Im thankful for the sunshine, and thankful for the night.
Im thankful for this one time, and thankful things go right.
Im thankful for the weather, wind snow rain and ice.
Im thankful for whatever, comes my way that’s nice.
Im thankful for my mother, and her sacrifice.
Im thankful for my father, who gave me much advice.
Im thankful for the bad days, for the good follow’s behind.
And thankful for babies, on parents they depend.
Im thankful for so much more, this list will never end.
Most of all im thankful , because you are my true friend

We all have things that each does worship....and you with a negative thought of it...is this one tip..let them believe on what makes them free...for you or I just might not see...that each shall choose their own destiny...and shall therefore accept it eternally..so what will be shall really be..each to their own as you and me!!!

Welcome to my nightmare, come on in if you dare, a sinister world of death pain and dispair . This is a place you will never relax, and you will never know peace even  if you beg or or you ask. Zero eight two eight the wolf was born on this date the year of sixty six, 1966. The 4th of twelve kids in the clan at the age of eleven I became a man, my very first best friend died about then, run over by a car in a coma for a month, the balance of his life was hanging on the edge. If he ever came out of this comatose state there was word he would never be normal again. Well he never came out of this life and death line the carefree and loving kid in me died. I made a pledge around about then that I would never have a best friend, no never again. I kept that promise for about five years cause my uncle B J G came to befriend me, i finally found someone who did understand me, he taught me to smoke, we'd laugh and we'd joke my sense of humour and life had awoke. 8 years later when I was 23, my second best friend died and left me, a perfect record. 2 best friends had 2 friends died. That very same I had another friend who I thought would be around right to the end, he's still around right? Guess again, he took his life with a sawed off gun, now number 4 are you ready for more?..I'll give e you a hint, traces of his blood still show on my door, that's why I won't call anyone a best friend anymore. Ive given up on friends cause they gave up on me. as I'm writing this poem I'm sitting about 15 feet from where one of my  friends died, their maker did meet. Life has been rough pretty god ****** unsweet. That's why I won't bow down I don't know defeat.  I've been pretty crazy with all my hard drinking to this day I don't know if I would do anyone in...but if anyone were to act up  even right now, who knows they might end up 6 feet under ground, or they might disappear and never be found.  I'll keep on being defiant no matter what the cost, I am the way I am because of the friends had and lost. Yeah life is hard and so ****** wicked!, but life is what you choose to make-make of it...life is hard and so ****** wicked,  but life is what you choose to make-make of it....

You get up and still tired, can’t be late or could get fired. Tea or coffee get’s you wired, but you are glad that you got hired.
You pack a lunch to take today, your hair’s a mess it’s all astray.
Almost ready to get in the fray, to get all dressed and be on your way.
To find your socks you’re standing there, half asleep your feet still bare.
Back to bed? You do not dare, fuzzy brain barely aware.
Finally you are all set, as if something you forget
You realize your day is wrecked, you still have one day off left yet!!!!!

Life is a beginning, but death is not the end
Relatives or family and maybe a good friend
You’ll no longer see my footprints, upon this hallowed ground
And hear no more my footsteps, in death
They’ll make no sound
On earth you will not see me, but soon you all shall follow
The sun no longer shines on me,
I shall no longer cast a shadow
Shed a tear, if you must, and I will understand
I am near, just at rest, In the promised land
Remember me the way you will , as humble, even grand
November reigns and all things freeze,
Not a single flower stands
I am not gone, I’m just away in gods all loving hands
It won’t be long, to see the day
Together we will stand
Angel’s wings are fluttering, so softly I do hear
The heavenly harp is playing, I know now I am near
Now say goodbye just for a while, and pray all do not fear
I am now approaching, to heaven oh so near
And now my soul does soon rejoice
I rest eternal dear

I gaze up to the night, and wonder where you are, im not really sure if you’re really here. I think deeply to myself, do you true exist, is it all a joke I somehow had just  missed. I asked so much of you, imploring in a prayer, I waited for an answer, and nothing I found there. I even made a promise to live a better life!! yet nothing much did change amidst all this heavy  strife!! Then I realize that, things do really change, everyday my soul , encounter’s peace so strange. I look up humbly so, in awe but with no fear. I find im thanking you, for me still being…..here

Just close your eyes and realize, that nothing really ever die’s.
Take a breath and then relax, memories are happy facts.
Visualize one glorious day, the happiness inside will stay.
A thought so quick of joyful youth, make’s you smile this is the truth.
In your mind you hear one laugh, your glad heart is your life’s raft.
When you cry once in a while, I’ll be here to make you smile.
So close your eyes and sleep now please, I’ll be here so rest In Peace

a moment in time. .crosses ones mind, a torrent divine. .tosses sublime, and sadness and joy do so intertwine. .for its realized. .the memories fine. .are somewhere behind. .and never again experience. .that time. . . so hold to heart thine. .as i wiil do mine. .memories in mind. .a moment in time. . . .

