Today's magic word was God
As I set off for work at the pool
The moon showing the beginnings of a smile

I looked at all these people
And what was it?
Day in day out?

When we were young,
I saw God in everyone
Then he/she/it, slipped away from me

Today I thought about the workers
The parents
The world and the heartlessness

And I thought that God must be dedicated
God must be dedication
To something
Day in day out

There were goals,
And then there were goals

God must be dedicated
I thought to myself
As I looked and thought about us all
The moon smiling still

God must be dedicated
And so I thought
I dedicate myself
To this
To what I do and how I live

And somewhere in it
God would be visible

I'm no one to talk about stability
I'm a ****** too
But what if I saw just one thing thru?

To leave it be
To respect it

To not quarter each limb

Some kind of veneration

Could I even do that?
Me?

Leave a space for the unknown

Mark it out
With an X
With an altar
With a prayer
With respect

Leave a space for the unknown

Run to it
Walk with it
Dream about it
Enact and perform it
Be it

Leave a space for the unknown

Let it be
Call it what you like
Believe and re-believe
Learn and re-learn
Here's one for the unknown

Look after the unknown
Take care of it
Be understanding with it
Hold it
Set it free

Leave a space for the unknown

Sit by my lullaby
Before we have to go
Before the lights come on


You're brave and it makes me braver
A saviour
A clash waiting to happen



Saint Francis of Assisi was loved by all creatures
He retired two houses down from me
His Franciscan robe folded in two

Would you sit by my lullaby like you used to?



Forget that we have run out of time
I just arrived

Do me while I'm singing to you
Do me while I'm playing my guitar


And let me play you like you want to be played

Sit by my lullaby
Before we have to go
Before the lights come on

Where will we go
On ****** Snow?
Melting
Like a crying child

There are too many holes in the ground
And too many in the air
Where do we go
On ****** Snow?

There are too many things
I don't want to see
It ***** the life out of me

Where do we go
On ****** Snow?

During my salvation's work
I left you alone

If there's a tide in your heart, pull now
There's a love song I want to sing
To say I love you
I always have and always will

I can't hide anything from you
The words I've forgotten, I've found them now
And the air is still crisp, the moon still bright
Shining on the ****** Snow

I had a strange dream the other night
It was about a talking horse
Who was very musical
She was dark, black, and she talked like it was the most normal thing

There was a scene of her clapping to the waves of the ocean while she sat on a cliff
And she spoke of music's connection to God
Just simply and truthfully

She was shot by a group of boys
When she jumped into a swimming pool
16 shots in total

We are shallow without her
We are shallow without her secret
That's all I know

We heard what he did to you
How he took you away from us
Your father's words were law at his trial
We pray for you and your family
Our blood is warm on this cold earth for you

I'll never forget those words
"What shoes will I have to wear in case I have to run"

We are shallow without her
We are shallow without her secret
May it forever be safe, and safer still
Our blood is warm on this cold earth for you

Is there a song
to right my wrongs
To set todays foot
Strong?

Cos I will be back
Where nothing matters again
I forgot, again
And again

Is there a song
To say that I care?
That I will be there
That I won't disappear
Like the way of things
Like flesh
Holding things too wide and heavy?

Am I wrong to think there is?
What about now?

I give to it the truth of my own freedom
My eternal reach for it

Cos I know I'll be back here
Where we know
Black inside and out
No-one to believe in
Only hard truths
Weak arms
Weak legs

Desire went walking down the street
Open sandals around bare feet


The chains and bolts snapped and buckled
Ropes tore exploding tiny explosions
The lawmaker looked on keenly
Invoking words of power that stood fixed into the cold stone


Desire moved with a steady intent
Like the sun rising under the sea


I want to kiss you inside of your mind
On this happening of you and I


We all watched, taking into account the circumstance
Thought of the children of tomorrow
The way we came and what it made


Taboo and touch
Gathered invisible words and sounds
Making themselves heard
Desire would come to stay
The bed was already made


I want to kiss you inside of your mind
On this happening of you and I

It is to know
Isn't it? To know
Exactly where you are
And what you are doing
But that is impossible
What do I remember hearing it called
"Honest Doubt"
Vilifying honest doubt
As if it were wrong
Because in terms of absolutes
1's and 2's
Doubt is too alive and real

Well in that case, I am full
Of doubt
I am real
Alive
Effortlessly
This I know

I see what you have there
You said you were so different
But not so

It shows
What are you doing what that anyway?
I'm not sure you really know

All I can say is to keep going
To the very end
Till its all out
All out in the open

And then you'll know



You ask yourself where freedom went
On making some, you're hell bent
Cavemen walk the earth tomorrow
Not yesterday
Didn't you know?


All I can say is to keep going
To the very end
Till its all out
All out in the open

And then you'll know


You said you could get us out of this mess
But there you were covered in it
There it was under your car
As you drove along, in clear view
How much gas do you have?

