welcome to the world
so as you think you know
it your just a child looking
at the world with innocent
eyes you never think
of the beating and the lies
the world isn't what you think it is
there is destruction and criminals
murders and liars people who will
hurt you then call you "there friend"
there is drug addicts and drunks
abusive fathers and weak mothers
but you see the world as a happy place
where there is no dieing and people crying and
yelling.. you shouldn't have done this
because now when reality hits ..
it will hit you so hard
it will be hell
your beautiful world crumbling to
pieces right in front of your eyes
your farther dies and your mother is being beaten
by your brothers farther your crying and trying to escape
the world because all its doing is tearing you apart
you look at yourself in the mirror wishing you were beautiful
you will break down and soon very soon
you just be completely insane
blocking out emotions blocking out the family
who loves you...
you hope to try and fix your beautiful world you had
so you won't have to deal with pain
but it's to late...
you already know what it's like you can't go back.......
you just have to face this new world and live
just live.....
because soon all the pain that  you have went through
will pay off.....
you will finally be able to smile again.......

i loved you
even when you did me wrong
you played your little tricks
and i played along
your spun your lies over and over
and i believed them all
this isn't my fault
i didn't mean to fall
i love you even though you
broke my heart
and i still forgive you even though
you tore my life apart.
and what hurts the most that
it's like you don't even care
i opened up to you
all those secrets that i shared
you know everything about me
my fears and my flaws
you told me you didn't care about them  
you said you loved them all
but i was played
by someone i thought was the one
but I'm trying to move one
because i can't take anymore pain
I'm done
i know i still love you
it still hurts to see that you moved on
but the days and months and years we had together
those special memories............
they're gone......