be self critical but don’t beat yourself up, be self confident just not too much. be compassionate know when’s enough, strict in control but never too tough. be understanding but do not be fooled, let each moment be the life school. be somebody’s shoulder they can lean on,be like the boulder support and stand strong. use the past as a guide to help you along,but you will get lost if you look back too long. do what you can and live for today, pay no mind to what others say, rumours will die they will go away, just work on yourself and you will be ok!

starting off minimal with syllables and nominal phenomenal optimal flow, decibels in treble
voice a growl i speak low!!
enticing exciting inviting poem writing, i’m a little devil a pen is my trident!
verbally undress you i possess in excess the finesse and prowess, impressed? i digress it’s a mess i confess, this syntax a test.
with a verse it gets worse i go first and i burst spitting out words.
a maniacal search overpower your church making your mind freeze then stutter and lurch.
not meaning you harm it’s all about charm, tickle your ear like a tongue it’s so warm.
i shall mesmerize double cross up your eyes sensual rhyme is like touching your thighs. these lines are like whips spew honey from lips getting attention like hands on your hips. here am i now you’re hearing me how weaving my crown breaks everything down, get ready to bow
on your knees low get ready to go i ain’t no charles dickens or ed allan poe.
prepare to be knighted mentally flipped and uprighted, who just upended you lefted and righted lift your eyes up here then you know  that i did!!
let’s try this again cause girl your my friend turn it around begin from  the end, get up and then stand then give me your hand you can now tell me that  i am the man


show me, what you can do please

i’m putting you on a pedestal on this special day
let me start off now as i have a lot to say.
this is all devoted to a mom who’s full of love
a gift as such was surely from the heavens up above
the gentle ever-caring one you are my snow white dove
tenderness forgiveness and compassion you are of.
here i am being self aware an adult on my own
because of you i made it here your care for me was shown
as i grew you were always near i never was alone
where you were is the place that always felt like home
i saw you smile and heard you laugh, i remember when you  cried
no matter what how hard it was you always, always  tried.
you worked so hard hand washed my clothes, and hung them out to dry
in winter froze you walked outside, took these cold clothes off the line.
there never was a holiday for you my dear loved one
keep the house clean and kids fed, the work was never done
you continued the tasks each day, while others had their fun
always taken for granted and this is every mom.
every person reading this would not be here today,  if not by birth the sacrifice was by all mothers made, so from the sweetest part of each heart we all humbly say....thank you mom for everything and a happy mother’s day

the garden of life is all the people, collector of crops, the grim reaper. each dawning day gets to twilight,  ready’s the sharp, razor-like scythe. he stands at ready for the next swath, following each in their own path. every moment and each hour, the glint of his blade show’s its power.day or night or summer and fall. you can crouch, or stand proud and tall, the grim reaper get’s us all!!

i bring disorder chaos is me, hurricane force a cyclonic tornado
the eruption is obvious, my words are volcanos.
hot like lava flowing outward,
tearing up your life like a jumbled crossword.
your peace i hate and is my nemesis, happiness and sadness what an antithesis.
i sow negative your mind is my garden, soft caring hearts i work to harden.
cancerous and rotten right to the core, you say stop it, i give you more.
my dedication to every nation to be consternation-irritation mass subjugation.
a lie to make truth be spit out sour, every single second 24 hours, destroy what’s right set fire to flowers!
divide what is peace and i prefer sooner...what am i you ask, i reply
“RUMOUR!!”

the slice

there’s a storm that rages, deep inside my  brain.
through my life’s ages, should i try again?
thoughts are spinning like a tornado, hurricane force, mind twisting i know!
contradiction i wear like a  coranado, no confusion nor doubt do i show!
standing sure looking so defiant, so many years without a confidant!
looking back sometime in the past, thinking that it will always last! time blew by us too **** fast, revealing youth as a temporary mask!!
sometimes old scars need to be revealed, only then they become properly healed!
take the knife which is truth and honesty, run the blade slowly and deeply across me!
i may truly own and desire propensity, to reopen old wounds that lay beneath me!
there is a story i want to hear, how things are good and  happiness works!
revelations i now invite near, do you live as unhappiness lurks?!
it wasn’t me, nor was it you, somewhere here, is hidden our truth! unwise choices speaking in voices loud in your psyche, causing confusion mentality shaky!
still your self-esteem suffers much old pains, there’s always a way to fix things again!!
take knife of truth cold as ice, here is my heart get ready to slice!!