All I can say is to keep going
To the very end
Till its all out
All out in the open

And then you'll know

I've had many teachers
But one of my favourites
Or most memorable
Was Clive Wansborough

He was my Year 9 English teacher
He said you could call him Clive

We had argumentative debates
About Jimi Hendrix,
Electronic music
The Smiths and vegetarianism

We started each class with a meditation
Closing your eyes
Filling your lungs to 75% capacity
In and out
Relaxing, the sound of his voice
Counting you into relaxation

He said I'd written the best piece of writing
He'd read in 10 years
About my experiences in Little Athletics
Being afraid of the finishing line
Afraid that it would clothesline me

I think I had a **** in his class once
Pearse and I were mucking around in front
Uncontrollable teenage hormones
Reading ***** literature

But I felt creative in his class
I wrote about a river flowing
from your mind down your arm
And into your pen

And I think he quoted it
When he said something like
If you don't know where to begin
Or don't know what to say
Just write
Just write
That was Clive's advice

If you've come for songs named after you
And serenades in the moon
It aint me aint me babe

Your body is made of impulse
mine has a pulse
We were looking for the diamonds in our dreams
We were fumbling thru the underground, looking for keys, weren't we?


Let's do what we came here to do
In truth
It's something we have to


Sweaty *******
Fitted sheets
Let's get in the taxi
I don't have a clue

Even this frame and it's short exposure
Ends in some kind of disappointment
Does someone have an idea
Where to make an appointment?



Let's do what we came here to do
In truth
It's something we have to



I had her on my mind all the while
Trying to understand the language I speak
Starting deaf and mute
And you're bilingual
But we have little to say to each other


Let's do what we came here to do
In truth
It's something we have to

It's a mystery
Of who painted those elephants
In Technicolour
Young and old

Let the mystery live on
Alive as it is now

Who did it?
Asked the young lady
Whose painting tattoos my skin
Shining a light over my dying mind

Till death do us part
Let the mystery live on

A flower is bright because it is
The morning sky says good morning in blue and orange because it does
The afternoon light slants thru the window because it does
The half moon rises above the roof because it does
The moonlight stretches across the floor because it does
And music sings because it does

I open my mouth wide
And there are things that are long finished
They are taking up space
They are taking up today

But the flower is still bright
Bright as a sailing flag
And the morning sky says good morning
The afternoon light slants thru the window
The half moon rises above the roof
The moonlight stretches across the floor
And music sings because it does

The water on the river shimmers because it does
The coral in ocean blooms because it does
The bird in the sky turns circles because he does
The trees stand and breath because they do
The rain falls because she does
And music sings because it does

The great wall diminishes
I can walk over it
With my head in the clouds
And the door stays wide open
Because it does

Everytime I see her
While I'm working
She makes me angry
She triggers my rage

Her homeless hair
Crackhead eyes and skin
Her cracked teeth
That demand shout and beg

I saw her on a cold night
Walking about
It was something like 2 am
Most women, if not everyone
Wouldn't be out at that hour, alone
She must think she has nothing
Nothing to keep safe
Nothing to take
Nothing
Nothing

I ran up Friday hill in the early morning
In the faith that it would do me good
Like I'd discovered a lifetime ago

I had a dream
It was of my mother
And I remembered the sadness in my heart
I was running to find it

All us heartbroken people
We kept each other company
For a time
Like a short film
We wrapped over ourselves

But how can I heal the world, if not myself
Make it happy, if I'm not

I was running to find it

How timid and elusive it is in this world
How quiet
Unheard, yet underestimated

My heart

I was running to find it
My sad heart
The happiest too
Running in the morning
Mourning no longer
Smiling like sunrise

A door between
Living and creativity
On a floating shore
Where it is, no-one knows

As a young man
I tried to know
I went with eyes open
But doors closed
But magic isn't solid gold

I live my life around it though
Waiting, and listening
Listening like a wolf

For that door
Between living and creativity
On a floating shore
Where it is, no-one knows

It was the mystery of sadness
And the way it had made us
As it played against the day
That made me realise
I had come a long way

And still

I watched without seeing
And kissed without kissing

My sister had made the world over
And they wrote mythologies about my brother
But this wasn't their story

I fell down so easily
Like a wall made of cheap material
That all I could do was give it up
Let go
Surrender
Surrender

New words

I pray you come
From wherever you come
On music
On waves
Who is to say?

All I can do is prepare and be ready

The cat ate the letter b
On my keyboard
What can I be without the letter b?

We'll see

I am so confused
What is the point of all this?
Me and you?
I used to know truth.

There is so much horror
And beauty too
Full of people, doing what they have to do
Like me and you

The birds at softest sunset
Sound bittersweet

I'm travelling thru
On a Nightflight blue


Under it
All the mistakes I've made
The suffering
It's there
The truth that keeps the world turning

I don't live in the world of changing absolutes
Of hard lines
Mine is a feeling
A feeling far and wide

In the morning I know you'll come true

I'm travelling thru
On a Nightflight blue

I have to go back home
It's for the best

I couldn't do what I set
And the man who was a mountain, stood in my way and said

It's love your in need of
Nothing else

And I know you tried
But my shell is hard dried

But thankyou

I've grown
I've deepened and learnt

And this isn't the end for me
Or you

For us makers
Of skies blue

It's impossible to be in two places at once
My family is back home
I hardly call
Here the days are solid like brick walls

