You find anything you can to deny me, my personal peace you seem to despise see?
To busy and focused nit pick so tiny, my life must encompass every minute of thee.
When I’m the subject so quick to criticize, and i theorize you’re unwise and mind other people’s lives. I guess  your ego blinds your eyes to lies , and despise the ties that bind the minds of ones who are kind.
Cause me to stumble waiting for my fall, an innocent look they don’t know you at all. Standing so pious like a statue tall, if one needs help it ain’t you they will call.
I don’t claim to be faultless, I have crossed some lines. Honesty broken is everyone’s crime, but I’m brave enough to admit this crime.
I do unto others only what is good, and can stand proudly where the honest stood.
I have followed the path as best I could, defining what’s right as I understood.
Playback rewind go through your mind, and try to find the kind of sign to remind the times you have dined on pride, and denied and lied.
So what are you proving coming after me, life is easier let others be. You must really be wrapped up in misery, to wallow in deep hypocrisy.
I say again and I put to thee, live your own life let others be.
Don’t judge others and peace you see, such is life Oui c’est la vie??

Listen, can you hear that, the rustling of those leaves?
See the gently swaying of the branches on the trees?
Isn’t life so beautiful, in this summer breeze?
Waves unseen but heard, cresting lively on the seas?

In the morning life’s great sun,
the moment of its rise?
Do you see the deep blue sky,
As you raise your eyes?
softly hear the fluttering,
of the butterflies?
The beauty of this whole world, no one ever deny’s?

See the splashes of each drop, every time it rains?
And the picture a rainbow, upon the sky it paints?
See a tiny whirlpool, when floodwater drains?
I have seen all of these, when I was still here.
I will always be this close, to your heart so near.
do not please your faith so lose, in your griefs sad tears.
Remember me and when you do, a part of me appear’s

About life
The odds are crazy and they are stacked, the burden’s heavy and that’s a fact. determination you never lacked, but ambition has been cracked.
Things go well just for a while, a time and place that see’s you smile. The happiness does so beguile, from the heart flow’s like the Nile.
Happy moments like precious gold, joyful memories some untold.
Then black sadness dark as coal, grief thine heart securely holds.
Plant a kiss on baby’s nose, tickle its pink cute tiny toes. Then grows up bloom’s like a rose, what they become this no one know’s.
A new mate of life be grand, happy walking  hand in hand. Then one day it is the end, with hope at least to remain friends.
A rainy day a sunny sky, and each one has seen you cry. So depressed you know not why, you sun inside as eyes stay dry.
A loved one lost yet babies born, with emotions spirit torn. The crown of pain upon on thee worn, yet peace within the is adorned.
We grow up and become wise, and cope with what in future lie’s. We know   joy along with strife, be brave and strong….just face your life!!!

To sit upon one’s own high horse and call someone else down, spit vile words and insults look on them with judging frowns. think you’re better in nice suits or fancy gowns, you wish in their addictions that they should all just drown.

What is it in your own life that you’re unhappy with?
Or is it just to try and with the popular ones fit?
Where’s compassion in your heart is there not one single bit? Not to care for their despair makes one’s heart a dark pit.  

I do not judge but do ask why, so many are like this. To make one day a bit easier for others is a wish.
If a heart can soften up to empathy’s kiss. Show care to all and not a single one to miss.

How can we be truly good as normal human beings?
And goodwill with no witness the heart for it redeem’s? you’re to wrapped up with your image the superficial see. And praised upraised applauded by public you pray to be. For the good so publicly you do so constantly. hitherto and unto you live hypocrisy.

As your Jesus lived and your god did state, your fellow man try to elevate, yet opportunity you eliminate letting goodwill slowly sit stagnate.

I do not judge but I speak the facts, you need to be seen doing false good acts. Giving Pennies holding gold filled sacks, you are a candle but you lack real wax.

I talk and maybe I do take action, I may do nothing or do it with passion.
It’s my own knowledge and satisfaction, I may not show it but may have compassion.

We don’t need to lead nor should we follow, or seek adulation that’s truly hollow.
we must all fight to not be shallow, give all a chance for a better tomorrow!!!

