just so it could get banned
that way all of my other books
could be about fairies and flowers
and endless unconditional love
and people would buy them
"I want to read the school shooting guy's book"
because as much as people pretend to be P.C.
we're still in the Colosseum
screaming at the top of our lungs
for the blood splash catharsis
and we think we are so civilized
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
Lenny Bruce
herald to the funny man
ground breaking pioneer
of laughter as medicine
only back then
they thought his medicine
was bad juju
they arrested him for speaking
like a fascist pig slaughter house
once you've slept on a feathered bed
you can't go back
to sleeping on the floor
he died after getting some bad H
and they took his clothes off
posed his body
and took shameful
pornographic photos
look what freedom of speech gets you

Bill Hicks
leading audiences
on a funny roller coaster
on the way to enlightenment
he defended those with no voice
"remember America,
you're free to do exactly
what the **** they tell you"
pancreatic cancer took him from us
in the midst of his 30's
his only crime
was burning too brightly

the people who show us
how silly everything is
those are the ones we ****
Jesus
Malcolm X
King
Lenny
Hicks
Wright
and we let the devils run amok
so long as they are pinching pennies
from our pockets
to give to the dark shadow of Moloch
maybe it's time
to laugh our way to freedom
I've always been highly interested and absorbed with stand up comedians and how they can change society through laughter. It works a lot better than violence and fear.
Jun 2013 · 735
looking back
Harry J Baxter Jun 2013
driving blindly down the turnpike
four guys packed in the back three seats
the two lovely ladies up front
driving,
through the complete blackness
the warm ocean that is the Virginian summer night sky
they were high
and drunk
not the driver
but she still drove like a maniac
taking bends in the road
feeling the pull of their momentum
it would have been a pretty way to die

three days earlier
six young men
sit on the shore
of a picturesque canal
which ran parallel to the James
drinking cheap beer out of a cooler
and taking rips from endless shattered bongs
they swam across to the other side
running and jumping among the rocks and trees
just like they were kids again
when the sun set
and the city put on her make up
they were drunk
and they drove home after some time
speeding through the neon lights
of the wrong part of time

twenty years in the future
a man sits in a leather arm chair
nursing a neat bourbon,
he is tired,
he burns with an ice cold longing
for the days
when kids could be kids
driving blindly down turnpikes
drunk and high at the river
bending through the city like fugitives
before the bitterness
before he was so ****** tired
May 2013 · 434
A day in the life
Harry J Baxter May 2013
Too broke to smoke
Too drunk to ****
Too high to lie
May 2013 · 437
Extra
Harry J Baxter May 2013
She didn't know what
What she was working towards
A mad men situation
Drunk chicks with drunk feelings
And a wholly drunk
Situation
We all
Fall in
Love with
Everything extra
May 2013 · 1.4k
acquaintances
Harry J Baxter May 2013
they come into your life
leaving everything important
untouched,
in its place
but certain things they change
like picture frames
at jaunty angles
these magnificent creatures
flit into our lives
and back out
so fast
you barely remember them
until drunk summer nights
at the river rock festival
they seem to line up
beneath star specked
inky skies
and the heavy blanket
of summer humidity
girls with hugs
and guys with great roars of joy
as if they had been searching for you all night
memories are remembered
new experiences embellished
before the thread of your lives
untangle once more
and they are gone
off into the chasm of darkness
indefinitely
May 2013 · 748
Rocket Man
Harry J Baxter May 2013
being honest with yourself
is a feat of great difficulty
but it is the test
that we all must pass,
and I think I'm getting there,
but It's being honest to others
that really tangles me up
I carry my baggage around with me
but never open it up,
never leave it behind,
never talk about it,
I'm an airport's worst nightmare,
when we are alone with ourselves,
nobody around to share the load,
we begin to crack
and crack and crack
