Like the dying petals of a carnation
Like the way I feel when you leave
Like the snow in October
Like the candle burnt out
Like the minute the story is over
Like the time it rained on your birthday
Like the time when I mixed colors and they turned black
Like the day when we dug a hole and didn't find any treasure
Like the time my rabbit died...

Like the time you held me and told me you loved me and then took me for a walk and kissed me in the rain and played me a song and made me laugh and made me feel important and then when I went home you called me... and told me that this wouldn't work out
Because
Your mom hates me because I'm suicidal...
I'm not suicidal when I'm with you.
Because
You didn't want to "hurt you again..."
You won't
I don't care
I'm happy as long as I'm with you
You make me keep breathing
You keep my heart beating
You are all I could ever ask for.

I love you.
Like when you wake up to the sunshine
Like when someone kisses you on the cheek
Like when you look into my eyes
Like when we dance
Like when you draw on me
Like when you can't stop laughing and then your stomach hurts
Like when it's cold enough to wear your favorite sweater
Like when it rains in the summer
Like when you find someone perfect

Like when you kissed me.

You kissed me in the rain
You held my hand close
You told me you loved me
You cradled me in your arms
You kept me warm...

But you
    You ripped me
You tore me
You tortured me
You teased me
    You broke me

I have never
    Loved
      like
        this

I have never
     Mourned
       like
         this

I have never
    Bleed
      like
        this

I was just a
one-night-stand.

You found me bleeding
Oozing, gushing
You bandaged me
You tried to fix me

The old dog you
Left out in the rain

Expected to be better
Expected to heal
Expected to refrain

My guitar and pajama pants
Two of the few
Things that give me
A home
A pastime
A joy
An escape

The way you see it
I may have everything I need
But never
Can I ever
Be happy
Be content
Knowing
Seeing
And living
Without him
Without his voice in my ear
His hand in mine
His lips on my cheek

I am just  
The old dog you left out in the rain
The rebound
The fling

The depressed girl.

As you walked away
You left my body to collapse
Without one glance over the shoulder

The chills crept up my
    spine
The devil danced back into my
    soul
I felt the need to bleed
    again
I felt the urge to torture
    myself
Torture myself for falling
    for you again
When I knew
    I know
You don't
    You won't
Love me

I crashed, lost in
    love
Lost in
    despair

The world buzzing around me
    Friends only ghosts
Loves only memories

    It's me against the world
Just going through the motions
    Not listening, just remembering....

When **** used to matter.

Your lips were chapped
Your hands were warm
Your eyes were deep
...Your heart was large

You were ready to love me
You weren't afraid of me
You felt safe

That night
I love you
You loved me
A piece of heaven
...right back to hell

Why did you kiss me?
Why did you protect me?
Why did you hold me?

If you didn't love me...
If you planned to hurt me?

You can't run from the
    demons inside you
You can't pretend you didn't hear me
    ask you to call
You can't hide from the
    girl at your feet
       her face wet with tears.