Hannah Adair

Hannah Adair Jul 2013

When will you be happy-
After everyone goes home?
Will you always be so incomplete,
Especially when you're all alone.

As rain hits the window-
Tears streak your face.
From all the pain you felt,
In this dark forsaken place.

Be strong, don't lose hope-
You're almost at the end.
Just keep hoping and wishing,
That your heart will one day mend.

10/22/08

Hannah Adair Jul 2013

******* Sober

******* sober is
not for casual affairs.
It is for lovers.

When ******* sober
there is no hiding the truth.
I haven't *** yet.

When ******* drunk, one
can disguise real emotions-
Blame the alcohol.

I'm not liking this-
connecting with someone else.
We are not in love.

******* sober is
for someone stronger than me.
Let me remain drunk.

Hannah Adair Jul 2013

Not Just Dances

Flesh to cloth- Paper to flesh
Dances and lights- Showtime.
All I see is brokenness. This isn't a game.

Cheek to cheek- Head to toe
Smiles and laughter- Guises.
Money is just stuff. It will only fade away.

Hand to hand- Hand to waist.
Tension and release- Ecstasy.
Marital status counts for naught. Cash is king.

Hannah Adair Jul 2013

Restless

Nights become dawns and I'm still here,
Waiting for my thoughts to clear.

I'm wide awake, and I keep tossing these ideas around.

Basic. Negative connotations. Words.
I keep hearing and seeing everything you've ever said.
What is true and what is false?
Your words keep echoing in my head.

I'm insignificant, just a brief moment.
You only want a life of enjoyment.

Desires run rampant at night, if only they could be bound.

What if things were different, what if it changed?
Circumstance. Choice. Opportunity.
Given the facts I'd be a fool to respond,
I strive and contend for you, fruitlessly.

The night wastes me, the day is no better or worse.
I seek comfort and solace in anything, even verse.

Hannah Adair Jul 2013

Fading

Nothing,
The light in my eyes
fading.

Worthless,
My life is pointless
fading.

Tired,
Travailing alone
fading

Lonely,
Be my friend- someone
fading

Fading into the darkness,
Fading into the night,
Fading until my figure-
is just an empty light.

Hannah Adair Jul 2013

Draw Me

Capture my essence
On paper,
With pencil,
With your hand.
Capture me in this moment.

Trace my form
Pencil to paper,
Create,
Recreate,
Trace me to perfection.

"You are beautiful"
You chuckle,
"Just be,
Beautiful".
Are my scars beautiful?

This is real
This moment,
This hour,
Time with you,
You see the real me.

Hannah Adair Jun 2013

What More Do I Have to Be

What more do I have to be, than me?
No other has ever been so cruel-
to look at me and not see.

I must be too nice for my own good.
You used me when it was easiest
doing anything I would-

I'd oblige to all selfish demands,
Never thinking words spoken were false.
Drawing a line in the sands.

I refuse to be your play toy,
Don't use me at your convenience
No one likes a little boy.

— The End —