****.
It's okay to cry little Billy... gangsters cry too.
u think u got it rough i have a severe bladder infection.
Don't go putting your wink in mysterious holes
You only love me for my body.

I remember...
Standing in the snow...
"Put some shoes on"
"Shoes are for little *******."
My feet are blue...
...your house smells like onions and death.

I love you
So, so much.
But my god,
Do I want to punch you.
Jealousy explodes in the pit of my stomach
When you say how loving she is.
I want to rip out this anger.
I want to stop shaking so much
Every time you tell me how much
She means to you.
But I just can't get that burning anger
Out of my heart.
And this hostility
Will finds its way to you.
Even though it would feel
So amazing to hurt you
Like you're hurting me.
I just can't do it.
So please don't cause me
This horrible burning any longer.

You,
Yes you,
I’m talking to you,
You know I want you,
No, not want, but really need,
Need to feel skin beneath my lips,
Smell your hair while kissing your neck,
My teeth teasing on your shoulder, tasting,
My hands on your waist, caressing, holding,
Pulling you close, ah, swaying, rocking gently
Deep breaths, dizziness, aching, till we kiss,
What then, you might ask, what indeed,
Will senses slip away, hmm, perhaps,
Reason becoming untethered, yes,
Breaking from its moorings, yes,
An explosion of delight, hot,
Raw passion, dark desire,
Riot of ****** discovery,
Hands touching, feeling,
Sensual lips exploring,
Drinking in pleasure,
Bodies now writhing,
Inhibitions crumbling,
Heat coursing, racing,
Until we are lost, yes,
Two becoming one,
Mind, body soul,
Falling, falling, ah,
Rising, drifting, hmm,
Sighing, escaping, sated,
More, needing more,
I’m talking to you,
Yes you,
You.

© Paul Chafer 2014

You tell yourself you're never going to do it again; the thing that lets you pour out your emotions. But you know you just can't live without it, even if it's hurting you and the people around you. You know that next time you feel empty, worthless, useless, that it will be the only thing you can think to do, that will, at least, temporarily, set you free. And that is what addiction is.