Words are powerful things
Thought up from the heart
Be careful what you say
they have the power to destroy
The power to create
But once they are said they cannot be taken away
They scar and break people into bits
And uplift them when they are down
Words can even change the world
If they are allowed

Don't know what to say or do
My life shamefully revolves around you
I do everything you want me to
Just to be turned away
Feeling this deep void inside
Nothing can fill it
You ripped a piece out of me
A piece of my heart, thoughts, and being
I'm empty upon my inside
Yearning to be free
Kicking and Screaming for you to let go
Yet you keep a constant hold on me
You kick my when I'm already down
And break me more with every word you say
Breaking me
While I'm trying to break away

It was a year ago that I lost you
I remember when we used to laugh and play
You were there when no else was
You were my anchor to the world
Picking me up when I'd fall
Bandaging my scrapes and cuts
I remember when you got sick with the big "C"
I felt so out of it
I left school to be with you
I remember when you told me you hated me
But that made me love you even more
You had beat cancer
The months rolled past
And the holidays approached
I remember that horrible day
I crashed to the floor when I got the news
They had to pull me away from you
You were my rock
And now you were gone
I remember you promising me you'd see me walk across that stage
But now you'll never see that day
You're not in pain anymore
And for that I'm glad
I just wanted you to know
I miss you
I love you
You'll always be with me
Forever Grandma.

You Furtive grace entices me
Pulling me into your emerald eyes
Jumping from place to place
Enticing deep serenity
Your lithe body allowing you to do things no other could
Purring at my slightest touch
You're a species of grace and ferocity
Of spontaneity and serenity
Your movements toward me mellifluous
Gazing into my soul
You capture my heart
A myriad of emotions flow off you
But you're just an effervescent cat
An old friend of mine
A God/Goddess in Egypt
Worshiped and loved
Your curiosity sometimes getting the best of you
But forever you'll take a place in my heart
Gaining my unwavering love
For I am an ailurophile

Life takes unexpected twists and turns
From which everyone must learn
Encompassing the truth one might see
Resonant voices telling right from wrong
Turning life into one large song
Fugacious dreams never coming true
Amorphous cascading of "ifs and buts"
Sagacious words flowing from the mouths of our elders
Directing us down the right path
Do we stay right or left?
Playing right into the hands of quixotic decisions
Changing the route of our life
Falling off the path of righteousness
The good in your decisions only there for a second then ****
Gone
Life is slowly turning into your own Hell
You start stealing, lying, and doing drugs
Corrupting your own soul
You find a gun and rob and steal
Then one day a thought comes to you
You found a means of an end to your misery
You press the gun against your temple
Bang! finally you ended your pain

Bleeding from the eyes is sorrow unspoken
My soul left open wide and barren
Stolen was all I could give
I once was innocent
But that was taken from me
Like many things in my life
Caustic lies spat my way
Breaking me down in sections
Trying and succeeding at holding me back
They say I need someone to talk to
But they're the ones who never listen
Always turning a blind eye
Where do I turn?
Who do I trust?
Betrayal and lost is all I've ever known
These dark feelings begging to come out
But they must forever be chained deep inside
Where the darkness feeds it
Allowing it to consume who I once was
It releases its' horror on the world
Then all I see is red
Red
Red everywhere

I fell for you like rain from the sky
Your touch seared into skin
I keep falling deep into this cancer called love
Constantly spreading through me

Always coming back to claim more of me each time
Putting my heart out there for the taking
The feeling of thousands of tiny stars colliding
Exploding into one large bursts of euphoria

Lighting me up from the inside out
Radiating this feeling through my pores
Feeling like our love can power this world of ours
Your love cascading over me

All you have to do is touch me and I'm on a high
Your loves allows me to grow wings and fly
Soaring high out into the world
Picking me up when I'm down

Scared to fall for your gentle touch
You're my bright light
In this otherwise dark existence
I wouldn't have it any other way

Just to be with you for another day
Looking in space for the stars and the heavens
Then turned to the heavens and found you.