To say I'm ok is a lie and I will not entertain that for a second
Because A second can change a mans life
Be it for good or bad
From winning the lottery to losing a close friend
That mans life is changed forever
I have had 3 hours of that one second
And I can't say I am a better man for it
But I am more experienced and all the wiser for them
Every second
Bringing back someone that the world has fines so wrong to
It is draining on the sole
Seeing them with a knife pressed to there throat
Seeing the look of frustration in his eyes
Seeing him snap and attack the one he loves
It is something that I won't wish on my worst enemy
But the thing that will haunt me
The thing that will keep me up at night
Knowing
Being able to recall everything
The exact moment that you broke
That second
Your second
The one you have no memory of
That second I had to pull you off her
That second you had your hand around her throat
That second you had that same knife to her throat
That second you tried at me with it
That second it only just nicked my side
That second you broke down
I don't know if I can ever tell you that gap
That memory will be mine alone
That memory will be mine forever
I hope the best for you
But I have to cut you from my life
Because next time
It will be me that breaks
And I will not miss
But I will remember
a lot of pain and close to breaking but working through it