Gwen Johnson

Gwen Johnson Mar 2014

The Hold

I can almost just see
How I'll be when I'm old
Gone a little distant
A little cold
From all the things I was never told
Pushed to the edge
With a loose hold
Always afraid of drowning
But even more afraid of never letting go
Till one day
I break the hold

Gwen Johnson Mar 2014

Froze

Let me love you
From afar
From way back here
In this dark
In this cold
I won't hold
On to you
I'll let you go
I'll stay right back here
Froze

Gwen Johnson Mar 2014

Rejection

I fear rejection
Yet I told you how I felt
And now I'm waiting here
With this nothingness
And that's one problem
With speaking through glass screens
But every time I speak to you
I find myself anxious
And I feel like I'll get rejected
But I usually
Reject myself
Before I get rejected by anyone else

Gwen Johnson Mar 2014

Washed away (10 word)

I awoke just to see the rainfall wash me away

Gwen Johnson Mar 2014

The Performance

I don't know how you can look at me
And insist you've done nothing wrong
Like I should believe you
But by now I know you
I know how you turn it on me
Though I didn't do anything particularly wrong
Yet you blame me
You make me feel small
So you can act big
But you can stop the act
No need for a show
This isn't a game
So there's nothing to win
Though you'll keep your act till the end
You don't deserve a trophy for it
I wasn't pleased with your act
I won't stand back transfixed
I won't shed tears
Because this time
I didn't believe the performance

Gwen Johnson Mar 2014

Smile

Some
Mean
I've reached happiness
Like some plead
Escape

Gwen Johnson Mar 2014

I'll call you...

I'll call you hidden
I can almost just see you as you are
As someone I might actually like
But you try to be someone who'll be liked
And I know what it feels like for society to push you to that
But that's not how you know me so I won't tell
So I'll call you hidden

I'll call you cookie
'Cause although your sweet
It's not long before you're gone
So I'll call you cookie

I'll call you hugs
You're kind and caring
You're warm
You're understanding
I miss you when you're gone
I'll call you hugs

I'll call you home
You bring me warmth
You're comfortable to be around
And somehow everything leads back to you
I'll call you home

I'll call you music
You have many moods
But I love them all
You're inviting
And you make me feel worthwhile
I'll call you music

And you
You I'll call you beautiful
You know why?
Because you are