Face tomorrow without fears, try to smile and wipe those tears.
Don’t forget ones so dear, memories not dimmed by years.
Life is strange, so sad but true, and it seems to conflict you.
Just keep on it’s what we knew, take each day just as I do.
Pick yourself off from the floor, take a step and then one more. Take a step into life’s door, walk along it’s golden shore.
Just live on in your own way, worry not what other’s say. Let the spirit freely stray…just enjoy each single day

Just close your eyes and realize, that nothing really ever die’s.
Take a breath and then relax, memories are happy facts.
Visualize one glorious day, the happiness inside will stay.
A thought so quick of joyful youth, make’s you smile this is the truth.
In your mind you hear one laugh, your glad heart is your life’s raft.
When you cry once in a while, I’ll be here to make you smile.
So close your eyes and sleep now please, I’ll be here so rest In Peace

Not every game played has been won, certain years were not much fun.
Cloudy days without the sun, some promises were left undone.
Some friends false and others true, after this fact is when I knew.
Experiences old and new, time dragged on and yet
it flew.
So many memories I have lost, for others came away they washed.
To and fro this mind is tossed, I pay a price and that’s the cost
This mind wanders it will roam, in this brain yes it is home.
Others have friends with they’ve grown, but here  
I stand proud and alone

Im thankful for the sunshine, and thankful for the night.
Im thankful for this one time, and thankful things go right.
Im thankful for the weather, wind snow rain and ice.
Im thankful for whatever, comes my way that’s nice.
Im thankful for my mother, and her sacrifice.
Im thankful for my father, who gave me much advice.
Im thankful for the bad days, for the good follow’s behind.
And thankful for babies, on parents they depend.
Im thankful for so much more, this list will never end.
Most of all im thankful , because you are my true friend

What am I looking for, what do I need.
Open the spirit door, mind be freed.
What does my soul abhor,
Yet not Afraid.
So much I adore,
To dust I’ll be laid.
Let me be relaxed,
Today be at ease.
Will stress now release,
Leave mind in Peace.
I reflect and you pray, to chase ill away.
And you must not relapse,
But stand to come what may!
Ideas dark gloomy grey,
Yet I’ll Stay another day.
Readjust then adapt, I always find my way.

I close my eyes and try to stop the time, thinking on my memories sublime.
Reality snaps like old weak twine, back to the present day life of mine.
Looking at pictures from years ago, a quick flashback of that day I know. where really did all the old time go, upon my face all the years do show.
A snap of a finger or a blink of an eye, that’s how quick did this time fly.
A lot less hellos and too many goodbyes, as days go by we’re all dropping like flies. Good times had but they don’t stay, off to the past they go their way.
Don’t be sad for this i say, live life as happy as it can be, forget about time and enjoy so today, and look joyfully to come what may!

The work you’ve done, you always tried. The hurt you felt, and pain you’d hide. The help you gave, to those who’ve cried.
The thanks you got, good was on your side.
You did not brag, kept deeds inside.
Others seem to be so hollow, you do what’s right the path you follow.
You freely gave what others borrow, as better days will come tomorrow.
You carry other’s heavy sorrow, so in grief they shall not wallow.
By no means are you perfect, but you walk with true respect.
You show you care though indirect, doesn’t matter if they forget.
You give of without personal fear, for material is briefly here.
Tradition of giving you hold so dear, to good spirits I hope you’re near.
I wrote this poem and just for me, then I found in words reality. To be kind potentially, this poem thus applies to thee!!

I gaze up to the night, and wonder where you are, im not really sure if you’re really here. I think deeply to myself, do you true exist, is it all a joke I somehow had just  missed. I asked so much of you, imploring in a prayer, I waited for an answer, and nothing I found there. I even made a promise to live a better life!! yet nothing much did change amidst all this heavy  strife!! Then I realize that, things do really change, everyday my soul , encounter’s peace so strange. I look up humbly so, in awe but with no fear. I find im thanking you, for me still being…..here

Do I bow my head and pray, no one knows I will not say. Am I perfect no im not, who I am is all I got. Do I judge another when, they are doing all they can? Will I watch another suffer, or try to make their life much better? I do wrong sometimes I know, but do all my own true virtues show? I have my days when I am down, but you will not see me frown. I have my battles in my mind, just like you being lost and blind. I feel emotions harsh and strong, but I relax and they don’t last long. don’t let negative block my way, I know there comes a better day.you can do this if you try, just choose to smile no need to cry.  now you can that grief release, replace it with some inner Peace. Control your will and stress much less, then you will feel more happiness.

No matter who you are or what you choose to be, you’ll get what you give in respect from me, I’ll look on you as equal and treat you normally.
No matter what lies are told of you in their stories, how I know you is who I see so no worries, besides you shouldn’t live for all others to please, as negativity in some is like a bad disease.
Keep on being crazy and silly if you wish, be flirtatious and never desist, for I am like you I guarantee you this, enjoy who you are and don’t resist. Be not bothered by what others say, how and who you are just loyally stay, carry on happily on your way, enjoy being you every single free day.