so smoothly and stealthily, i prowl through my life’s  forest.
the scars i bear i proudly wear,
i keep  them like a vest.
i don’t recall of them all, which one would be the baddest.
a broken heart a damaged mind, can’t tell which is the saddest.
they’re physical and mental marks, words like thorns still buried deep that others ****** on me.
it’s quizzical amusement dark, with much force you try so hard, to cruelly cold  hurt me.
you can’t touch the feelings, calloused with old scars.
i play this game all the time, you try to make me sad.
i stay the same i do not mind,
and why you get so mad?
you call me names like dumb, try get under my thick skin.
my nerves are tempered numb,
through hell is where i’ve been.
been there and i survived, i’ve crossed a grief filled  gulf.
and yet here I am alive, nothing hold’s down “THE WOLF”

Sometimes I think when we were young, that simple things were so much fun.
With time’s one blink that is all gone, these fickle joys have come undone.
Played outside in freezing temps or sleet and snow or windy rains.
Stayed inside in late pm’s, our feet and toes were thawed in pain, but come next day we’re out again.
We had sword fights or played at war, our generation all have scars.
Hide and seek or just plain tag
Younger siblings on sleds we’d drag.
The generations how have changed, to their phones or game consoles chained.
Don’t even know if it had rained, so busy playing video games.
Technology was meant to make, one’s life much like a piece of cake.
Virtual reality is a fake, but so real is how much time it take’s.
This is life for all these days, computer age now always stays..keeps taking lives through all wifi’s, glowing screens now fills our eyes.
As days go by, we miss blue skies and rarely look to see birds fly...this cyber world I do despise, it took control and multiplies the life it steals....our free will dies

I try to be positive all the **** time, when things go wrong I say it will be fine.
I walk through cloudy days is if the sun shines,
Frustration I keep locked so deep in my mind.
The words I speak to all so sublime, while doubt and wonder I keep as all mine.
Always happy and infectious carefree, no worry is apparent to be seen by thee.
But this is not true and I do worry like you, I just tell my self that another day’s new.
So each day I make it and I push through, if you think about then so can you too

All my life you were always there, you were not shy to show you care.
You guided me with insight fair,
And filled my days when all seemed bare.
From a baby to a child, your tender heart so loving mild
As a teen I was so wild, you steered me right and sometimes smiled.
Then I grew and on my own,
You made me feel never alone
No matter where I chose to go,
Where you were, was always “home”.
Your waning years, begot some fears
I have shed so many tears, for you have gone, my heart so dear.
I never thought that this would end, in agony my soul does rend
The parenting on me you spent, turned me into your best friend.
I can not help it and I cry, life has changed the day you died
But now I must this last goodbye, with much love I won’t deny
On those angels wings soul glides, to heaven now to peace do fly.....and one day my soul thee’s nigh

Hey, come hang out with me, and let’s watch some TV
“I’m on a streak, just one more match” is what you say to me
Now it’s late, the show is done’
And I watched it with no one

Let’s go for a jog, and do two miles, it will take but just a while.
“I’m messaging a friend of mine” you tell me with a smile
I get on the treadmill, just to use up some spare time

Come into the living room, and I will tell stories all true
You reply “I’m sure I’ve heard,all those tales before from you”

Come help me work on the  car
I’ll show you what to do
“Im busy on YouTube right now, and watching  videos”
I work alone, finish the car, as another day it goes

Now I can’t run much anymore, and time has slowed me down
“Why don’t you come and jog with me?” You ask me with a frown
I can’t remember stories, I had lots just for you
“How come no more stories are ever told by you? Is it because they were not true?”
Is all I hear from you

Time is cruel it carries on, with no consideration true
My strength and my own stamina, and memory is going too

My child I tried so very hard, just to make you see, how much time I sacrificed and it was all for thee, now the person I once was becomes a memory...the time I tried to give you child.....oh so desperately, as life it takes this very time, slowly day by day
This life I tried to give you time, life now takes it all from me....

Go ahead and judge me, despise me, chastise me, revile me, evil eye me, with your stares in hell I’ll be

rebuke me,
Quote your bible verses, disown me with curses
Jesus is your saviour, not mine for my behaviour
I’m a spawn of Satan, the source of all you’re hating
Im just evil meditating
Your peace of mind I’m breaking

On me you’ve passed your judgement,
The source of your resentment
The sole unequal element,
And in heaven paid no rent

With my words I shatter peace
Sweet harmony displace
Sensuality in lace
I dare shove in your face

I chose to make a new path
No sanity I hath
I carry anarchy, try to draw you like a moth
My life now is as Thoth

You deny I am your friend
As equilibrium I rend
My life no good will end
Well now hear me defend

I bleed I feel I see and smell
Distinguish light and dark as well
I’ll pick someone up who just fell
And bend my knee When hear the knell
Yet you condemn me all to hell!!!

