I cannot bear the thought of you leaving.
saying goodbye,
and never looking back.
I can't bear the thought of you moving on
while I'm still here
stuck on the thought of you.
I can't let you leave,
because I can't lose you.

I am selfish
for wanting you, when you want her
For hoping that she does not want you
And you will come crawling back to me

For hoping that one day,
You will see that I want you
More than anyone else
In this broken world

But i know
She wants you just as much as i do
And that you will go to her
Because she is better than me
In every way

And i cannot help but be jealous
That she gets you,
And i don’t.

One sided expectations can destroy you mentally
they can can destroy you like fire destroys a house

you expect so much from a person
only to be disappointed again

but you only see the good in them
so you expect more
only to be let down
and broken.

I'm always someone's second choice.
someone's last resort.
I will never be their first thought,
or even their third.
I'm just in the background,
waiting to be called
to the spotlight,
but never getting
the chance
to shine.

you hold my
paper heart
in your hand

please
don't
crumble
it.

I will no longer be a prisoner of heartache
that is caused by you.
I can see that you're giving up on me already
and that's okay.
You were a catalog of mistakes.
I just hope that one day
your heart learns to feel love in it's purest form.