What am I looking for, what do I need.
Open the spirit door, mind be freed.
What does my soul abhor,
Yet not Afraid.
So much I adore,
To dust I’ll be laid.
Let me be relaxed,
Today be at ease.
Will stress now release,
Leave mind in Peace.
I reflect and you pray, to chase ill away.
And you must not relapse,
But stand to come what may!
Ideas dark gloomy grey,
Yet I’ll Stay another day.
Readjust then adapt, I always find my way.

The sands of life they once did walk.....in your mind you see the track
They are gone now many years
And washed away the path by tears
How many times if they looked back
Would they see one hint of that

The winds of time so strongly blow
These grains of life no longer show
Every minute day and hours
Every spring it’s April showers
Holds a memory in its powers
Each memory is always ours

Just keep on going, and don’t look back
Even knowing, you leave your tracks
The sands of time the grains of life, are slowly swept away in flight
Take each grain of sand this time, as it is, precious, divine
As I know I’m Losing mine
I cherish it like gold is fine
Hold every moment oh so dear,
As the end is looming near
Face this truth and have no fear
One day each track erased by tears!!

Hey, come hang out with me, and let’s watch some TV
“I’m on a streak, just one more match” is what you say to me
Now it’s late, the show is done’
And I watched it with no one

Let’s go for a jog, and do two miles, it will take but just a while.
“I’m messaging a friend of mine” you tell me with a smile
I get on the treadmill, just to use up some spare time

Come into the living room, and I will tell stories all true
You reply “I’m sure I’ve heard,all those tales before from you”

Come help me work on the  car
I’ll show you what to do
“Im busy on YouTube right now, and watching  videos”
I work alone, finish the car, as another day it goes

Now I can’t run much anymore, and time has slowed me down
“Why don’t you come and jog with me?” You ask me with a frown
I can’t remember stories, I had lots just for you
“How come no more stories are ever told by you? Is it because they were not true?”
Is all I hear from you

Time is cruel it carries on, with no consideration true
My strength and my own stamina, and memory is going too

My child I tried so very hard, just to make you see, how much time I sacrificed and it was all for thee, now the person I once was becomes a memory...the time I tried to give you child.....oh so desperately, as life it takes this very time, slowly day by day
This life I tried to give you time, life now takes it all from me....

Not every game played has been won, certain years were not much fun.
Cloudy days without the sun, some promises were left undone.
Some friends false and others true, after this fact is when I knew.
Experiences old and new, time dragged on and yet
it flew.
So many memories I have lost, for others came away they washed.
To and fro this mind is tossed, I pay a price and that’s the cost
This mind wanders it will roam, in this brain yes it is home.
Others have friends with they’ve grown, but here  
I stand proud and alone

Listen, can you hear that, the rustling of those leaves?
See the gently swaying of the branches on the trees?
Isn’t life so beautiful, in this summer breeze?
Waves unseen but heard, cresting lively on the seas?

In the morning life’s great sun,
the moment of its rise?
Do you see the deep blue sky,
As you raise your eyes?
softly hear the fluttering,
of the butterflies?
The beauty of this whole world, no one ever deny’s?

See the splashes of each drop, every time it rains?
And the picture a rainbow, upon the sky it paints?
See a tiny whirlpool, when floodwater drains?
I have seen all of these, when I was still here.
I will always be this close, to your heart so near.
do not please your faith so lose, in your griefs sad tears.
Remember me and when you do, a part of me appear’s

Go ahead and judge me, despise me, chastise me, revile me, evil eye me, with your stares in hell I’ll be

rebuke me,
Quote your bible verses, disown me with curses
Jesus is your saviour, not mine for my behaviour
I’m a spawn of Satan, the source of all you’re hating
Im just evil meditating
Your peace of mind I’m breaking

On me you’ve passed your judgement,
The source of your resentment
The sole unequal element,
And in heaven paid no rent

With my words I shatter peace
Sweet harmony displace
Sensuality in lace
I dare shove in your face

I chose to make a new path
No sanity I hath
I carry anarchy, try to draw you like a moth
My life now is as Thoth

You deny I am your friend
As equilibrium I rend
My life no good will end
Well now hear me defend

I bleed I feel I see and smell
Distinguish light and dark as well
I’ll pick someone up who just fell
And bend my knee When hear the knell
Yet you condemn me all to hell!!!

