H M Jeffrey

H M Jeffrey Jun 2013

Don't

Don't tell me that something that feels so right isn't whats right for me
Don't tell me that I'm waiting again for a someday...maybe
Don't try to make me believe that we don't belong
Don't try to make me feel like its all completely wrong
Who the **** are you to try to fill me with doubt
Who the **** are you to tell me to turn a deaf ear as my heart shouts
You just might be right and all thats left here is yet to be cried tears
You just might be wrong and we will live happily for the rest of ours years

H M Jeffrey May 2013

HUSH....

Crush it...snort it
Melt it....smoke it
Wrap it....eat it
Dissolve it....bang it
How do you like yours?
Come in and lock the doors
All hush hush on the DL
Give me your word you won't tell
Can't let anyone know
It's kept on the lowest low
Loving the way it makes you feel
Just find the right person and make a deal
Tingle tingle feel the hair grow
Have some class don't be a **
Closer and closer to the edge
Its dangerous out on the ledge
Have to eat and must sleep
Remember what you sow you shall reap
This is life your life not a game
Afterwards nothing will ever be the same
Dope is scary but oh so fun
And now you know there is no where left to run
Catch yourself early before its to late
Before those you love look at you in hate

Some of you out there will not appreciate this poem but any of you with addiction problems will here just how true it really is. thank you for reading

H M Jeffrey May 2013

Running to fast

Smoke a lot of **** eat a lot of dope
Always a need but not a lot of hope
Mountains to climb oceans to swim
Not a lot of time my futures looking dim
Moving as fast as I can when will enough be enough
Moving more than your best man but its getting kinda rough
When did I last do a line when did I last see a bed
I'll be just fine after I lay and rest my head
Running to fast when I really need to sleep
Know I can't last this is getting really deep
Lost as I am can I be saved
Do I even give a **** that its made me its slave
I'm turning to stone not the way I should be
Can't do it on my own can't nobody save me

H M Jeffrey May 2013

How to function

Crying, sobbing, screaming, running,
shut down, don't feel, look away
Run faster, farther, don't stop
hide, rest, wait for day

Sun bright, hot, blinding,
prepair, smile, be fake
Don't cry, be strong, almost night
stand up, stand tall, don't break

Sunset, day over, fall apart
curl up, lose control, feel the pain
Cry, wish to die, want to hide
sun up, do it again, this is insane

H M Jeffrey May 2013

Be a tease

I wanna *******
along with other things to
Wanna lick you from base to tip
and maybe beat you with a whip
Just thinking bout it makes me wet
been that way since the day we met
It turns me on when you slap me
don't judge me for how I be
Love it when you pull my hair
so come and get it if you dare
You enjoy telling me no
but love it when I go low
So tell me no and be a tease
I can replace you with ease

H M Jeffrey May 2013

Off beat

My heart is off beat
and there is a strange heat
Your eyes stare deep inside
tell me crazy boy was it a fun ride
You look inside my soul
your stare burns a hole
Can you follow the trail of pain
can you see that I've gone insane
My heart is covered in ugly scars
my soul trapped behind bars
Can't let you close won't let you in
I won't allow you to win
My body responds when you're near
my heart pumps fast when you're here
Even if my brain says not to
I can't help but fall for you
It's like flying high and taking a dive
not knowing if your parachute will bring you back alive

H M Jeffrey May 2013

My Desire

My blood is on fire
can't help that your my desire
It builds hotter each day
I try to make it go away
But it's far to hard
having you just wasn't in my cards
You make it so clear you don't want me
I'm the best choice you have why don't you see
You tell me not to look at you like that
and sometimes I feel like you personal floor mat
You don't mean to hurt me like this
and one day you'll realize it's me you miss
Did you really miss me or just need help again
you make loving you feel like a sin
I never want to lose you
but I know I can't share too
You don't want me and that's ok
but deep down I keep hope you will some day
Don't judge me for how I feel
for now I'm just learning how to deal
I know nothing will change I'm not dumb
right now I just try and stay numb