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The valley
Of the dead
Calls to me
Begging me to join them
Once again
The ****** and forsaken
They want the darkness to swallow me
To fill me with malice
And pain

But I wish not
I wish not to succumb
To the hatred and greed
Instead I want to follow
The light
The radiant brightness
That encircles you

Your aura stings my
Unworthy eyes
Because I am filled with darkness
I am shroud in malice
I am a shadow
That dims you
And your beauty

So I must go back to
My brethren in the shadows
And you go back to
The angels from the light

So I guess you could call me pretty
Or maybe even beautiful
Tragically beautiful
With sad eyes
And scarred skin
Like shattered glass

But I am not worth the trouble
So don't fall in love
I have tears and pain
Constantly flowing through me
Or out of me

My life is crazy
And catastrophic
It wrecks everything in
Its path

I know I seem happy
And always brave
The center of attention
The one people remember

But that takes a lot of acting
To be so happy
And so brave
Because deep down inside
In broken
And weak
I am not strong
And I never will be

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               ********* for making me so weak

Everyday I see you
And everyday
My heart beats faster
I have had crushes
But this is something more
Something exciting
Something beautiful
But the problem is
You don't feel it

My conscience
That has been there
Since I was four
Making sure
That I wasn't in trouble

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Long, straight brown hair
Chocolate eyes
Freckles cover her face
Extremely tall

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Shy, but outgoing
Depending on who's around
Impossible to stay mad at
Makes bad choices
From time to time

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin


Silent treatments
Loud fights
Best Friends

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

She is a rock
She is string
She holds things together
She calms the sea
Or starts a storm

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Embarrassing moments
Weird looks
Always crazy
She gets through the bad things
Helps start the good

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Puzzles, swim team
Life changing
Life calming
Starts Chaos
She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Two sides
Same coin
Same person
Different personalities
Quiet in public
Crazy in not

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Keeps things going
She is a bank
A bank of secrets
She keeps the vault
Locked

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

She is like a storm
And the calm before it
Chaos and control




She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Listens to music
Like the rest of the world
But yet, doesn't conform
At least not completely

She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

Easily molded
But not easily shaped
She is not always there
Yet she is


She is string
She holds me together
She is a storm
Starts chaos
She is a two sided coin

She taught me
That I
Didn't have
To be
Completely
Alone

You walk down the hallway
With evil glares
Curious stares
Keep walking
A smile or two
But only a few
You get to your class
Just waiting for the time to pass
You finally get home
And go up stairs
A cut
Maybe two
If its bad enough
Then you go downstairs
Put on a smile
Pretend to be happy
For dinner
You push your food around
Then you go back upstairs
To throw up the two
Bites of food you ate
Go to sleep
Repeat
Repeat
Repeat
Until you can't repeat anymore
Then you get the rope
And the stool
By then its too late
The stool is gone
And all that's left
Is the rope
And you want to go back
But it is
Too late
Too late
Too late
**TOO LATE