Some people say true happiness exists
Some people say it doesn't
But what I say is I had the best night ever
Because it had you guys in it
So thanks for being the best friends
That could ever exist

I'm the girl no one wants to be
I've always been to afraid to speak
So I can't hold myself up
When you knock me down
I just keep getting further in the ground
It seems like you're trying to dig me a grave
But I don't want to die
I've been counting day
Till I can get away
Far enough away
You'll never see me break

Cold
Pale
So very dead
bury em up
And get back the fun
Halloween only happens
One day a year

I thought some of my fears
Might disappear over the years
But it seems like they're here to stay
In fact over the years
More seemed to have clung on
I'm not a little girl anymore
I think I'm much to mature for that
You might say I am
And I'll just friendly smile back
It's just another judgment on your part
And I'm so used to getting judged
It seems like routine
Since elementary school
Getting judged by appearance
The voice you speak
But I didn't really have a voice
So you judged me because of that
I was always more scared of girls than guys
Girls would hurt me emotionally
Guys would hurt me physically
And that was okay
At least the pain told me I was alive

I jumped right in
I tried to swim
But i wasn't floating
I was falling
I flailed my arms
Up
Down
There seemed to be no direction
I was so used to gasping air in
I didn't realize it would let the water in
Now I'm with you
It seems like there is no direction
I try to talk
But the air disappeared from my lungs again
I feel like I'm drowning
You make me feel like I'm drowning

It was something I was told
A story so old
I barely bothered to listen
So lost in translation
I couldn't understand what it meant
But i stumbled upon it
When I thought I had lost it
Looking up and seeing the sky still
I was in motion
Turns out it was in motion too
You see I always looked right through
Like it was glass and I had no option than to
Find someone to place my blue unto
Because it wasn’t something to be held
I always wondered why it was dreary
It made me so weak and weary
That's why I get the meaning so clearly
But as always it didn’t say what I wanted it to
So I threw it to you
As I always do
But it turns out you have a limit too
So you fall and you break
And I just shake my head and walk away
‘Cause I have nothing left to hold unto

Some of us are outgoing
Some of us are shy
Some of us prefer shadows
Some of us prefer light
some of us say we're okay
Some of us are okay
Some of us don't have an option
So panic filled we accept it
Accept being anxious and shy
Hide from the light
Say we're okay
Because maybe one day
The panic won't consume us
We'll say goodbye to the shadows
as we step into the light
Someday we may be okay
So for now we accept it