until we are riddled with spiderwebs
until we shatter completely
but I can't share
maybe I never learned the difference
between vulnerability
and weakness
but I don't want to burden you
with my life
my life which scares the hell out of me
just thinking about it,
I've been carrying this bowling ball
in my gut
for the better part of a year now
and I hide it behind a smile
a "there's no reason to be alarmed" smile
and I'd love to break open my ribcage
reach on in there
and give you my heart
but I don't have the right tools in my workshop
and I'm too **** proud to ask you
if I could maybe borrow yours
and it's gotten to the point
that solidarity has become the norm
even when I am surrounded by people
I am alone
and the worst part about it all is
I've gotten comfortable with it
I'm not the man they think I am at home
May 2013 · 3.1k
Wish You Were Here
Harry J Baxter May 2013
Oh,
how I wish you were here
telling me anything
you wouldn't even have
to say real words
but I miss the sound of you
almost as much as the sight
and on my loneliest of days
the pictures taken
revive a spirit
of a kindred spirit
maybe I'm selfish
and only miss you
because you make me a better me
like the night were you got too drunk
and fell asleep on my lap
spread out across the couch
and I gave you my bed
and took the floor
there are probably
a million little things
I could say to you
but they wouldn't be enough
to truly get the expression across
and certainly,
a cheesy thrown together poem
doesn't come close
to saying what I can't say
but I can say
I wish you were here
Harry J Baxter May 2013
The morning is serene
sober shafts of light
filter through the trees
which were planted
lining the streets
to make the city seem
just a little less man made
and it isn't too hot
and there isn't too much wind
only a light breeze
and a gentle wash of
sunlight

Mornings are holy times
times of reflection
times of rekindling
the spark
of the spirit of humanity
and I'm not a morning person
so I'm graced with these moments
much too rarely
but they are my best moments
and my favorite moments
easy summer mornings
when the birds chirp their loudest
and the sky is the cool blue
of the pacific ocean
morning for the usually dreary
hydrates the brain
better than any cool
perspiring
glass of brita filter water
the morning is the birth
of a new day
May 2013 · 471
Cosmic Joke
Harry J Baxter May 2013
There were children
climbing onto a big yellow
Richmond city school bus
on Forest Hill avenue
the neon cherry red stop sign
emerged from its chamber
speaking traffic
and the children looked so happy
to be getting on that bus
even though it was eight AM
and they were on their way to school
so pure and untouched
in their lack of days
it's better than driving home
after a party
still probably a little too drunk
to operate heavy machinery
but the children were laughing
the children know
life boils down to little more
than a great big
cosmic joke
May 2013 · 486
Life Tastes Good
Harry J Baxter May 2013
What slice of heaven
Fell down from pie skies
To fall in our laps?
Oh,
Wouldn't you know
It's a full life
A quick poem for feeling down
May 2013 · 2.7k
flirting with death
Harry J Baxter May 2013
He was sitting at the bar,
not a nice bar at that,
when she walked in
uplifted by the draft
as she let the heavy door
close behind her
draped in a black dress
with black hair
like a shroud
and pale skin
like bones
she sat two stools down from him
and ordered an old fashioned
and necked it down
before ordering another
and another
and another
losing none of her poise
and no sign of flushed cheeks
she made eye contact with him
and for the first time in his life
he knew fear
and he knew he wanted to be scared

He ordered two old fashioned's
and slid a stool over
and told her his name
holding out his hand hopefully
she took it
with dainty fingers
her skin was colder than the creek
that he had been dared to swim in
during the winters of his childhood
"I think we've met before" she said
a voice like a funeral dirge
"so you must come here a lot" he replied
"you could say that,
or you could come back to my place"
he was more than happy to oblige
together they trudged off into the inky night
and he was never seen again,
and the next night
she was back at that bar
drinking old fashioned's
and waiting to be approached
May 2013 · 1.7k
What's in a name?