Grab each moment  like a lifeline, get the most from each fraction of time.
Every minute writes a new line, you are the author so make it sublime.
Like a book that’s not yet done, compose each page mixed with some fun. for it’s meant to be read by one, for each sentence is achieved and won.

Every day that does arrive, tells us all we have survived. cherish each hour youre alive, for positive you should always strive.
And understand there will be grief, it will go must be your belief. let it be the olive leaf,  i sign that soon the soul’s relief.

this book of life that is yours, only you shall steer it’s course.
single stories that are ours, to complete is in our power!

everything  was perfect not a thing was wrong, next thing i know and hear now you are sad gone.
my heart started beating to deaths sad timeless song, tears kept falling how i tried to stay so strong.

filled with such grief it can’t be but yes it is so true, it’s changed so much the life i once happily lived and knew, i’m filled with sorrow every moment what now can i do? sitting here alone and i can’t stop missing  you.

yesterday was so different then there was no such sorrow, i cry so much tears today you have no more tomorrow.
my life seems now so bare and sadly feel’s so hollow, in grief with so much suffering in loss and pain i wallow.
you to me were everything my only one best friend, such happy memories i will keep in heart of way back then.
i will try to carry on though it seems pain has no end, i will cry a few more tears….until we
meet again

Am i a flirt i guess i am and i cannot deny it, but do i try no i do not it’s just my natural habit,
all i do is just be me and then effects are rapid, i set a trap put up some snares and snag you like a rabbit.
i’m not vain nor am handsome but my words do get me there,
i weave a web with growling tone the wolf it’s fangs do bare,
supreme and gleaming confidence apparent in the stare, your hypnotized and held captive to move you do not dare.
annoying and amusing you my contradicting charm, the warning bells your senses have refuse to sound alarm, as i barely stand too close the hairs raise on your arms, a tingle rushes up your back and yet you feel too warm.
you hope i don’t but wish i do, conscience is split in two, that i take you in my arms you want i think i know, the leash i have around your heart will pull you where i go
my wit is fast as lightening flashing in the darkened sky, herbivorous carnivorous omnivorous is I, my jokes are never ***** though not like a pig in sty, but you get the gyst of it through my gleaming eye.

you be glad or mad at me because you’re not the first, neither of the previous have been got much less or worse,intellect is indirect transcends the universe, you all fall endearingly to my captive verse.

like a silent shadow though i follow on your track, observe the words that i do use and you might know my tact, i stole your heart so easily you know this is a fact,i’ll hold a piece and will be nice,  give you the rest right back!!

The snow comes, my brother goes
Where he is, only he knows
The snow falls, cold wind blows
The body lies, like the frozen rose
The life you chose, was not my own
A lesson taught, retained now known
One choice and life, is overthrown
I may not shed one single tear, knowing you’re no longer here
But that’s just me, your brother dear
Now go to where, the soul be just
Ash to ash, and dust to dust
To turn to these we know we must
The body’s done and soul at rest
Don’t wait around, a time for me
Just lay now, eternally
Shall we meet?...let’s wait and see
For I’ll go on perhaps to thee
Keep on..just go..do not look back
While these days, I shall keep track
Until the day, see brother jack
I dedicate this poem, to you
Not much else, for me to do
Here it is, from me to you
Rest now Well , and...see
You soon!

starting off minimal with syllables and nominal phenomenal optimal flow, decibels in treble
voice a growl i speak low!!
enticing exciting inviting poem writing, i’m a little devil a pen is my trident!
verbally undress you i possess in excess the finesse and prowess, impressed? i digress it’s a mess i confess, this syntax a test.
with a verse it gets worse i go first and i burst spitting out words.
a maniacal search overpower your church making your mind freeze then stutter and lurch.
not meaning you harm it’s all about charm, tickle your ear like a tongue it’s so warm.
i shall mesmerize double cross up your eyes sensual rhyme is like touching your thighs. these lines are like whips spew honey from lips getting attention like hands on your hips. here am i now you’re hearing me how weaving my crown breaks everything down, get ready to bow
on your knees low get ready to go i ain’t no charles dickens or ed allan poe.
prepare to be knighted mentally flipped and uprighted, who just upended you lefted and righted lift your eyes up here then you know  that i did!!
let’s try this again cause girl your my friend turn it around begin from  the end, get up and then stand then give me your hand you can now tell me that  i am the man


show me, what you can do please

To sit upon one’s own high horse and call someone else down, spit vile words and insults look on them with judging frowns. think you’re better in nice suits or fancy gowns, you wish in their addictions that they should all just drown.

What is it in your own life that you’re unhappy with?
Or is it just to try and with the popular ones fit?
Where’s compassion in your heart is there not one single bit? Not to care for their despair makes one’s heart a dark pit.  

