Sometimes I feel beautiful
(not Vanity Fair beautiful)
of coarse
but beautiful enough to make you smile
while other times
I feel so far from beautiful
that I dare not look into the silver liar
and on those days I thank you
for that smile that helped me
feel beautiful again
and in my smile
I give back to you
the truth, that you
are beautiful too!

I'm quiet
never putting up a fight
you may think I'm shy
with nothing to say
always second guessing
worried if my words came out right
I'm still that little girl
who learned peace from fear
who's been hiding all these years
wanting to be heard
but fearing I'll be hurt
look me in the eyes
can you see me reaching out?
desperate
for your attention
afraid of rejection
I turn and look away
I'm still that little girl
who keeps peace because of fear
who's been hiding all these years
wanting to be heard
but fearing I'll be hurt
I'm living in regret
for all the words
I haven't said
the words I let you steal
the words that would let me feel
the words that could make me real
cause I'm still that little girl
who hates the peace that comes from fear
it's been hiding me all these years
I want to be heard
without fearing I'll be hurt
so open up your ears
cause you need to hear
that I need to leave this place
where fear dominates
where abuse creates fear
and peace is fears masquerade
I don't want to be that little girl
who creates peace in fear
don't want to hide anymore
I need to be heard
without fearing I'll be hurt.

You put your trust in luster of treasures fake
putting aside the true gems when luster fades
in youth is known no more than today
for the shine of base tempts a fool of any age
gems be daughter and son to men old and naive
Cordelia and Edgar tarnished to hearts that can't see
only in endings will fools see the deed
the trap that blinded hearts to misery.

Before I was conceived I chose
to exist within this life of decay
And although I cannot remember why
I can only imagine it was for its experiences
to sense and perceive life in an alternate way
To desire life with its pleasures, its beauty
But did I really want to exist
with pain, suffering, and fear?
Did the good outweigh all the bad?
Or was I so alone without these
that I took them all, just to feel alive?
Because above all I do feel alive
and desire life with all my heart.