Harry J Baxter May 2013
simplicity oozes out with every breath
not a "**** it" attitude
but a let come what may disposition
long fine fingers
ending in guitar string calluses
mestizo skin kissed by Apollo
and the eyes
always the eyes
a color which has no name
other than stunning
and hips and thighs and hindquarters
knock on the door which leads
to primal masculinity
and proceeds to leave it dumbfounded
a voice which sounds like
the nursery rhymes
mothers have read to their children
every night
all over the world
all throughout time
a bashful smile never far from the lips
with hair like liquid chestnuts
and a heart which beats
like a caged robin
her name is
untold bliss
May 2013 · 878
they took the world
Harry J Baxter May 2013
They stole the night
out from beneath their feet
and replaced it
with endless painted black billboards
with cosmic advertisements
that read: tired of those pesky feelings?
then come on down to the real world
and the stars were switched with
fluorescent bulbs and Christmas lights
the clouds are just moving back drops
and the moon a search light
they stole the day
replaced vibrant blue with
coral blue #64
or baby blue
but mostly gray
they beat ambition with baseball bats
and left it for dead in a ditch
on the side of a high way
they took life
and made it banal
a product
Honey I've shrunk the conversation!
they took the world
and all of it's people
but don't let them
mean you
May 2013 · 934
prettier than reality
Harry J Baxter May 2013
locked in  cage
he holds the key to
she's waiting for him
on the other side
and he wants to free himself
but doesn't
doesn't know why
but he doesn't
maybe he's afraid
afraid that without the bars
she would become too real
they would become too real
and reality scares him
scares the ever loving hell out of him
ever since he picked up his first book
he realized,
fiction is just so much prettier
than real life
May 2013 · 675
Burn From Your Middle
Harry J Baxter May 2013
reflecting upon a cigarette
I discovered a small fact
the middle burns stronger
any ash comes from the edge
the same is true of people
we age,
wrinkle,
decay,
rot,
die,
but  we still burn incredibly bright
from our centers
don't let the fire
ever die
May 2013 · 969
Vending Cigarettes
Harry J Baxter May 2013
I grew up in a village
Americans always seem to laugh
at the very idea of a village
how quaint?
but I did
it was five or ten years behind the times
and in the pub,
the huntsman,
the local
there is an old Marlboro
cigarette vending machine
with lights and menthols
and 27's and reds
and milds and ultra milds
and all the others
I'm too drunk to remember
I miss those machines
bells rung of a simpler time
I miss those machines
May 2013 · 1.0k
The Rat Pack
Harry J Baxter May 2013
They spoke jazz
the words trickled from their tongues
like magic
they weren't rich
or famous
or connected
but they were **** good people
tongues like metronomes
they spoke in flashes of music
music music
not just sounds layered
atop other sounds
but soul and heart and fire and passions,
aching sadness
heartbroken longing
and the taste of danger
and ***
they were broke
scratching and hustling
for nickels and dimes
and forty ounces of freedom,
if they save up long enough
they can score a nickel bag
but they never do
and they still somehow get their hands on the stuff
malt liquor hangovers
wake them in the morning
and they smoke loosies
given to them by the over-privileged college kids
and their nice clothes
and undeserved smiles
they are the rat pack
hearts beating to the sounds of saxophones
and in my book
they're alright
May 2013 · 713
sappier than tree blood
Harry J Baxter May 2013
I've always had a thing against
people who come across as sappy
but that being said,
you make me the sappiest sap
in all the land,
where do you get off,
acting like that?
so **** cute,
pretty,
****,
beautiful
whichever word you prefer
they're all for you anyway,
you've never read them,
but they're yours
so I'll go on
being sappier than tree blood
and you'll go on
driving me nuts
May 2013 · 1.1k
Doe Eyes
Harry J Baxter May 2013
She hides behind herself,
picturesque scenery flashing
before her sad doe eyes
only to crystallize before her
like memories
life washes over her
but not through her
at any given moment
she could fade away
gone with a fluttering
of butterfly wings
what is love
(baby don't hurt me)
but a rush of pheromones,
a shotgun blast of hormones?