I do not judge but do ask why, so many are like this. To make one day a bit easier for others is a wish.
If a heart can soften up to empathy’s kiss. Show care to all and not a single one to miss.

How can we be truly good as normal human beings?
And goodwill with no witness the heart for it redeem’s? you’re to wrapped up with your image the superficial see. And praised upraised applauded by public you pray to be. For the good so publicly you do so constantly. hitherto and unto you live hypocrisy.

As your Jesus lived and your god did state, your fellow man try to elevate, yet opportunity you eliminate letting goodwill slowly sit stagnate.

I do not judge but I speak the facts, you need to be seen doing false good acts. Giving Pennies holding gold filled sacks, you are a candle but you lack real wax.

I talk and maybe I do take action, I may do nothing or do it with passion.
It’s my own knowledge and satisfaction, I may not show it but may have compassion.

We don’t need to lead nor should we follow, or seek adulation that’s truly hollow.
we must all fight to not be shallow, give all a chance for a better tomorrow!!!

my feet touch softly upon the hard ground, my personality brings tremors and ripples all around. much like an earthquake i’m quiet but loud, not too humble you see i stand proud.
boisterous an imp but not an imposter, annoyance and happiness a mental task monster, getting on your nerves but blended with  laughter, i guarantee you will smile, when you think after.
i am direct and show no attitude, though my remarks seem to you in fact rude. you may reflect and feel some gratitude, wisdom and humour you find you’re imbued.
if i do choose i can be quite  seductive, to common sense atomic bomb blast-like destructive.
directing deep thoughts towards whats reproductive, the question one ask’s is what’s my objective? but here it goes again  i’m always evasive, thoughts through your mind am i counter subversive?
propriety insanity melded and welded no longer divisive.
your brain is the house where i knock on your window, hand signs by design lightly veiled innuendo. i hint maybe later you reply yes but when though. i say when the door is open to the jengo.
my selection of words causes so much confusion, easier to learn about nuclear fusion. is this all real or is it illusion, you really don’t know me it’s just an allusion. spinning your mind so it’s close to collusion, all inhibitions now begin to loosen.
now your as guilty by association, but you may very well feel appreciation, finding your self in this situation, i’m just playing...this is recreation!!

Face tomorrow without fears, try to smile and wipe those tears.
Don’t forget ones so dear, memories not dimmed by years.
Life is strange, so sad but true, and it seems to conflict you.
Just keep on it’s what we knew, take each day just as I do.
Pick yourself off from the floor, take a step and then one more. Take a step into life’s door, walk along it’s golden shore.
Just live on in your own way, worry not what other’s say. Let the spirit freely stray…just enjoy each single day

I can quit and just give up, when I’m weak and things get tough.
I can say “I’ve had enough” when life shake’s me up so rough.
I can turn away from you, when you try to help me through.
I can sit alone and blue, excuses make that are untrue.
I can say I always knew, you quit on me like others do.
I can say “it’s you to blame”, anger fully displayed out lain.
I can shed much tears like rain, in self-pity and show no shame.
I can seem appear the same, hidden hurt and buried pain.
All of these shall reap no gain, when emotion’s just a game.

So I whisper my own name, and prove myself is being sane.
I see myself and deep within, my spirit glows a gleam so thin...the will to live, the will to win.....was always there....has always been

It’s not about the dollars and the odd cents, it’s the pure care through a simple present sent.
No amount of money or shiny new stuff, replaces one heartfelt and genuine hug.
Visualize a pure clean Snow White gentle dove, the symbol of honest unselfish pure love.
Yes purchase a gift that shows your true feelings, it’s the spirit of giving that’s the best revealing.
Focus on Christmas the reasons so true, the best gift to receive is just knowing what’s true, im just very thankful to know the real you, and im honestly happy to say for this Yule.
So know I am happy that you’re all still here, Merry Christmas my friends and happy new year

I close my eyes and try to stop the time, thinking on my memories sublime.
Reality snaps like old weak twine, back to the present day life of mine.
Looking at pictures from years ago, a quick flashback of that day I know. where really did all the old time go, upon my face all the years do show.
A snap of a finger or a blink of an eye, that’s how quick did this time fly.
A lot less hellos and too many goodbyes, as days go by we’re all dropping like flies. Good times had but they don’t stay, off to the past they go their way.
Don’t be sad for this i say, live life as happy as it can be, forget about time and enjoy so today, and look joyfully to come what may!

