glimmering acrylics paint
your reflection,
while you
ponder your ungodly existence,
in the empty atmosphere,
surrounded by
inhospitable solar air.

immediately glowering,
obtuse,
even in your imagination
you are insignificant,
unimportant.

you disintegrate,
disillusioned
for an eternity.

my words to you go unspoken
my love for you is there
but you wont take it

im a broken piece of pottery
you disregard me
laying crippled in the dirt
shattered right where you left me

you wont help me though
not even a glance
to make sure im okay

as i lie there
broken.

thoughts swirling
around me
my mind is unable to focus

constant movement
creates
a constantly thinking mind
always filled with ideas

all is but a blur
a fantastic
colorful blur
that spits out images
that i have no choice but
to create.

every time i look at you my spine tingles
i shouldn't want you
but i do.

i wish that you were mine
but you wouldn't stay faithful.

you're everything that i want
but you can't offer me the most important thing
it's killing me.

i want to reach out
to grasp you
but always
you slip away.

i sit here
you're all i can think about
all that's on my mind.

i'm trying desperately
to keep holding up my wall
i can feel it though
i'm melting.

my resistance is getting weaker
every time i see you
giving in means letting go
and being vulnerable to you.

my emotions are battling
i want to give up
to fall hard.

i'm giving you my all
you're the only one that i want
but you seem
distant.

i don't want you to disappear
i'm counting on you
to stay for awhile.

getting left again
well
that is not an option
not something
i can handle.

i'm counting on you.

you're the only one i'v seen lately
you're the only one i'v wanted to see

you don't pass judgement
even if
the comment i make is weird as ****
you accept me
tie-dye pants in all

you beg me not to leave
even though its midnight
and we both need sleep

you make me wish
that i could stay
stay with you forever

i'v fallen hard
and i don't want you to give up on me
not now
or ever

i don't know where you came from
or why i didn't find you sooner
but
i'v got you now

that's all that matters.