a necessity
a necessity she doesn't know by name
or by face
but by the lingering aroma
of cigarette smoke
and detestable good byes
May 2013 · 804
My Pseudo-Neighbors
Harry J Baxter May 2013
There's a rag tag bunch
who live on the bus bench
outside of my apartment window
some of them know me by
"Hey you White boy,
lemme get one of those beers"
or,
"Hey you White boy,
lemme get one of those smokes"
a lovely bunch
they drink all day
and all night
and never get on the bus
they talk
and yell
and fight
and speak of women
the beautiful fairer ***
they pass around *** wine
hidden from the cops
in brown paper bags
or black plastic
they know the end of the line approaches
and they don't
particularly care
May 2013 · 1.1k
Everything's Peachy
Harry J Baxter May 2013
I'm losing my mind,
I can't talk to anybody
who isn't a complete stranger
A college dropout
yet nobody knows
big dreams of making it as a writer
inspire and deflate all at once
a lifetime of poverty and rejection and flattened hope
to look forward to,
but I couldn't do it any other way
college was great and all,
only it wasn't
I never felt enriched
just as if I was memorizing facts
and my heart is all messed up
not knowing up from down
and my brain is clear,
cold,
lacking in sympathy
but not in wit
and every waking moment
seems pointless
just doing what I'm supposed to
nobody knows of the double life
I go to "class"
which really means starbucks
so I can write for a few hours
like the king of cliche
and I want to tell people
especially my mother
"school just isn't for me anymore,
the student loan check never came through
because I'm not a student"
but my tongue is tied
locked up
the key thrown away\but I just can't,
I can not,
and I don't know how much longer
I can go on living a lie
Harry J Baxter May 2013
It's funny, y'know?
every guy
dreams of
a girl
around eighteen or so
wide hips
a tight ***
firm *******
flawless skin
perfect hair
kissable lips
and eyes you could drown in
then a guy meets one of these
magazine girls
and she tells him
she wants nothing to do with him
at which point
she changes in the blink of an eye
from an image of divine perfection
into just another
******* ******* ****
it's funny how that works out
May 2013 · 1.1k
The West
Harry J Baxter May 2013
There is something within the heart
of western society
a voice of sorts
a frothing, thrashing, screaming voice
which knows only one word,
west,
for some people it's god,
the west is the American holy land
a brand spanking new Canaan
it reeks of hard work
and tastes like the dust
kicked up from an eternity of tires and wheels and spokes
it smells like fresh prairies
and feels like a worn leather belt
and emaciated happy xylophone rib cages
and it looks like  how adventure feels
the west, the endless west,
spurs and sunshine and simple life
always calling
always howling away in the warm humid south eastern nights
May 2013 · 826
Ocracoke Island
Harry J Baxter May 2013
A hammock sways lazily
pushed ever so gently by the ocean breeze
where the grass fades to grains of sand
about a stone's throw away from the dock
where he fished with his father
where his father had yelled at him
for throwing back the fish
which he had left to suffocate on the dock
we could've eaten that
I'd prefer Howard's Pub
There is a coffee shop
with a vast lawn
and a small porch beneath an old wooden arcade
they sold good coffee,
and worked for their tips,
There are endless beaches
which most tourists never see
hidden beaches hiding behind signs marked:
private
and he got ****** on almost all of them
And there was a night
****** off of whiskey and Johnny Cash
were he laid atop a picnic table
drunkenly trying to count the stars
breathing in unison with the cosmos.