About life
The odds are crazy and they are stacked, the burden’s heavy and that’s a fact. determination you never lacked, but ambition has been cracked.
Things go well just for a while, a time and place that see’s you smile. The happiness does so beguile, from the heart flow’s like the Nile.
Happy moments like precious gold, joyful memories some untold.
Then black sadness dark as coal, grief thine heart securely holds.
Plant a kiss on baby’s nose, tickle its pink cute tiny toes. Then grows up bloom’s like a rose, what they become this no one know’s.
A new mate of life be grand, happy walking  hand in hand. Then one day it is the end, with hope at least to remain friends.
A rainy day a sunny sky, and each one has seen you cry. So depressed you know not why, you sun inside as eyes stay dry.
A loved one lost yet babies born, with emotions spirit torn. The crown of pain upon on thee worn, yet peace within the is adorned.
We grow up and become wise, and cope with what in future lie’s. We know   joy along with strife, be brave and strong….just face your life!!!

Minds a roller coaster, overheating toaster, like a speeding  jet plane brain is locked and stuck to the afterburners!
Seering hot flame, lava-like again, accelerators in brain cells operate in free range, deranged insane complex not plain, out of control too wild and untamed. A revolving door feet barely feel the floor, try to slow down but thoughts increase much more, to control this tempest I try what for? Like a bad movie that’s stuck in 4x forward this hyper syntax ship plunges onward, I carry on, within this skull is my guard speaking not  one single overheard word! I’ll use some lines from my previous rhymes! I say in all honesty with no sign of modesty, i make a lot of fools mad, they dis and trip on me, i don’t give a ******* what you say or thinking, I live my life the fullest you live for yesterday!this intellect reflects the jest I inject making you think twice and never forget, your comprehension is over and I barely started just yet. Try to dissect and decode complex text, this my brain child purely hard and compressed,  liquid thought concentrated completely cold-pressed and dressed I confess to impress all the best-yes Thats me wearing my words like a bulletproof vest, repelling attacks north east south and last west. Never defy logic of sonic ingest words like tonic absorbed sub-atomic get on it albeit you will eventually learn it’s the best that I’ll be it!!
I’ve learned my words all the best and the worst, I was never the last neither was I the first, but I study each day so my voice may be heard, the power of pen yes and all spoken word.

Sometimes I think when we were young, that simple things were so much fun.
With time’s one blink that is all gone, these fickle joys have come undone.
Played outside in freezing temps or sleet and snow or windy rains.
Stayed inside in late pm’s, our feet and toes were thawed in pain, but come next day we’re out again.
We had sword fights or played at war, our generation all have scars.
Hide and seek or just plain tag
Younger siblings on sleds we’d drag.
The generations how have changed, to their phones or game consoles chained.
Don’t even know if it had rained, so busy playing video games.
Technology was meant to make, one’s life much like a piece of cake.
Virtual reality is a fake, but so real is how much time it take’s.
This is life for all these days, computer age now always stays..keeps taking lives through all wifi’s, glowing screens now fills our eyes.
As days go by, we miss blue skies and rarely look to see birds fly...this cyber world I do despise, it took control and multiplies the life it steals....our free will dies

All my life you were always there, you were not shy to show you care.
You guided me with insight fair,
And filled my days when all seemed bare.
From a baby to a child, your tender heart so loving mild
As a teen I was so wild, you steered me right and sometimes smiled.
Then I grew and on my own,
You made me feel never alone
No matter where I chose to go,
Where you were, was always “home”.
Your waning years, begot some fears
I have shed so many tears, for you have gone, my heart so dear.
I never thought that this would end, in agony my soul does rend
The parenting on me you spent, turned me into your best friend.
I can not help it and I cry, life has changed the day you died
But now I must this last goodbye, with much love I won’t deny
On those angels wings soul glides, to heaven now to peace do fly.....and one day my soul thee’s nigh

things going down in an uncontrolled  tailspin, with the mindset that most are now living in, when if it did this sickness all begin, it’s worse not better that things are now getting, like a virus reality is infected from within.
all the world is going sideways off track crazy,
the violence and hate occasionally will face thee, even me the face of death does no longer faze me, reality insanity the line between these has now become hazy.
vilify or sanctify me like a deceiving rotten poisoned daisy.
mass media right or wrong saturates all influence, geared to remove our own minds inner independence, i value your opinion but neither do we less, and follow the program or left sitting on the fence.
you want to see someone die, hit the search tab and it’s there before your eyes, you have access to which you fantasize, unedited videos and pictures no lies.
this world is bad now it has become wicked, information highway is now everyone’s ticket, it’s sad and true what you want you can get it, open the search window on heaven or hell...CLICK IT!

i remember clear the day that you last went away, never had a chance to tell you what for want to say.
never stopped to visit you when i had some free days, this is what i can’t undo it stays with me always.
if i did at times to you go and say hello, i was always busy and had so much i had to do.
the chasm which i caused divide had widened through and through, i see now and way back then i really wish i knew.
now you’re not here and you can’t see i’m sitting all alone, my mind plays back the memories so aimlessly it roams. karma came and paid me back your loneliness i own, no knock upon that lonely door to hear this lonely home.
as you wished now so do i my lonesome heart does cry, can someone come visit me won’t somebody try. i ask myself in  sadness now please tell me just why, there’s no one to see the tears fall freely from my eyes.
as it is and as it was these things will always be, we reduce in negligence each other thoughtlessly. because our lives are our time we keep it selfishly, even time that we can give but nothings ever free.
i still hurt in loneliness and i never shall forget, our time will come our own lives will, see the last sunset, i took little time to visit you, this is my regret!!