But I am agile
Creative and smart
So it's ok

But still, time goes on

I have to go back home
It's for the best

I know I'm bringing myself as I am

But I miss the place
The people
The new ones I haven't met
And it won't be there forever

Now that you remind me
I'm looking forward to it
It's been too long

Maybe I'm not as weak as I think I am
A maybe it's not that I can't
But that I can

Somehow I understand
That anger's dagger
Points inwardly in my hand

Even Rumi said
Close those eyes that see only faults

And today I want to say I'm happy
Or more, that that's the road I'm taking

The one on which you'll find me

And so I've set the horizon
Taken away the clouds
Disappearing from view

What is it to commit to freedom
To allow it, to be it?
What would happen?
If you'd let it be?

What would you lose?
What would you find?

On the opposite side
Of freedom?

Give me the empty box
Then we can start somewhere

The point of inflection
The knife edge
For or against

The young genius was right
Sort this
And you'll be good

That's where I am

For so long I wanted to be a kind of saviour
But I'm the one who needs saving
And I'm the only one to do it

That monstrous sound outside
I thought it was a psychopath
Imitating a metal crow
But it was a morning handyman

The point of inflection
The knife edge
For or against

The young genius was right
Sort this
And you'll be good

How many times
Have I seen you and fled?


But now
I’m ready and waiting
Like a lion
In the grass

Where are you?

Taking some colour in Spain?

Running a restaurant in France?

Spelling your name with a silent letter?

Dancing like linen in the sun?

Moving your body with intelligence


Where are your eyes?

Mine are ready this time

To explode

To travel time


Ready and waiting like a lion in the grass

Girl, I've alway had holes in my hands

When you came running
I wasn't there

It's funny how you're all the same
The world over

That same face, when something happens to your children
Just like when we were kids

You stopped waiting for me
Saw thru me

The world has taken my power
A power I know I never had

Girl, I've alway had holes in my hands

And still I want to catch you

I dream of a bloom
I sit in preparation in the gloom
And when I hear no sound
Or my head aches
I'm filled with doom

I dig and dig
For any precious sign
All I can hear is the clink clink of hard
Unforgiving Earth

But wait
A quiet secret
Tiny molecules in a summer song
I feel like making love
Samba notes
A blues

You let me know you're still there
However quiet

I dream of a bloom
I dream of a bloom
Like a string
Attached to a hot air balloon

How Wild?

Dear Teresa,

With the luscious thighs
Big eyes
And gap toothed Madonna smile

I've started praying again

I'm in a new room
I can't see the walls or ceiling
But it's bigger
I got a new key cut

Like I said I've started praying again
Not like in boys school
Full of cabinets you don't want to open
But something deeper

I pray for less stress
More peace
Happiness

I feel the sides of the ship
Turning
With my hand and elbow


How wild are these hearts?
What science are they made of?
Is this a start to ending the wars on Earth?

I pray for less stress
More peace
Happiness

Maybe I'm naive
Living within the means given me
A boy ******* his mother's ****
But we're all awake aren't we?
And I know I have a strength untapped


I pray for less stress
More peace
Happiness

Teresa came into the coffee shop
With a baby and the same smile
Still wild

I can't tell another lie
My teeth will fall out

Apologies to anyone who has waited up

But I have to get myself out of this for me

And to all those dreams
I let go


I can't tell another lie

I'm as low as the road
Listening to approaching cars
That don't come
That don't go

Time moves so fast

I can't tell another lie


I'll collect my thoughts
My sounds and ideas
I'll send them out
So that you can hear

I love the buzz

There are so many pictures
I stick to my screen
They cloud my mind with need

I need to get free
To get off on myself

I can't tell another lie

I'm moving slow
Re-charging
In a world moving so fast
Sirens in the distance
The calm sunset over a busy city

I've cordoned off the carpark.
I prowl it like a mad dog.
But when that dog sleeps
You could rub your hand along its teeth.

It's a mad setting.
But it's emotion.

Maybe I should move around a little
Give it a little slack.

But this is my currency.
And I guess I should not be insecure about going broke

Cos no matter where the world goes
It will always be there

Or I'll have to train to fight electronic dogs.

Scatter light
Scatter mind

I've been scattered
Just as dust in the light
Unfocused

Refresh me with your magic

I'm done
I know it

I've joined with the dead roads
And dreamless lights
I'm no-where

We've all been stamped
We've all been made the fool
Destroyed
Half-eaten
But we're here
I'm here

Refresh me with your magic

This empty vase
I guard it with my life
And to be honest
It's all I have

Where are the flowers now?

Refresh me with your magic

Shipwrecks
And Shipwrecks
Within Shipwrecks

Everything was everywhere
It all passed thru my
Eye
My retina unflinching

But where was the water?
That made each the same
And apart
And put the ship back together again?

Is there a place
Where strangers become friends?
Where eyes look innocent again?
I think we could start from there

It scared me how far it had gone...
How important it is to be brave today
To have a light in the dark

How bright it has become

In amongst the Shipwrecks
And Shipwrecks
Within Shipwrecks