and there were pretty locals
riding around on bikes
the kind that you have to pedal backwards
to work the brakes,
and there is music
endless amateurs plying their crafts
to anybody who had a spare moment
leathery, salty, sticky, sweaty beach people
people who live in small shacks
which they made by hand,
who live off the fish in the Atlantic
and the good will of good people,
they said there was a lost colony or something there
and I think they still are there
a special breed of people
who have no idea what a franchise fast food restaurant is
people who live at a slower pace
than the ticking hands of all of the big money clocks
people who live in a place
where the Pelicans reign supreme
the people of Ocracoke Island
May 2013 · 483
Hearts Under Sleeves
Harry J Baxter May 2013
Wear your heart beneath your sleeve
don't buy into the hype
people become a lot less interested
once they've seen your heart,
instead,
let them see your sleeve ripple
with each passing beat
so that the people might say
"what was that,
beneath your sleeve"
and you just smile back
"I have no idea what you're talking about"
May 2013 · 921
The Music Man
Harry J Baxter May 2013
There's a man I know
I'd name him, only,
I'm not sure it's my place,
he views the world in music
music as the voice of angels
the language of the heavens
he's an old snowball of a guy
his black skin cracked at the lips and fingers
and white foam coating the corners of his leathery lips
He reminds me of my late grandfather
a soldier who fell to Parkinson's
He had been playing flute,
cello,
violin,
piano,
and conducting since the age of five
I bought two CD's from him for seven bucks
and **** it was pretty **** good,
and I don't even listen to that type of music,
I found out he lives in a group home
mentally disabled in some way or another
he said he dreams of owning his own house
and his own car,
he dreams that one day,
everybody will have heard his music,
and I hope he reaches those dreams
if anybody ever deserved to
it's the music man
May 2013 · 2.0k
In The Tower Of Babel
Harry J Baxter May 2013
Sitting in that cafe
was like sitting atop the tower of Babel
a cacophony of language
like a hurricane was going on all around him
the homeless black men
who spoke with their own jive and jib
he knew some of the language
but was far from fluent
there were the Arabian men
talking into blue tooths on their ears
or into cellphones
or arguing with each other
outside over cigarette after endless cigarette
nothing but harsh blunt sounds,
it was beautiful in a way
and there is the Russian couple
bombshell athletic blondes
it was hard to determine whether the relationship was
Mother and Daughter
or coach and athlete
they were seemingly
all business
broken with interspersed bouts of laughter
and their were the Asian boys and girls
coming from Korea or Japan or China, or some other place
talking fast and easy
gesticulating wildly with their hands
and of course their was English
thick and arrogant in its tone
it was a language for movers and shakers
money makers and deal breakers
it sounded nowhere near as special
as the other languages
And there was him
sitting silently in the corner of the cafe
his language
the chitter chatter of the keyboard
May 2013 · 399
The Walk In
Harry J Baxter May 2013
She walked in
with a group of other girls
and some older women
I can only assume
played the parental role
They were either
seniors in high school,
checking out the campus for next year
or college kids,
ready to move back home for the summer
Their voices, and their dispositions pleaded the former
but there was one among them
and Hot ****, she was looking good
A dark blue and black plaid flannel cardigan
covered loose fitting yellow top
and from a little above her waist
fell a teal skirt
made from some gossamer material
which had a split down one side
so that when she walked
porcelain flashes of leg lit up the room,
and lemme tell you about this walk in's hair
the color were brown and red meet
braided in the back,
the thick snake of hair
cascading down her left shoulder,
it was killing me,
So I watched,
and drank coffee,
and had my breakfast
and watched some more
knowing she was just a walk in
and nothing more
I sat my *** down
and went ahead and wrote her a poem
May 2013 · 1.1k
Skid Row: Bum Alley
Harry J Baxter May 2013
I stepped out of my apartment
into the easy breezy morning heat
it was hot,
but not late enough for the sun
to have properly baked the earth
I lost three cigarettes
almost immediately
lost them on skid row:
*** alley
a small strip of city
which stretches from 5th to Jefferson
and from Broad to Franklin
something about that place,
maybe the empathy of the inhabitants
draws them closer
the homeless, hobos, bums, wastrels, ruffians, and scoundrels
sitting cross legged on the pavement
or idly kicking on the stoop of curbs
or in hidden alleys,
hiding from the wind
They live there
and for the most part
they're good people,
not hurting anybody
not proud enough
to not beg
Harry J Baxter May 2013
The music blares loud enough to shake the car,
loud,
but not clear, because the cable is kinda screwy
so that every time
he hits a pothole
the music melts into
teeth rattling vibrations
and the breeze gushes in through the temporal openings
threatening to blow
the card parking pass
out the window
into the vast pleasant outside world
the sun burns down from space
turning the world warm with childhood nostalgia
and chlorophyll green lampshades
hanging from chocolate brown trees
paint the world with an aura of emeralds
and the spedometer plays Apollo
rising higher on its arc
twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, ect.
