You keep talkin ******* as if I care
Hate to tell you but I don't scare
Think your so tough but you ain't bad
Time to back off I'm starting to get mad
Man you just some ***** *** dumb ****
Wish I had a **** to make you ****
You ain't nothing but a ***** *** ***
Awe what wrong your ***** need a rag
You need to back off or I'm gonna flip out
Keep moving that lip and find out what I'm about
You think your tough but your just full of *******
Just look at your ***** *** throwin a fit
I think you ain't nothing but a little *****
Better back up before your face needs stitched
Just sit down and stop acting a fool
Hate to tell you bro but you ain't cool

The crushing weight inside of my chest
Makes thoughts of you harder to digest
Burning tears fill fill my eyes and steals my breath
Filling me with a pain 10 fold worse than death
The tears that fill my eyes refuse to fall
Denying me the releasing relief that comes only after a waterfall
Trapped in a lake of unreleased tears and untold pain
The screaming in my head, my own voice as if I've gone insane
I fear that in this lake of tears I may drown
And that the last sounds I'll ever hear is the deafening silence of nobody else around
Oxygen free to all others to me is refused
Fighting for every breath leaves my soul feeling bruised and abused
Treading water ever rising inside my own personal hell
Silence so loud it echoes with the pain that it has come to foretell
And only you hold the key to my release
"I forgive you" is all I need to achieve a little inner peace

I close my eyes and your right here
It feels bitter sweet to have you near
It was a love that happened so fast
The kind of love that was made to last
Over night all I could see was you
It felt so right a love so true
You as my lover and my best friend
It seems to me you were a God send
We made it round after round
Through all the ups and downs
I open my eyes and see
It was only that way for me
There's a loneliness deep inside
It feels as if part of me has died
Never for a second, thought it would end this way
I search my memories trying to find the exact day
The day that your love was lost
I would pay anything to change it no matter the cost
When I close my eyes you feel the same as I do
Cause your still in love with me too

I  just don't care anymore
So I go out and get high
I don't want to live
I just want to die

This pain inside of me
Just won't stop
This day is crazy
I feel like I'm going to drop

What a price to pay
For one single night
I want this all to end
I need for everything to be alright

**** what people say
**** nosey people and their way
Just leave me be
**** what they see
**** what they said
****** get it out of your head
**** what they do
No need for them to
**** 'em for not caring
**** 'em for never sharing
There's not a one to miss
**** 'em all its my *** they can kiss

Do you think you know me when you look me in the eye
I've made my mistakes I won't lie
Here is the list of people that I have hurt
While I selfishly crawled through the dirt
I have seen rage in the eyes of my dad
I know I made him angry but worse than that I made him sad
In my mom I have seen a complete loss of trust
All because I wanted to feel that wonderful rush
With my daughter I seen fear while she cried
The pain in her eyes made me wish I had died
I dragged them down the path of hell right beside me
All the time my selfishness made them difficult to see
I thought I was alone as I walked into Hell
But I know now because of me they are here as well
Unlike my lonely decent together we will rise
I will replace the rage and distrust I see in their eyes
I will remove the fear in which my daughter is in slaved
I know now that I can and want to be saved

I hate you and all that you're about
I hate that because of you I'm filled with doubt
Because of you I now sit in Hell
I believed all of those lies you use to tell
You said you were all I would ever need
I was naive and I followed your lead
You treated me good and took away all my pain
I had no idea on my soul you would leave this stain
When I was all alone you were there for me
Before long you were all that I could see
But when I was ready to leave you wouldn't let me go
Suddenly I found it impossible to tell you no
Try as I did I just couldn't get away
You made it clear you were here to stay
You laughed in my face and called me a fool
I had no choice but to follow your rules
No more family, laughter,and loving hugs
Thats the price I paid when I turned to drugs