The sands of life they once did walk.....in your mind you see the track
They are gone now many years
And washed away the path by tears
How many times if they looked back
Would they see one hint of that

The winds of time so strongly blow
These grains of life no longer show
Every minute day and hours
Every spring it’s April showers
Holds a memory in its powers
Each memory is always ours

Just keep on going, and don’t look back
Even knowing, you leave your tracks
The sands of time the grains of life, are slowly swept away in flight
Take each grain of sand this time, as it is, precious, divine
As I know I’m Losing mine
I cherish it like gold is fine
Hold every moment oh so dear,
As the end is looming near
Face this truth and have no fear
One day each track erased by tears!!

a moment in time. .crosses ones mind, a torrent divine. .tosses sublime, and sadness and joy do so intertwine. .for its realized. .the memories fine. .are somewhere behind. .and never again experience. .that time. . . so hold to heart thine. .as i wiil do mine. .memories in mind. .a moment in time. . . .

I can quit and just give up, when I’m weak and things get tough.
I can say “I’ve had enough” when life shake’s me up so rough.
I can turn away from you, when you try to help me through.
I can sit alone and blue, excuses make that are untrue.
I can say I always knew, you quit on me like others do.
I can say “it’s you to blame”, anger fully displayed out lain.
I can shed much tears like rain, in self-pity and show no shame.
I can seem appear the same, hidden hurt and buried pain.
All of these shall reap no gain, when emotion’s just a game.

So I whisper my own name, and prove myself is being sane.
I see myself and deep within, my spirit glows a gleam so thin...the will to live, the will to win.....was always there....has always been

The snow comes, my brother goes
Where he is, only he knows
The snow falls, cold wind blows
The body lies, like the frozen rose
The life you chose, was not my own
A lesson taught, retained now known
One choice and life, is overthrown
I may not shed one single tear, knowing you’re no longer here
But that’s just me, your brother dear
Now go to where, the soul be just
Ash to ash, and dust to dust
To turn to these we know we must
The body’s done and soul at rest
Don’t wait around, a time for me
Just lay now, eternally
Shall we meet?...let’s wait and see
For I’ll go on perhaps to thee
Keep on..just go..do not look back
While these days, I shall keep track
Until the day, see brother jack
I dedicate this poem, to you
Not much else, for me to do
Here it is, from me to you
Rest now Well , and...see
You soon!

Life is a beginning, but death is not the end
Relatives or family and maybe a good friend
You’ll no longer see my footprints, upon this hallowed ground
And hear no more my footsteps, in death
They’ll make no sound
On earth you will not see me, but soon you all shall follow
The sun no longer shines on me,
I shall no longer cast a shadow
Shed a tear, if you must, and I will understand
I am near, just at rest, In the promised land
Remember me the way you will , as humble, even grand
November reigns and all things freeze,
Not a single flower stands
I am not gone, I’m just away in gods all loving hands
It won’t be long, to see the day
Together we will stand
Angel’s wings are fluttering, so softly I do hear
The heavenly harp is playing, I know now I am near
Now say goodbye just for a while, and pray all do not fear
I am now approaching, to heaven oh so near
And now my soul does soon rejoice
I rest eternal dear

Welcome to my nightmare, come on in if you dare, a sinister world of death pain and dispair . This is a place you will never relax, and you will never know peace even  if you beg or or you ask. Zero eight two eight the wolf was born on this date the year of sixty six, 1966. The 4th of twelve kids in the clan at the age of eleven I became a man, my very first best friend died about then, run over by a car in a coma for a month, the balance of his life was hanging on the edge. If he ever came out of this comatose state there was word he would never be normal again. Well he never came out of this life and death line the carefree and loving kid in me died. I made a pledge around about then that I would never have a best friend, no never again. I kept that promise for about five years cause my uncle B J G came to befriend me, i finally found someone who did understand me, he taught me to smoke, we'd laugh and we'd joke my sense of humour and life had awoke. 8 years later when I was 23, my second best friend died and left me, a perfect record. 2 best friends had 2 friends died. That very same I had another friend who I thought would be around right to the end, he's still around right? Guess again, he took his life with a sawed off gun, now number 4 are you ready for more?..I'll give e you a hint, traces of his blood still show on my door, that's why I won't call anyone a best friend anymore. Ive given up on friends cause they gave up on me. as I'm writing this poem I'm sitting about 15 feet from where one of my  friends died, their maker did meet. Life has been rough pretty god ****** unsweet. That's why I won't bow down I don't know defeat.  I've been pretty crazy with all my hard drinking to this day I don't know if I would do anyone in...but if anyone were to act up  even right now, who knows they might end up 6 feet under ground, or they might disappear and never be found.  I'll keep on being defiant no matter what the cost, I am the way I am because of the friends had and lost. Yeah life is hard and so ****** wicked!, but life is what you choose to make-make of it...life is hard and so ****** wicked,  but life is what you choose to make-make of it....

We all have things that each does worship....and you with a negative thought of it...is this one tip..let them believe on what makes them free...for you or I just might not see...that each shall choose their own destiny...and shall therefore accept it eternally..so what will be shall really be..each to their own as you and me!!!