Minds a roller coaster, overheating toaster, like a speeding  jet plane brain is locked and stuck to the afterburners!
Seering hot flame, lava-like again, accelerators in brain cells operate in free range, deranged insane complex not plain, out of control too wild and untamed. A revolving door feet barely feel the floor, try to slow down but thoughts increase much more, to control this tempest I try what for? Like a bad movie that’s stuck in 4x forward this hyper syntax ship plunges onward, I carry on, within this skull is my guard speaking not  one single overheard word! I’ll use some lines from my previous rhymes! I say in all honesty with no sign of modesty, i make a lot of fools mad, they dis and trip on me, i don’t give a ******* what you say or thinking, I live my life the fullest you live for yesterday!this intellect reflects the jest I inject making you think twice and never forget, your comprehension is over and I barely started just yet. Try to dissect and decode complex text, this my brain child purely hard and compressed,  liquid thought concentrated completely cold-pressed and dressed I confess to impress all the best-yes Thats me wearing my words like a bulletproof vest, repelling attacks north east south and last west. Never defy logic of sonic ingest words like tonic absorbed sub-atomic get on it albeit you will eventually learn it’s the best that I’ll be it!!
I’ve learned my words all the best and the worst, I was never the last neither was I the first, but I study each day so my voice may be heard, the power of pen yes and all spoken word.

It’s not about the dollars and the odd cents, it’s the pure care through a simple present sent.
No amount of money or shiny new stuff, replaces one heartfelt and genuine hug.
Visualize a pure clean Snow White gentle dove, the symbol of honest unselfish pure love.
Yes purchase a gift that shows your true feelings, it’s the spirit of giving that’s the best revealing.
Focus on Christmas the reasons so true, the best gift to receive is just knowing what’s true, im just very thankful to know the real you, and im honestly happy to say for this Yule.
So know I am happy that you’re all still here, Merry Christmas my friends and happy new year

If you’re outside on winter’s night
In clear sky moon is bright, crisp cool air and carpet laid by the snow so white, upon the ground and all around on snowflakes does glint light.
Or in the day this weather shows the gentle falling flakes, oh what a site your heart is light a smile does cross your face,  the happiness is so complete nothing can replace.
You catch a glimpse of a loved one completely in your mind, as tears I know yes they do fall, from your sad sad eyes. And you blink so deep you think, for they make you a moment blind, for the happy memories show that we’re there far behind.
Remember those light snowflakes? That fell softly upon the ground? Or the sparkle on this snow, on amazing moonlit nights?
It’s to show they’re still around, their spirits float near thy. and when you do remember them, they’re right there by your side.
When it’s warm or if it’s cold
Precious memories you should hold. for they shall not in life grow old but precious just like gold
I wish you peace upon your heart, for joyfullness can last.
Use the mind and just relive your joyful Christmas past.
There is a life to live today and future happiness, they would be glad for you to be, happy nonetheless, so in this poem on their behalf, and their souls say  en masse, good will to thee I bring you peace, be merry this Christmas

You ever have those awesome dreams, and oh so real it all just seems?
The great blue sky leaves on the trees, the warm sunlight light gentle breeze?
The spirit high and joyful free,
Everything seems right to thee?
The soul’s delight soar’s merrily,  you coast along so weightlessly.
Well I say this honestly, this is what dreams are to me
And then I wake so suddenly, back to life reality
I close my eyes sleep’s not to be, yet I try so hopelessly
Because in this dream a memory,  I woke up you’re not with me……. But I know again I’ll sleep, and my heart In dreams will seek,
To find you there the one unique, in life are gone my heart you keep

I close my eyes and im there again, then I smile because I still have my friend. The mind dissolve’s all the passing years, I hear your voice and laugh so clear. The same routine we always had on track , like pause rewind then hit the playback.  You walk through the door don’t even knock,  pour yourself coffee then we sit and talk. Story time when we were so much younger, playing outside or at the river. Yes those were the days but it’s been decades, the sunny paths of youth now in the shade. I open my eyes the memories fade, in this past I wish I had stayed. You’re just a memory of my youth, this cold and emptiness is the truth. I close my eyes now for I fear, that the young unknowing might see my…..tears

What I think what I know, what I hide what I show.
What I reap is what I sow, idea seeds will it grow
What I see what I feel, imagination is it real.
Play my cards don’t reveal, fact or bluff what’s the deal?
Will the spirit fall or fly, memories live or will they die.
Not one tear falls from my eye, I chose to laugh and will not cry.
Mind roams free in open range, for me normal and not strange.
I stay the same i’m not insane, yet your mind I may derange.
Always laughing positive, in empathy im cognitive.
Sense is mixed but relative, comprehension superlative.
So hard to catch I still roam free, imagination my country.
One third the  wolf yes spiritually, and golden bear two thirds is me!

