I wish I wasn't in this place
Everything's so far from grace
I wish I wasn't here
not this place

Some wear
nooses as necklaces
And scars as bracelets
But the deeper the scars
the harder to erase them
But I on the other hand
Take all the pain in
Dying from this suffocation
But my pain is slowly erasing
mostly comes with the lack of sleeping
And if you see a smile on my face I mean it

She sat
Upset
Memories running through her head
Thoughts filled
With people and places
Voices speaking at insane paces
All a shred of something you once had
And as you said
She couldn't forgive them

She is always in a hurry
So happy when the snowflakes fall in a flurry
In the shops as soon as it becomes November
Wrapping gifts in early December
Giving what she bought away
Happy that it's Christmas day
And then only the next day
Sad to see the year was the same
So tired of the sorrow filled game
Hoping that next year she will change
Hopes for next year all the same
Hoping this on new years day
Hoping...
Hoping....
Doing everything the same

She said her goodbyes
Like she was leaving town
She said her goodbyes
Like we might run into her tomorrow
Too bad her goodbyes lasted so much longer

She sat
Cross legged
Tea in her hands
And just begged
That today would be a good day

In all that emptiness
Only once did I think I was lost
And that change of direction
Led me to where I belong