So far. . .
Seeking a future turn
A new flow to hold
A slow trip to Plum Village
To slow my candle burn
Slowly sip upon your gaze
Gently slip into your fold.

So far . . .
I missed your knock on my door.
I lost your visit but heard your curse.
Your shine and balance seems lost and spent.
Stopping by to share and vent.
You knocked to verse.
To seek a new dance.
Take another chance.
To hold your arch
above the maple floor.

So far . . .
N still dreams.
Still dreams in LaLa Land.
She holds sway her shine.
A shine that melts everyman.

I'm still glad you're here.
In this life, in this space.
Frankl and Rumi lie so still.
They still smile at your subtle grace.
N
It's time re-enter from afar.
Time to visit Cap d'Antibes and taste the star.
Sip it slowly to bring it near.
It lives within to fulfill.

So far . .
My hamartia still churns my curse.
It flickers with ease to burn deep scars.
As it drips these words to script my verse.
Yet I hold my core tight.
For its moment to be.
Still seeks it might.

So far...
It seems true that a mindful universe
Seeks its purpose
It shifts and sways
To light my gaze.
Gifting sweet grace
To live my verse.

A
Happy Birthday!
Enjoy the moments
The levitating nights
As love surrounds
To share its light.
J

Welcome to 26!
You're past the quarter mark
Living life to its peaks
Sharing its sparks
Finding your mix
Continuing to seek
To grow your heart.

...my original poems
written to feel
light
revealed to connect
life
shared to heal
scars
posted as known
afar
hidden to affect
you.

Written by . . .
..... my children's glow
.. sweetening my heart.
.....my past flow
..sours a family apart.

It Was.

All Good.

Was it?

No Truth.

We Flew.

Flew High.

All In.

All Three.

Then Four.

Dreams Born.

Three Dreams.

Then Four.

Dreams Grew.

Dreams Lived.

Our Tides.

Tides Flowed.

Flowed Ease.

Then Time.

Time Flew.

Flew Bye.

Your Waves.

Waves Raged.

Waves Crushed.

Crushed Dreams.

Truth Drowned.

One Cloud.

Your Cloud.

Three Dreams.

Dreams Alive.

Suns Shined.

Shells Cracked.

You Slid.

Slid Off.

Again.

Gods Showed.

Showed Truth.

Truths Sank.

Dreams Sank.

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I Felt.

Felt Cut.

Waves Cut.

As If.

I Slipped.

You Skipped.

Bad Trip.

As When.

You Tripped.

I Gave.

You Flipped.

Waves Crashed.

Gods Whipped.

Same Ship.

Hulls Cracked.

Cracks Deepen.

Same Trip.

Our Trip.

Rip Tides.

Your Waves.

Moved Us.

To Crash.

To Keep.

Sun On.

You.

No Tide.

No Dreams.

No Truth.

We meet.
We greet.
As we assemble
Coffee and spoons.
You sit in beauty.
I stumble in pride.
Your curves tremble.
I tread lightly.
You shine light.
I breathe tight.
Over half winks.
Dry smiles.
And square drinks.

My head rambles.
My breath abates.
My voice scrambles.
My face straight.

I throw smiles of my youth
You tell me stories wide and bright.
My subtle lies of clean truth
Your clean lies under soft light.
Floating forward on a figure 8 path
Butterflies fight the sweet hot breeze
Dancing over barbs with a frail swath
Seeking strong love on a soft limb
They carry hurt with a brittle ease.
We hide our tender scars of late
Listening so softly to each word move
Talking with utter hope to simply placate
We shy close holding tender limbs
And propel back into to pain's groove.

My eyes dart
my breath aghast
This moment to be
of our future's past
This moment to be
of our first date.

Passing off stories of our past
I listen close to every word
Sitting composed at full attention
Soft smiles to pull you forward
Your voice a sweet feast
Butterflies stumble in
You catch me stare
Inhaling soft silence
We calm the air.

Wanting to know
I peek into you.
Opening myself
To reveal what's new.

My head disappears
My eyes dream
My shiny veneer
Begins to hear
Flutters stream.
As I seek your light
My chest slowly warms
To flickering glows
Of a faint moonbeam.
My heart endears
As I faintly hear
Butterflies stammer
to face their fear.

You smile freely
Clenching fingers tight
Butterflies take flight
Hoping what might.
To peek into me
Saying no to what
this night could be.

We float to hints of comfort
By sharing what's true
For all this fragile effort
I hope for date number two.

Do we to be wanted / when we want / to be wanted.

Do we cling to scripts / write new tales / fail our trip.

Is it a 'cheap trick' / to 'want you to want me' / in our need to self-inflict.

Do we want to be wanted / when we / want to be wanted.

Do we yearn deep warmth / of another / to soothe our storms.

Our ego screams / to be heard / to be seen.

Our ego wants more / to be the earth in air / yet it is only just a spore.

Is it there / more to give / enough to share.

I want to show/ but stay inside / play to the glow.

I want to lean in close /  inside your throes / feel your dose.

Is it enough / to inhale your scent / to calm my tough.

My warmth expands / as I yearn / to feel your warm hand.

My coldness shares / my doubt and fear / of love too scared.

We sit still / telling our story / yearning to fill another thrill.

We dig holes / deep inside / to keep ourselves whole.

We all want worth / to be / to be wanted / wanted since birth.