Through the years I remember that, you were always there for me.
I a child you fed and clothed, and done so happily,
No complaints through all that, you cared for each selflessly.
From pure love it’s a fact, you worked so endlessly.
And each life of a child, needs such care everyday.
And when grown as adults, all children move away.
Time nor the distance, keeps this love and it stays. Now as stones parents lay, and resting in these graves….in all truth, appreciation, generations, hearts do say, thank the mom and the dad in each life that each has had…I miss you but I pray, peace be with you now always…you are gone from this life but the love, caring ways , memories with me all my days

You get up and still tired, can’t be late or could get fired. Tea or coffee get’s you wired, but you are glad that you got hired.
You pack a lunch to take today, your hair’s a mess it’s all astray.
Almost ready to get in the fray, to get all dressed and be on your way.
To find your socks you’re standing there, half asleep your feet still bare.
Back to bed? You do not dare, fuzzy brain barely aware.
Finally you are all set, as if something you forget
You realize your day is wrecked, you still have one day off left yet!!!!!

Everyone does look outside, for blame and fault to find
Try so hard the fact  denied, but mind knows what’s inside
A tongue so easily has lied, I’m honest you have cried
No account is on your side, for truth in you has died
So many lies have multiplied, and friendships they divide
To speak truth you so deride, it drowns in false lake’s tide
There’s chance it’s open wide, to try and make things right
For the fair why don’t you fight, have peace with you tonight

I look at the sun shine, see the breeze in the trees
I’m trapped in my own mind, and I just want to be free
But while this cool wind blows, there’s a chill that it brings
There’s no place that I can go, so burdened by things

Watching the stream flow, like the tears from your eyes
They are like windows, your pain’s no surprise

Time is the ruler, nothing else wins
The end is much sooner, from the start it begin’s

I must remind me, and hear my confession
To just fight blindly, overcome my depression

So easy to quit, and shatter the dice
But I must stay cold, remain solid as….ice

remember to just try each day to laugh and even smile
happiness is inside and this you should not hide…….
you know you care and positive  messages you can share
here or there you may be joyous as it’s anywhere …….
laugh and play be free your aura calm will steadfast stay
kind words they will mostly be generously honour made……
oh unto thee my fellow beings
i wish your hearts will see
what will be is how you choose
to make life truthfully….
meditate orate or pray or good rituals vocate
know good memories will stay
……..enjoy what is today

you feel sad unattractive, one who’s defective. you’re negatively subjective, self attitude destructive.
you treat yourself unfair, with others compare. you really shouldn’t dare, you say you don’t but you care.
outwardly display youre affable, self esteem low unbearable. the pretence isn’t laughable, for inside you feel horrible.
you see clothes that you want, but you say that you can’t. this is where it’s really at, your self confidence lays flat.
you should be very thankful, stop acting like a fool,
stop treating yourself sad cruel, for inside you’re beautiful.
just learn to let it go, inner happiness let show.
you’re a treasure much like gold…i thought i’d let you know

you can question my sanity, lace words with profanity, accuse me of vanity, an oddity, in spite of me living in simple reality.
you can intentionally despise , ill-willing attempt to entice, reputation abuse and defile, go and revile, use all your wiles, i’m unaffected i sit here and smile.
you can call me the devil, unrepenting and evil, unbeliever, deceiver life’s cantilever, stirring up masses in unbridled fever, i reply with nothing for nothing is neither.
creating complicating synthetic syntax for the quick mind, overpower’s the ones lax,
splitting your brain cells with a  dictionary axe, only in truth do i put forth the facts.
i am normal not crazy insane, but i play minds like you play video games, i could leave you in verse borderline and deranged, this was always me and nothing has changed, it’s my revelation that you think is so strange, welcome to my mind as it roams the free range.
who i am is what i will be, no need to to change who you now do see, i accept you as thee…so just let me be

frustration anxiety loss and tears, anger sadness doubt and fears.
hypertension stress through all the years, cold impersonal let none near.
disloyalty seeds so much distrust, confusion or illusion decode you must.
unwise stories what is the truth, ripping away pure virtue’s own youth.
dissect like an insect what is all good, distorting reality as it very well should.
if you only all could just realize, open your minds and open your eyes, seek for the truth and repeat no lies, this is the only way all rumour dies!!!