You find anything you can to deny me, my personal peace you seem to despise see?
To busy and focused nit pick so tiny, my life must encompass every minute of thee.
When I’m the subject so quick to criticize, and i theorize you’re unwise and mind other people’s lives. I guess  your ego blinds your eyes to lies , and despise the ties that bind the minds of ones who are kind.
Cause me to stumble waiting for my fall, an innocent look they don’t know you at all. Standing so pious like a statue tall, if one needs help it ain’t you they will call.
I don’t claim to be faultless, I have crossed some lines. Honesty broken is everyone’s crime, but I’m brave enough to admit this crime.
I do unto others only what is good, and can stand proudly where the honest stood.
I have followed the path as best I could, defining what’s right as I understood.
Playback rewind go through your mind, and try to find the kind of sign to remind the times you have dined on pride, and denied and lied.
So what are you proving coming after me, life is easier let others be. You must really be wrapped up in misery, to wallow in deep hypocrisy.
I say again and I put to thee, live your own life let others be.
Don’t judge others and peace you see, such is life Oui c’est la vie??

You can have my body but you’ll never take my heart, it’s been lost somewhere from the start. to have real feelings i try so very hard, you want to hurt me you can’t touch one part.

In frustration you say such hurtful things, this wall goes up knowing word assault begins. emotion takes flight on its golden wings, it is a war no one ever wins.

Why do we stay together i don’t even know, genuine care neither of us truly show. all you wish is to keep me in control, defying common logic you won’t just let me go.

You hurl profanity and insults while standing there, you don’t realize that your not getting anywhere. my nerves are steel hard even when they’re bare, you don’t realize that i no longer care.

I sit and then wonder, then i wonder some more, mind slowly drifting from my life’s shore. sitting and staring at the welcoming door, yet can’t decide to walk this inviting blank floor.
Is the grass greener better growing and tall, jumping the fence and just leaving it all.
do i answer the appealing inviting loud call, is it my heaven or to hell my last fall?
my cloud in this sunshine, so warm and divine, holds the peace captive and locked so behind, hurricanes and earthquakes in control of my mind.
what am i looking for, i really don’t know, feeling so empty to the pit of my soul. i have no objective with a set goal, only the hope to one day become whole.

i ask of you that spirit we call ours, the one they call the higher power, but all the same it’s my creator, you of all who is much greater
let me be given to see another sunrise, and to see it set with thankful eyes. let me forgive all
malicious lies, help me refrain to say words unwise, for with me all rumour dies, if i slip my soul chastise.
if it be your great persuasion, give me that which is the vision, to bring together mans division, to foster hope upon the horizon.
look on your servant if you may, as an instrument of what to say, to help another through their day, to remove all doubt and sad dismay.
if it is by your great choice,
invoke your wisdom through my voice, to bless another you bless me twice, in me goodwill please optimize.
this is not a normal prayer, for no name is given there, living things are well aware, they do know you’re everywhere, your image everyone shall wear, you see each soul before you bare.
again is my own supplication, instil the words of understanding, teaching good and for good standing, to not forget yet be forgiving, to respect all things for all is living, to seek no end but new beginnings.
as you are from infinity, i humble bow my head to thee, i accept with pride your will to be, i gladly follow my deity this path to walk you chose for me!!

i’m not after likes at all for all the poems i write, i just think they’re adequate and maybe even right,how can me in darkness then thus give somebody light? i have just been gifted with the sharp and keen insight, and some things that bother you were never meant in spite. for some have been too sharp it seems the bark is like the bite, mixing words with colour so that black is just as white.  i only do this poetry to give your spirit flight, and give reprieve to heavy hearts to soar to greater heights.

