Feeling lonely in this world of mine
todays a painful day to cry
sitting through all life's constant lies
a painful reminder of life

Beautiful types of pain
weathering me down daily
reaching deep inside
pulling out feelings buried in my heart

So over the pains of yesterday
watching them all melt away
with the steady fall of rain
I feel the burn

Trying to find love
not succeeding today
brushing off the dirt from my fallen knees
never again will they steal my life

Taking some time to heal over the scars
time's passing
life keeps going on everyday
watch as I reach for the stars

Ending on days that run into a river of nothingness
coming out with less each day
wishing to come out with more
wanting to learn all life has to offer

But I'm hindered and left behind to fend for the own likes of myself
eating away is the guilt I call my conscience
begging me to do right
but my body always succumbing to wrong

Convulsing with the stress and pressure of right and wrong
black and white
no gray in between
no room for compromises

The only definition for right is how I perceive it to be
subjected to the personas of the world
not one is better to be than me, myself, and true I
not one do I fall in line with

Embracing being different
embracing being unique
embracing being the only one
embracing being me

Don't know what to say or do
My life shamefully revolves around you
I do everything you want me to
Just to be turned away
Feeling this deep void inside
Nothing can fill it
You ripped a piece out of me
A piece of my heart, thoughts, and being
I'm empty upon my inside
Yearning to be free
Kicking and Screaming for you to let go
Yet you keep a constant hold on me
You kick my when I'm already down
And break me more with every word you say
Breaking me
While I'm trying to break away

Picture perfect outside
dying morsel on the inside
tiny cracks showing in glass
reflecting a broken person

Weathered down by a n unjust world
it tries to keep me down
but I just pick myself up again
adding more cracks t o my already cracked soul

Adding more wear and tear over time
involuntarily giving away pieces of my heart
stolen by unworthy boys
yearning to be loved for me

No solitary affection towards my body
but towards my yearning heart
giving, but also taking
piecing my heart back together like a puzzle

Days drift slowly by
Carving paths into this world
Setting in stone what cannot be written on paper
Etching into memories what cannot be taught
Tracks left behind from the people we once looked up to and adored
Learning from the wise
Teaching from experience
Wheels turns inside bright minds
Dreaming up what hasn't been dreamt
Creating things that change the world
Inspiring those who need inspiring
And changing the world making it better

I hide myself for none to see
Afraid of judgement and what will be seen,
What is wrong with being the way I am?
Just because I'm different doesn't make me weird,
Just because I'm alone doesn't make me lonely,
I feel as deeply as any other

Sometimes more
Sometimes further
You judge me for being me
But why not judge you for being you?
Running from everyone who cares
Hiding behind metaphorical trees

I disappear from everyone
Just to conquer the perils of life on my own,
Feeling unworthy of any kind of love
The cruel world has turned against me,
Taking my eyes so I can't see
Taking each important part of me

Resuming the loneliness of my words,
Cause people just cut me with my shards of broken heart,
Scared to be me in the world of only me,
I can't see the love that's left inside of me,
I need to heal with what's left inside of me,
I drift quietly through the breeze

http://allpoetry.com/poem/12448056--I-hide-myself-for-none-to-see---by-Smith49

It was a year ago that I lost you
I remember when we used to laugh and play
You were there when no else was
You were my anchor to the world
Picking me up when I'd fall
Bandaging my scrapes and cuts
I remember when you got sick with the big "C"
I felt so out of it
I left school to be with you
I remember when you told me you hated me
But that made me love you even more
You had beat cancer
The months rolled past
And the holidays approached
I remember that horrible day
I crashed to the floor when I got the news
They had to pull me away from you
You were my rock
And now you were gone
I remember you promising me you'd see me walk across that stage
But now you'll never see that day
You're not in pain anymore
And for that I'm glad
I just wanted you to know
I miss you
I love you
You'll always be with me
Forever Grandma.

She's slowly running out of time
Casting glances every which way
Running from her future

But it's just begun
The lies are catching up fast
Her life is spinning out of control

She wants a perfect life and a perfect home,
She wants to be special
But she's a wreck and she's a freak

She hates life each day more
She doesn't think she belongs here
She's running out of time

The sands of time are slipping out of her grasp,
It's consuming her
It's breaking her

Withering her into nothing but dust
She's almost gone
Then she'll bleed no more

Turning into nothing
Fading into infinity
She's running out of time

I stretch until you pull too hard
you're like a feather and my thorns are sharp
drawing blood from your love
grinding away at life's precious moments

No one can break me
grasping your love
and cutting the string
smiling cruelly as it bleeds

You broke my heart
and now I've shattered yours
I see your soul within your eyes
and see the blackness that they hide

These hands of mine
have taken what was mine
correcting the act of being wronged
you stole my heart and I've taken yours

Punched out many tiny holes
your black blood seeps through
corrupting you even more
finally I have made you reap what you sowed

Beautiful destruction of the soul
forever wandering Earth
lost to Heaven
lost to Hell

Doesn't know where to dwell
it's in limbo and doesn't even know
watching the world as it goes by
stuck between two eternities

Not knowing what to do or where to go
wasn't welcomed in life
now not welcomed in death
having no one to turn to, lonely

My heart beats to the ticks of time
each one in sync
not one falling out of beat
fighting to keep it all away

Losing everything I've ever loved
aching to be free
keeping away hidden memories
only meant to burn

Void of feeling
coasting through the days
roaming he Earth lonely is my Hell
my own personal purgatory

Endlessly going through the days
invisible for none to see