I sit and then wonder, then i wonder some more, mind slowly drifting from my life’s shore. sitting and staring at the welcoming door, yet can’t decide to walk this inviting blank floor.
Is the grass greener better growing and tall, jumping the fence and just leaving it all.
do i answer the appealing inviting loud call, is it my heaven or to hell my last fall?
my cloud in this sunshine, so warm and divine, holds the peace captive and locked so behind, hurricanes and earthquakes in control of my mind.
what am i looking for, i really don’t know, feeling so empty to the pit of my soul. i have no objective with a set goal, only the hope to one day become whole.

everything  was perfect not a thing was wrong, next thing i know and hear now you are sad gone.
my heart started beating to deaths sad timeless song, tears kept falling how i tried to stay so strong.

filled with such grief it can’t be but yes it is so true, it’s changed so much the life i once happily lived and knew, i’m filled with sorrow every moment what now can i do? sitting here alone and i can’t stop missing  you.

yesterday was so different then there was no such sorrow, i cry so much tears today you have no more tomorrow.
my life seems now so bare and sadly feel’s so hollow, in grief with so much suffering in loss and pain i wallow.
you to me were everything my only one best friend, such happy memories i will keep in heart of way back then.
i will try to carry on though it seems pain has no end, i will cry a few more tears….until we
meet again

my body’s done my soul has gone unto the spirit world, no more pain or worry now i’m free as summer birds.
i know when i left you’re broken heart was hurt, the suffering so unbearable for it you have no
words.
every time  i know you cry when you remember me, this is life though very hard and how it has to be.
everything must turn to dust even the old trees, one day we will meet again you just wait and see.
please believe of what you hear because its really true
as long as you remember me, i’m always there with you

i maybe your nightmare, you think i am a dream, i can even walk you, right down in between.
i distort reality, make you not know what is real, i can even make you, not know how you feel.
i will promise heaven, while bringing you to hell.
the sacrifice you make now, you will never tell.
i’m the venus fly trap, i catch you in my spell, i know all your secrets,for to me them you must tell.
you know you can have me, we know very well, you will pawn the pride to me, your soul you will sell.
i got you i have, you i’m never letting go, you want me you need me, you can never just say no.
leave your children and family, and closely follow me, my dark cloak surround’s thee, my prisoner you will be.
i’m sickness the quickness, the source of your affliction, in blindness and thoughtlessness, your feelings under thick skin.
mindless and pointless, no regret for friction, i own you i thought you knew, for i am your addiction!!!

you can see what lurks beneath the cover, a hint of danger or potential lover.
can send a message quickly over, shows what is barely under the cover.
a smile, a frown or just a clown,
blue or grey, green or hazel brown. the sight in which you can drown, the feelings show barely kept down.
is it happiness, grief and sadness? are all the feelings mixed a mess?
do you miss me, and do i miss you, do they speak what’s inner true?
i’m i feeling sad and blue?
and this is what does show through. but are my feelings stuck like glue?
I will not say but you may  know, the feelings just might barely show. they follow me to where i go, these lonely eyes are my windows......

You don’t know me you never did, go ahead and act like a little kid.
I’m not one to do your bid, who I am from you I hid.
put me down now and call me names, while I laugh at your childish games.
I was never meant to tame, you thought you could and what a shame.
you can’t define my inner feature, you can try you poor sad creature.
such a hypocrite talk like a preacher, i’ve given you a lesson i’m your teacher.
strategize with your words well placed, but i had your plan already traced.
with venomous poison your words are laced, but I laugh in your faces because i’m unfazed.
i’m uncontrollable this is no lie, so just give up don’t even try.
and i will tell you now just why,
don’t bother whining do not cry,
this is hard cold direct truth reality, you never once invaded my inner sanity,
you thought i was caught by you home free, but i never gave you what you thought was me!!