i maybe your nightmare, you think i am a dream, i can even walk you, right down in between.
i distort reality, make you not know what is real, i can even make you, not know how you feel.
i will promise heaven, while bringing you to hell.
the sacrifice you make now, you will never tell.
i’m the venus fly trap, i catch you in my spell, i know all your secrets,for to me them you must tell.
you know you can have me, we know very well, you will pawn the pride to me, your soul you will sell.
i got you i have, you i’m never letting go, you want me you need me, you can never just say no.
leave your children and family, and closely follow me, my dark cloak surround’s thee, my prisoner you will be.
i’m sickness the quickness, the source of your affliction, in blindness and thoughtlessness, your feelings under thick skin.
mindless and pointless, no regret for friction, i own you i thought you knew, for i am your addiction!!!

my dearest incomparable heart, i was mesmerized by you from the start. cupid shot not with and arrow but a dart, for i can’t stand when we’re apart.

from the top of your head and down to your toes, and everything in between i love all those, i feel yes complete when we’re hugging so close

if one were to even think dare, there is nothing to you will compare. my soul for you i lay bare, for me it’s just you who’s in there.
if i am down you alone  
make me smile, erasing my frown and for much quite a while. your charm is a weapon a wile, your beauty has locked me inside love’s turnstile.

the day you said so true you are mine, the hearts and love birds flocked around in my mind. so seductive those eyes
they made me fall blind, i left all worry and woe far behind.
i know you’re not perfect but then neither am i, but to find imperfection in you i don’t try.
for i am for you and you are for i, when i am with you oh so blue is the sky.
being together is like heaven it seems, the game of love played we’re such a good team. but what i am telling you and what i mean, i am awake but you’re always...my dream

mission is started and it will be accomplished, you decided to diss so you will  be demolished,
my mind is refined my wordplay is polished,  you’re
getting hit with verse like a hook from a right fist
followed up with a left one uppercut with a twist, try to hit back, unwise just you missed!
playing with fire you get scorched by the flames, third degree and beyond, the burn is your shame, your trapped by my rhyme, stuck in my domain you lose every sense child this is my game.
wilder than  wild i’m too hard to tame, your brain has been warped and never the same, go sit in the corner stay quiet and lame, try to confront me, no never again!

my words are hard and like a diamond they gleam on, you woke up the rhyming inner possessive high demon
you’ve been shut down and off before you even say game on, now all you can do is whine and mindlessly rave on.

news flash mind your self this is just stage one, zero in on your brain cell until the last one is done, i’m bringing you pain mentally this is fun,still playing this game even though i have won.
i shoot straight and quick like a laser, stinging your nerves like a taser, spewing forth word sets like a volcanos geyser, cutting you down fast and quick like a razor, try to keep up you’ll just lock up and seizure.

yes you started but now you are finished, your childish insults reduced and diminished,
you woke up the beast, im the nightmare the menace, i render you mute and stupidly mindless.

i lord over you my superiority
your inferiority only amuses me
you’re falling short to my intellectuality, you’ve been given a rhyming lesson this is the reality.
i’m  your sickness a deplorable disease, blocking all your insults desist and decease. heavy hitting verses knocking you to your knees, coming back at you you begging  stop please, now give up and quit it
i leave you in peace!!

The work you’ve done, you always tried. The hurt you felt, and pain you’d hide. The help you gave, to those who’ve cried.
The thanks you got, good was on your side.
You did not brag, kept deeds inside.
Others seem to be so hollow, you do what’s right the path you follow.
You freely gave what others borrow, as better days will come tomorrow.
You carry other’s heavy sorrow, so in grief they shall not wallow.
By no means are you perfect, but you walk with true respect.
You show you care though indirect, doesn’t matter if they forget.
You give of without personal fear, for material is briefly here.
Tradition of giving you hold so dear, to good spirits I hope you’re near.
I wrote this poem and just for me, then I found in words reality. To be kind potentially, this poem thus applies to thee!!

my body’s done my soul has gone unto the spirit world, no more pain or worry now i’m free as summer birds.
i know when i left you’re broken heart was hurt, the suffering so unbearable for it you have no
words.
every time  i know you cry when you remember me, this is life though very hard and how it has to be.
everything must turn to dust even the old trees, one day we will meet again you just wait and see.
please believe of what you hear because its really true
as long as you remember me, i’m always there with you

frustration anxiety loss and tears, anger sadness doubt and fears.
hypertension stress through all the years, cold impersonal let none near.
disloyalty seeds so much distrust, confusion or illusion decode you must.
unwise stories what is the truth, ripping away pure virtue’s own youth.
dissect like an insect what is all good, distorting reality as it very well should.
if you only all could just realize, open your minds and open your eyes, seek for the truth and repeat no lies, this is the only way all rumour dies!!!

the garden of life is all the people, collector of crops, the grim reaper. each dawning day gets to twilight,  ready’s the sharp, razor-like scythe. he stands at ready for the next swath, following each in their own path. every moment and each hour, the glint of his blade show’s its power.day or night or summer and fall. you can crouch, or stand proud and tall, the grim reaper get’s us all!!