the rush of speed becomes deafening
and the hot asphalt road rises,
dips,
meanders,
and he controls its will
with the easy gliding of the leather steering wheel
and an easy smile
driving with the windows down
May 2013 · 1.3k
About Her
Harry J Baxter May 2013
He wanted to write
as a way of expression
and rejection
a stage to vent
everything which threatened
his tranquil, lazy life,
he was fine going unknown,
hungry,
broke,
broken,
a man watching from the shadows
looking for somebody worthwhile
somebody he could talk to
and enjoy looking at
maybe he was unrealistic
maybe was one huge *******,
a typical womanizer,
just another guy,
but he wanted to write,
he wanted to write about her
Apr 2013 · 1.4k
The Nomad
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
He had been on the road for a while
trekking from city unknown to city unknown
in a cloud of dust kicked up
by a Greyhound bus
he used a different name in every city
he wasn't a criminal,
but he was on the run,
he simply enjoyed anonymity
enjoyed being everybody's imaginary friend
He took magic mushrooms in Richmond
and rode the image of his grand spiritual quest
like a drug induced steed,
rode it straight to San Jose
where he met some migrant workers
who drank cheap mescal
beneath the stars of the dead pan landscape
wasters of the great American wasteland
and in New Mexico city
he was given a tab of acid
which dissolved under his tongue
in an explosion of hypnotic torture
his life reflected as a visage
as hallucinogenic as the walls which rippled all around him,
Portland was ******* and oxy pills
his humanity stretched tight like a drum
ready to snap at any given stimuli
he made it to California
dreams of LA
he became addicted to the limelight,
pretty hipster chicks who were foolish enough
to sleep with him,
simply because he introduced himself as a writer,
simply because he could work the word,
and he settled in San Diego
where the whiskey poured freely
and the *** was enough to blow your ******* head off,
in a small one room apartment
where the rent was cheap,
he drank and smoked himself in a stupor
with the windows open -
enjoying the soft pacific breeze which washed him of his sins
he had been all over his forced continent
looking for a place to call home,
but he never found what he was looking for,
and with grit and determination
and a hunger for the freedom of the American dream
he packed up again,
and left for the road,
a thief in the all encompassing night
Apr 2013 · 526
As She Is
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
She walked in from the street
windswept,
she had come close to breaking
everything in the outside
weighing down upon her
with every passing second
expectations
clashing
with reality
leaving her cracked
and those cracks told her story
with no falsity
it was plain and simple
and he traced the cracks
with his own yellowed fingers
smiling at her
enjoying the tale
enjoying her
not wanting to save her
or fix her
just wanting to keep her
keep her
as she is
Apr 2013 · 389
stars
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
We're all stars
each and every one of us
some light up the world
like the sun
others light up darkened corners
like a trash barrel fire
and others are never seen
light years away
we only see the memories
after death flashes
of quaking brilliance
Apr 2013 · 791
Figuring us out
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
Make sure
I'm the first person
You drunk text this weekend
She said
He said
You always will be
So  the weekend came
Drinks drank
Thoughts thought
Feelings felt
I'm very drunk,
And drunk texting you,
To let you know,
I miss you
And she said
Dawww
Miss you too
With three w's
Three,
Which of course means
She likes me back
Apr 2013 · 594
Happy hang over
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
I got drunk last night
Celebrating my birthday
One friend
Hospitalized
Another almost arrested
Another sick as a dog
Another hanging out the window

The next day