I look at this one picture, oh so many times.
For it brings a clear memory, so fresh in my mind.
it feel’s like that same day, is right here not behind.
when i close my eyes , the happiness i do find.
i may be foolish, to breathe in the past.
childishly wanting, joyous feelings to last.
but i wish so truly, it didn’t end so **** fast.
but i hang on so stubbornly, to this memory hast.
yes you are gone now,  my broken heart knows.
the saddest of all, of my sad spirits woes.
you’re no longer here,
my soul in pain throes.
for wherefore thou are, is not what we chose!!

You try all you can to capture the wind, put out your hands and cup them in.
open them up but it’s gone again, it’s the same outcome if you try again.
stand in the stream to stop the water flow, it always has a path it chose to go.
you build a **** but it just barely slows, eventually a leaks and erosion shows.
you block the sunshine to keep it on you, as soon as you move it still shines through.
you built a wall and higher it grew, but time will win and sunlight is on new.
you try so ******* your sad sad mind, to hold me there but it soon unwinds.
you open your eyes hopeful and wide, but i’m not there you soon do find!
you may have had me one time you know, and me being there this fact did show.
but things do end we both do know, so cry not my dearest...just let me go.

Grab each moment  like a lifeline, get the most from each fraction of time.
Every minute writes a new line, you are the author so make it sublime.
Like a book that’s not yet done, compose each page mixed with some fun. for it’s meant to be read by one, for each sentence is achieved and won.

Every day that does arrive, tells us all we have survived. cherish each hour youre alive, for positive you should always strive.
And understand there will be grief, it will go must be your belief. let it be the olive leaf,  i sign that soon the soul’s relief.

this book of life that is yours, only you shall steer it’s course.
single stories that are ours, to complete is in our power!

Am i a flirt i guess i am and i cannot deny it, but do i try no i do not it’s just my natural habit,
all i do is just be me and then effects are rapid, i set a trap put up some snares and snag you like a rabbit.
i’m not vain nor am handsome but my words do get me there,
i weave a web with growling tone the wolf it’s fangs do bare,
supreme and gleaming confidence apparent in the stare, your hypnotized and held captive to move you do not dare.
annoying and amusing you my contradicting charm, the warning bells your senses have refuse to sound alarm, as i barely stand too close the hairs raise on your arms, a tingle rushes up your back and yet you feel too warm.
you hope i don’t but wish i do, conscience is split in two, that i take you in my arms you want i think i know, the leash i have around your heart will pull you where i go
my wit is fast as lightening flashing in the darkened sky, herbivorous carnivorous omnivorous is I, my jokes are never ***** though not like a pig in sty, but you get the gyst of it through my gleaming eye.

you be glad or mad at me because you’re not the first, neither of the previous have been got much less or worse,intellect is indirect transcends the universe, you all fall endearingly to my captive verse.

like a silent shadow though i follow on your track, observe the words that i do use and you might know my tact, i stole your heart so easily you know this is a fact,i’ll hold a piece and will be nice,  give you the rest right back!!

I look at you your so well made, admired by all eyes, you walk in pride with oh such grace, your beauty tells no lies.
your voice so smooth emotionless, to hear you talk is nice, you appear glide quietly, like wings of butterflies.

The smile so innocent demure, so many do admire, you’re manners and how you look, by everyone desired. No one knows i think i do, your poor soul is tired, your will to live seems all well, but it’s  long since been retired.
The hell you lived it’s still in there, but you try to hideThe innocence that once was you, torn savagely wide. the happiness that you recall, appears forever died, yet you try you don’t give, but you’re so broken deep inside!!

You can have my body but you’ll never take my heart, it’s been lost somewhere from the start. to have real feelings i try so very hard, you want to hurt me you can’t touch one part.

In frustration you say such hurtful things, this wall goes up knowing word assault begins. emotion takes flight on its golden wings, it is a war no one ever wins.

Why do we stay together i don’t even know, genuine care neither of us truly show. all you wish is to keep me in control, defying common logic you won’t just let me go.

You hurl profanity and insults while standing there, you don’t realize that your not getting anywhere. my nerves are steel hard even when they’re bare, you don’t realize that i no longer care.

