The beat of your heart is the most beautiful sound.
I lay and listen while holding your hand.
Calm and natural
Like ocean waves crashing over the sand.

I live in this place
With people I know
Its familiar
But I feel I need to go

I live in this place
With all my stuff
Its comfortable
But its just too rough

I live in this place
With anger taking toll
Its quiet here
But it pains my soul

I live in this place
With my head spinning
Its confusing here
But there is no winning

I live in this place
With arms all welcome
Its not right
But I stay to rules succumb
I feel so unwelcome...

How can someone be so blind?
She gives me love yet causes pain.
A forgetful mother wishes to be kind.
Though the same she will remain.
Its even difficult to face her in my mind.
I continue to try, but defend her in vain.
Chances come and trust will unwind.
As she builds up hope, only to forget again.