Everyone does look outside, for blame and fault to find
Try so hard the fact  denied, but mind knows what’s inside
A tongue so easily has lied, I’m honest you have cried
No account is on your side, for truth in you has died
So many lies have multiplied, and friendships they divide
To speak truth you so deride, it drowns in false lake’s tide
There’s chance it’s open wide, to try and make things right
For the fair why don’t you fight, have peace with you tonight

Do I bow my head and pray, no one knows I will not say. Am I perfect no im not, who I am is all I got. Do I judge another when, they are doing all they can? Will I watch another suffer, or try to make their life much better? I do wrong sometimes I know, but do all my own true virtues show? I have my days when I am down, but you will not see me frown. I have my battles in my mind, just like you being lost and blind. I feel emotions harsh and strong, but I relax and they don’t last long. don’t let negative block my way, I know there comes a better day.you can do this if you try, just choose to smile no need to cry.  now you can that grief release, replace it with some inner Peace. Control your will and stress much less, then you will feel more happiness.

You try all you can to capture the wind, put out your hands and cup them in.
open them up but it’s gone again, it’s the same outcome if you try again.
stand in the stream to stop the water flow, it always has a path it chose to go.
you build a **** but it just barely slows, eventually a leaks and erosion shows.
you block the sunshine to keep it on you, as soon as you move it still shines through.
you built a wall and higher it grew, but time will win and sunlight is on new.
you try so ******* your sad sad mind, to hold me there but it soon unwinds.
you open your eyes hopeful and wide, but i’m not there you soon do find!
you may have had me one time you know, and me being there this fact did show.
but things do end we both do know, so cry not my dearest...just let me go.

I look at the sun shine, see the breeze in the trees
I’m trapped in my own mind, and I just want to be free
But while this cool wind blows, there’s a chill that it brings
There’s no place that I can go, so burdened by things

Watching the stream flow, like the tears from your eyes
They are like windows, your pain’s no surprise

Time is the ruler, nothing else wins
The end is much sooner, from the start it begin’s

I must remind me, and hear my confession
To just fight blindly, overcome my depression

So easy to quit, and shatter the dice
But I must stay cold, remain solid as….ice

i’m putting you on a pedestal on this special day
let me start off now as i have a lot to say.
this is all devoted to a mom who’s full of love
a gift as such was surely from the heavens up above
the gentle ever-caring one you are my snow white dove
tenderness forgiveness and compassion you are of.
here i am being self aware an adult on my own
because of you i made it here your care for me was shown
as i grew you were always near i never was alone
where you were is the place that always felt like home
i saw you smile and heard you laugh, i remember when you  cried
no matter what how hard it was you always, always  tried.
you worked so hard hand washed my clothes, and hung them out to dry
in winter froze you walked outside, took these cold clothes off the line.
there never was a holiday for you my dear loved one
keep the house clean and kids fed, the work was never done
you continued the tasks each day, while others had their fun
always taken for granted and this is every mom.
every person reading this would not be here today,  if not by birth the sacrifice was by all mothers made, so from the sweetest part of each heart we all humbly say....thank you mom for everything and a happy mother’s day

let me tell you now you’re ok,
you’re only having one bad day, sooner or later it will go away, just believe in what i say.
we all have times of great distress, it’s seems that life is such a mess, an air of obvious hopelessness, but with time the griefs much less.
at the moments when you cry, the countless tears fall from your eyes, you must my friend look to the skies, soon happiness you’ll realize.
when deep sorrow holds you strong, and your heart plays  it’s sad song, the pain one day it shall be gone, you’ll have the courage to go on.
when you’re stuck in the depths of sorrow, in emptiness your soul does wallow, the path of hope you keep and follow, you will see brighter tomorrows.
i hope you know just what i mean, for as unreal as this may seem, you have the spirits as a team, you’ll be ok....it’s not a dream

so smoothly and stealthily, i prowl through my life’s  forest.
the scars i bear i proudly wear,
i keep  them like a vest.
i don’t recall of them all, which one would be the baddest.
a broken heart a damaged mind, can’t tell which is the saddest.
they’re physical and mental marks, words like thorns still buried deep that others ****** on me.
it’s quizzical amusement dark, with much force you try so hard, to cruelly cold  hurt me.
you can’t touch the feelings, calloused with old scars.
i play this game all the time, you try to make me sad.
i stay the same i do not mind,
and why you get so mad?
you call me names like dumb, try get under my thick skin.
my nerves are tempered numb,
through hell is where i’ve been.
been there and i survived, i’ve crossed a grief filled  gulf.
and yet here I am alive, nothing hold’s down “THE WOLF”