let me tell you now you’re ok,
you’re only having one bad day, sooner or later it will go away, just believe in what i say.
we all have times of great distress, it’s seems that life is such a mess, an air of obvious hopelessness, but with time the griefs much less.
at the moments when you cry, the countless tears fall from your eyes, you must my friend look to the skies, soon happiness you’ll realize.
when deep sorrow holds you strong, and your heart plays  it’s sad song, the pain one day it shall be gone, you’ll have the courage to go on.
when you’re stuck in the depths of sorrow, in emptiness your soul does wallow, the path of hope you keep and follow, you will see brighter tomorrows.
i hope you know just what i mean, for as unreal as this may seem, you have the spirits as a team, you’ll be ok....it’s not a dream

things going down in an uncontrolled  tailspin, with the mindset that most are now living in, when if it did this sickness all begin, it’s worse not better that things are now getting, like a virus reality is infected from within.
all the world is going sideways off track crazy,
the violence and hate occasionally will face thee, even me the face of death does no longer faze me, reality insanity the line between these has now become hazy.
vilify or sanctify me like a deceiving rotten poisoned daisy.
mass media right or wrong saturates all influence, geared to remove our own minds inner independence, i value your opinion but neither do we less, and follow the program or left sitting on the fence.
you want to see someone die, hit the search tab and it’s there before your eyes, you have access to which you fantasize, unedited videos and pictures no lies.
this world is bad now it has become wicked, information highway is now everyone’s ticket, it’s sad and true what you want you can get it, open the search window on heaven or hell...CLICK IT!

i ask of you that spirit we call ours, the one they call the higher power, but all the same it’s my creator, you of all who is much greater
let me be given to see another sunrise, and to see it set with thankful eyes. let me forgive all
malicious lies, help me refrain to say words unwise, for with me all rumour dies, if i slip my soul chastise.
if it be your great persuasion, give me that which is the vision, to bring together mans division, to foster hope upon the horizon.
look on your servant if you may, as an instrument of what to say, to help another through their day, to remove all doubt and sad dismay.
if it is by your great choice,
invoke your wisdom through my voice, to bless another you bless me twice, in me goodwill please optimize.
this is not a normal prayer, for no name is given there, living things are well aware, they do know you’re everywhere, your image everyone shall wear, you see each soul before you bare.
again is my own supplication, instil the words of understanding, teaching good and for good standing, to not forget yet be forgiving, to respect all things for all is living, to seek no end but new beginnings.
as you are from infinity, i humble bow my head to thee, i accept with pride your will to be, i gladly follow my deity this path to walk you chose for me!!

my dearest incomparable heart, i was mesmerized by you from the start. cupid shot not with and arrow but a dart, for i can’t stand when we’re apart.

from the top of your head and down to your toes, and everything in between i love all those, i feel yes complete when we’re hugging so close

if one were to even think dare, there is nothing to you will compare. my soul for you i lay bare, for me it’s just you who’s in there.
if i am down you alone  
make me smile, erasing my frown and for much quite a while. your charm is a weapon a wile, your beauty has locked me inside love’s turnstile.

the day you said so true you are mine, the hearts and love birds flocked around in my mind. so seductive those eyes
they made me fall blind, i left all worry and woe far behind.
i know you’re not perfect but then neither am i, but to find imperfection in you i don’t try.
for i am for you and you are for i, when i am with you oh so blue is the sky.
being together is like heaven it seems, the game of love played we’re such a good team. but what i am telling you and what i mean, i am awake but you’re always...my dream

my feet touch softly upon the hard ground, my personality brings tremors and ripples all around. much like an earthquake i’m quiet but loud, not too humble you see i stand proud.
boisterous an imp but not an imposter, annoyance and happiness a mental task monster, getting on your nerves but blended with  laughter, i guarantee you will smile, when you think after.
i am direct and show no attitude, though my remarks seem to you in fact rude. you may reflect and feel some gratitude, wisdom and humour you find you’re imbued.
if i do choose i can be quite  seductive, to common sense atomic bomb blast-like destructive.
directing deep thoughts towards whats reproductive, the question one ask’s is what’s my objective? but here it goes again  i’m always evasive, thoughts through your mind am i counter subversive?
propriety insanity melded and welded no longer divisive.
your brain is the house where i knock on your window, hand signs by design lightly veiled innuendo. i hint maybe later you reply yes but when though. i say when the door is open to the jengo.
my selection of words causes so much confusion, easier to learn about nuclear fusion. is this all real or is it illusion, you really don’t know me it’s just an allusion. spinning your mind so it’s close to collusion, all inhibitions now begin to loosen.
now your as guilty by association, but you may very well feel appreciation, finding your self in this situation, i’m just playing...this is recreation!!

