I sat there waiting
    I sat waiting
Trying to look at you
    But your head was down.
Just the way mine was when you
    Raised my jaw and kissed me.

I asked you what happened
    but you gave me no reply
You refused to discuss the topic.

You get one life
               only one
make the ******* best of it
   All you need is to be happy.

Do you know how much you are hurting me?

   I put on a mask
      I built up the walls
I pretended I don't care about you anymore.
   I pretended you didn't rip my bedraggled
heart and leave it in a ditch.
   I pretended you didn't push me farther
into the depths of this river.

Why won't you tell me what I did?
  Please...
I'm sorry about this.

I will leave now.

Treat me like you used to
Save me from the monster at my heels
Please just love me
    like you used to...
Only last night
    I was the center of your small world
    You held me
    You kissed me
    You pressed your palms against mine
   I am only a memory
    Only part of the past
    Lost in the hands of time
Short time...

How did you forget me so fast?
How did you let me slip between
    your fingers, again?
How did you leave me behind?

I love you,
    More than you know
   less than you imagined.

When I'm with you I'm happier
    Than I am ever with anyone
    else.
    Only you...*forever and always

I wish I could go back in time
   and save myself from you
Fix all the mistakes I made
   change all the words I said
Reform the way I held your hand
   relive the night you kissed me in the rain

Over and over
Feeling your breath on my skin
Absorbing your warmth around me
Forgetting the empty feeling I live with
Loosing my memories of rejection

   And I'm back
The loneliness
   The separation
The depression
   You left me again
Just like before
   The same kind of pain...
but worse
   a deeper wound
a shallower soul.

I can barely remember the way you said it
     I was so numb.
I was overwhelmed by the love you gave me
     prior to you ripping my heart out of
     my chest and throwing it to the dirt
I listened to you and I cried.
     I could not speak.
  You could not see me.
     You could only hear the whisper of my voice
Only the sound of my tears hitting the floor.
     The phone went dead when the words
hit me... your statement was clarified.
     Honestly, you killed me
You were all I wanted... all I needed
     All I want... All I need
     That night I had you
That night you held me
     That night you kissed me...
   It was the peak of my existence.
     The place I want to be, always.
I would never leave your side.
     I would be there for you.
I would give anything
     I believe it's worth it...
You are worth it
... You are more than worth it
I would treasure every moment
    Just like we did that night...

I miss you
Your warmth
          Your arms
            Your voice
              Your smile
                Your everything

    Take me back.

my life was lifted just above me
now I have to live with what I did
live with what I see.

I have seen a battlefield as a classroom
a warzone as a desk
when nothing is as it should be
then nothing is at rest

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In trying to cure this one wound
they have begun to open various cuts
of which are now beginning to fester and scar
I am one of those cuts.

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I have no sense of hope,
no pure feelings
no... nothing.
I cannot feel anymore
not the sun
not the wind...
nor do I ever think I will
feel... again...


By: RAIN <3