I like you
I need to see you
I want you
I need to hug you
I need you
I can't have a conversation with you
when this keeps popping into my head

So here I go again
I'm always wishing for tomorrow

I guess it was only a matter of time
before I broke down
I guess I didn't expect to break down
in front of you
You've always seemed to be my light
when I was standing in the dark
You always have been easy to talk to
I just never expected to cry while standing by you

You made me cry
so you could wipe my tears

I found
a far away place
for my dark secrets

Sometimes I want
To get lost
Out in the sky
Pause reality for a second

Mirror mirror on the wall
I know I'm not the prettiest of them all
Because I live in a judgmental society
That thinks peoples looks tell all
Mirror mirror on the wall
Stop pointing out our flaws
We already know them
And it tears people apart

Here we go
You're part of the game
Because you didn't turn away
Your mistake
Sad nights
I lay awake
I like you
Why?
I'm not quite sure yet
It hurts
Then it doesn't
My life is the game
Now you're part of it
And you'll always be
Darling I'm sorry
You mean so much to me

You're the only one
Who can save me from myself

Please
Pull me up
Or drop me
I'm done waiting

What is it
That makes my mind run to you?
With all of this madness
I guess it's good
To have some perfection in my head
At least thinking of you is never a waste
But it always does keep me awake
But sleep isn't that important anyway
You're like a song
Constantly playing in my head
But I can never get tired of you
Because you will always be
You

Get a grip
You're losing it
The pain you feel is just a trick
The story is always really thick
There's nothing you can say except goodbye
If nothing else you're alive
Get a token
You're so broken
Pain slashing through your mind
You're breaking
You're shaking
Tears are rolling from your eyes
Silent screams for help
Coming out loud
But you've left
You're gone
And you were the only one I had left
No one to save me
Oh well it's done
I might have ended it for myself
If I hadn't fallen so hard that I'm gone

You may not know it
But you took me by the hand
And brought me to this adventurous land
Retaught me how to smile
How to really laugh
Then at night you go to rest
And in the dark
I shed a tear
Because you can't see
But maybe it's me who can't see
Because you always come back
And so I smile again
But I've been too blind to see that
But now I do
So I can laugh

Noticing little things
Like that piece of the conversation
When everything seems right
Even when you know it shouldn't
Like when you realize that
You're still breathing
Your hearts still beating
It may be natural but it's still
Wonderful
Exciting  
Beautiful
I have to go
Goodnight
Turning please don't go to
I'm glad we talked
Even if it wasn't for long enough.....
Noticing the smile you forgot
Smile for tomorrow, today, and yesterday
Smile for me smile for you
Even if it's totally wrong
It's just so right
Oh well goodnight
Goodnight not
Goodbye
And that's why it's just so right....
So completely right

They wanted the truth
So I told them
But I guess it didn't please them
Because they tossed me aside
As if I was a broken toy
But look at us we're all broken
And we look at each other like we're not human
Just because we're messed up
And our feelings are confusing
But they treat us like we don't have any
Because to them we're all toys sometimes
So again they leave us
But who wouldn't, look at us
Leave me
And I'll be
Broken
Empty
Lost
But who cares?
So treat me like a broken toy
And I'll be forever gone

What do you do when madness contains you?
What do you do when silence breaks you?
Where do you go to get tomorrow?
Where do you go to lose your sorrows?
When will you see there is no light?
When will you see that you gave up the fight?
Who do you go to when you have no place?
Who do you go to when you lose the race?
Why do you find it so hard to believe?
Why do you find it so hard to leave?

Sometimes its easiest to let the world fall around us

This is life

So you will cry

Learn the truth  

Learn to lie

Selfish games

We will play

Feel the wound

Fight the pain

Find your path

Find your pain

Find your sorrows

Lose the game

Find your wound

Deepen it

There's nothing left

No one wins

I've never believed in fairy tales
I don't need to be a princess

I don't have high expectations
Because i want to achieve them

But you'll still be my what if...

Who are you to bring me pain?
Who are you to destroy me?
Who are you to tell me I'm not pretty enough?
Who are you to reject me?
Who are you to mock me?
Who are you to repeat this everyday?

The answer is my brain

Sometimes the dark haunts me
it makes me fear it
Sometimes it calms me
and relaxes me to sleep
But every so often it taunts me
because sometimes i want
to disappear into it

When your walls crumble
you build them taller
you build them stronger
so no one can break you
then when you do break
you have no one to blame
other than you
but when you reject yourself
it's rejection just the same
no one loves you
and no one can
because you build
the wall up again
but a reject is all you've been

Somewhere lost
is where i lay.
Words just go away.

I want to find a place

Where I can be alone

Where I don't think of you

                                                 but  

I don’t know where it is                

I would look but i can’t

It’s somewhere

                                                  I

Wonder where it is                    

How far away                                                

If  someone finds it                                                  

                                                  Would

They let me know

I wonder how long

It would take me to

                                                    miss

My life                                        

My home                                    

My everything...                          
                                                   You

I can remember
smiling and laughing
though when I'm sad
its not what i think of
even if it should be
still smile when you can
and don't make yourself suffer
you can't chose how you look
so be proud you're yourself

No one knew how I felt
I smiled till I was by myself
Didn't see the tears I cried

Bullied me
When I didn't talk
Never said a word to them

Scared of my own friends
The few that I actually had

  Run to bathrooms just to cry

And you say I wouldn't understand

I didn't mean anything
Nothing I said mattered
I could lie and say I hate you
But it would hurt me more than you
Forget it now it's done
Now no one is what you've become

Seven billion people
Struggling through tears
Struggling through fears
Struggling through the day
Seven billion people
Hoping for change
Hoping for love
Hoping for the next day
Seven billion people
Just wanting to make it through
Kind of like you

Broken and pretending
Lost in nothing
Winning by default
losing by rule
Can’t stop the patterns
Nothing is cool
Can’t stop pretending
Now who are you?

Seconds. Minutes.
Hours. Days.
Never going  
fast enough.
Never going
slow enough.
Living just
to watch them fade.
Please go away.

Silence is torment
for it carries
lost hopes
and broken dreams

Numbs your mind
with words never said
and tears you've cried
and screams that
never left

Suffocating on the pain
this world always
leaves for me

I'm done with the silence
its time to make a sound
the words reach my lips
and I cry for help
but no one will hear me
because they left me by myself

frozen in a moment
cradled with emotion

color or black and white
saved for a time

smile or cry
scream or laugh
today or tomorrow
flash or no flash

press a button
take a picture
now it's all
saved in pixels

The emotions become enough
I lay down for a moment and cry
Then shut my swollen eyes
The light is then gone
Darkness in that moment
And then to lay awake
Silent cries and soundless screams
A never fading nightmare

Gone and lost
Hopeless dreams
and memories
Fighting battles
Left unwon
Timeless moment
Timeless race

Smiling is no longer
An emotion
No longer
A friendly gesture
But only
Another mask

Now everyone's become
Emotionless dolls
Playing along
To mask the past
And the time to come