you can’t help feeling down and totally worthless, your spirit is weak and feeling so lifeless, you outward smile but it’s all so pointless, feeling so down and oh so helpless.
you can’t come out with your secret confession, you believe no one else your grief can lessen, to find inner peace is all your wishing, caught in the grasp of this bad depression.
everyday is a struggle just to push through, how to get past it you just wish you knew, to search and find what it is to help you, frustration desperation and sorrow surround you.
take baby steps the next set is your goal, you made it today as long as you know, one track forward begin and just go, one seed of hope is all you need sow.
never give up in this worrisome night, where the soul is caught up in the cold with no light, work against it with all of your might,  one day you know everything will be right.
you have to believe one day you will smile, but accept it might not still be for a while, carry on walking that spiritual mile, sooner or later all shall reconcile.
i won’t pretend i know how you feel, or even a hint of what you conceal, i will not say it’s not a big deal, but i know and support your depression is real.
all i can do is help you to stay strong, to be beside you no matter how long, whatever it takes i shall help you along, i offer you my shoulder, my friend to lean on..

mission is started and it will be accomplished, you decided to diss so you will  be demolished,
my mind is refined my wordplay is polished,  you’re
getting hit with verse like a hook from a right fist
followed up with a left one uppercut with a twist, try to hit back, unwise just you missed!
playing with fire you get scorched by the flames, third degree and beyond, the burn is your shame, your trapped by my rhyme, stuck in my domain you lose every sense child this is my game.
wilder than  wild i’m too hard to tame, your brain has been warped and never the same, go sit in the corner stay quiet and lame, try to confront me, no never again!

my words are hard and like a diamond they gleam on, you woke up the rhyming inner possessive high demon
you’ve been shut down and off before you even say game on, now all you can do is whine and mindlessly rave on.

news flash mind your self this is just stage one, zero in on your brain cell until the last one is done, i’m bringing you pain mentally this is fun,still playing this game even though i have won.
i shoot straight and quick like a laser, stinging your nerves like a taser, spewing forth word sets like a volcanos geyser, cutting you down fast and quick like a razor, try to keep up you’ll just lock up and seizure.

yes you started but now you are finished, your childish insults reduced and diminished,
you woke up the beast, im the nightmare the menace, i render you mute and stupidly mindless.

i lord over you my superiority
your inferiority only amuses me
you’re falling short to my intellectuality, you’ve been given a rhyming lesson this is the reality.
i’m  your sickness a deplorable disease, blocking all your insults desist and decease. heavy hitting verses knocking you to your knees, coming back at you you begging  stop please, now give up and quit it
i leave you in peace!!

i remember clear the day that you last went away, never had a chance to tell you what for want to say.
never stopped to visit you when i had some free days, this is what i can’t undo it stays with me always.
if i did at times to you go and say hello, i was always busy and had so much i had to do.
the chasm which i caused divide had widened through and through, i see now and way back then i really wish i knew.
now you’re not here and you can’t see i’m sitting all alone, my mind plays back the memories so aimlessly it roams. karma came and paid me back your loneliness i own, no knock upon that lonely door to hear this lonely home.
as you wished now so do i my lonesome heart does cry, can someone come visit me won’t somebody try. i ask myself in  sadness now please tell me just why, there’s no one to see the tears fall freely from my eyes.
as it is and as it was these things will always be, we reduce in negligence each other thoughtlessly. because our lives are our time we keep it selfishly, even time that we can give but nothings ever free.
i still hurt in loneliness and i never shall forget, our time will come our own lives will, see the last sunset, i took little time to visit you, this is my regret!!

i’m not after likes at all for all the poems i write, i just think they’re adequate and maybe even right,how can me in darkness then thus give somebody light? i have just been gifted with the sharp and keen insight, and some things that bother you were never meant in spite. for some have been too sharp it seems the bark is like the bite, mixing words with colour so that black is just as white.  i only do this poetry to give your spirit flight, and give reprieve to heavy hearts to soar to greater heights.

I look within and try to find a soft and caring place,  I feel so cold no feeling there deceit is on my face. there is no shock or sadness there, my heart it seems so bare , sympathy or tenderness I search it everywhere.  yet I outward will contradict with words i say and write, and utilize what others feel somehow it don’t seem right. What is it and who am I who hath no tears to cry, is my heart true made of ice and long since it has died??
there is no love but nor is hate within me does reside, an emptiness a vacuum, of life it is devoid. yet i function normally in fact exceptionally,  maybe just unwritten plans that i was meant to be. I’m not cruel nor am i soft, i’m somewhere in between, i can be cold but normally the nicest you have seen. am i ****** a bit deranged i really do not know, but sanity does normally abide inside of me. i do not worry nor be stressed when i do think of me, as  i am then what  i am is who, i will always  be