Apathy struck
The will to live
All but gone
Eating ******
College cafeteria food
And discussing
Our lives,
We came to two conclusions
Our lives were bad
And that didn't matter
Because nothing matters
Apr 2013 · 827
Unfurling Thoughts
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
the layers unfold like spring time flowers
aching to be viewed
by sunlight eyes
a winter spent
under the heavy hands
of the foundry
shaped and strengthened
until it is finally ready
to steal the breath
from your lungs
and make your heart
come alive
Apr 2013 · 2.6k
Ice Cream Man
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
Ice cream dreams
come to fruition
in a post adolescent summer timer
the pretty girls
walking up and down the block
where white short shorts
and tight band T shirts
show me you can smile baby,
just for me
like the old times
the before times
the times when life was just
a little bit simpler
I'm an ice cream man
nothing more
than a hell of a way
to cool off
Apr 2013 · 467
Big Fish
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
The shot glass speaks arrows
arrows to tear a man down
at the worst of all times
he viewed life
not through the camcorder imagery of most
but through specific harsh globes of flesh
the eyeballs which couldn't betray him
even when life seemed to come
in violent fragmented flashes
reminding him of all that was false,
they had said it was a weekend
dedicated to a
"ruin your life sort of drunk"
he couldn't tell them
of a life already in shambles
nor of the tribulations
of developing a craft
which seems in its death throes
work seemed silly
the very idea of a boss
or a station
ultimately sickening
but still he trudged on
knowing that he was chasing
much bigger fish,
much bigger fish indeed
Apr 2013 · 993
A Girl Called Mary Jane
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
He met a girl called Mary Jane
she made his fears become
either ghostly apparitions
or waking nightmares
he didn't prefer one over the other
he knew that there was no difference
He met this girl
the summer before ninth grade
and she showed him a life
full of unseen wonders
the beauty of apathy and laziness
He didn't need anybody else
only that beautiful girl
she made him good,
made him better,
made him calm,
made him him
Dancing beneath a flickering street light
he soaked in the peace of the world
until it rose above him
a shaking mass of bleak nothing
which at least hid the world
of even bleaker negativity
Mary Jane was a good girl
but he had outgrown her sway
he would miss her
but truthfully,
he also
would not
Apr 2013 · 585
Academia
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
I took a semester of college
the words of the professor hung limp
like dead fish on the river bank
for everything I was glad to learn
there were ten ******* credit lectures
and I never felt smarter
only more tired
and exacerbated at the world
I didn't gain life lessons
or wisdom
but I did drink and smoke a lot
so as a warning
make sure that college
is the right choice for you
and not just
a monetary drain
on the pragmatic western spirit
Apr 2013 · 993
I've Been To Paris
Harry J Baxter Apr 2013
I've been to Paris
seen the city
unwind in flashes of art before me
but do not be fooled
by the amateur writers' ideals
for Paris is full of stores
with neon signs in the windows
which read
******,
*** toys,
bisexual,
gay,
videos,
and lubricants
in perfect English
Paris is full of
hotels and hustlers
African men,
met us off the ferry
and tried to sell us lighters
and fake watches
And the homeless line the street
like unfortunate corpses
and there are areas
of great dangerous people
full of edge and hate
but at night
the cathedrals
Notre Dame
and the the landmarks
are lit up like supernovas
and it is enough to make you forget
forget all that is ugly
and wrong with the place
so if you wish to seek Paris
just remember,
you have to see beauty
through the ugly
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