You get up and still tired, can’t be late or could get fired. Tea or coffee get’s you wired, but you are glad that you got hired.
You pack a lunch to take today, your hair’s a mess it’s all astray.
Almost ready to get in the fray, to get all dressed and be on your way.
To find your socks you’re standing there, half asleep your feet still bare.
Back to bed? You do not dare, fuzzy brain barely aware.
Finally you are all set, as if something you forget
You realize your day is wrecked, you still have one day off left yet!!!!!

Everyone does look outside, for blame and fault to find
Try so hard the fact  denied, but mind knows what’s inside
A tongue so easily has lied, I’m honest you have cried
No account is on your side, for truth in you has died
So many lies have multiplied, and friendships they divide
To speak truth you so deride, it drowns in false lake’s tide
There’s chance it’s open wide, to try and make things right
For the fair why don’t you fight, have peace with you tonight

I look at the sun shine, see the breeze in the trees
I’m trapped in my own mind, and I just want to be free
But while this cool wind blows, there’s a chill that it brings
There’s no place that I can go, so burdened by things

Watching the stream flow, like the tears from your eyes
They are like windows, your pain’s no surprise

Time is the ruler, nothing else wins
The end is much sooner, from the start it begin’s

I must remind me, and hear my confession
To just fight blindly, overcome my depression

So easy to quit, and shatter the dice
But I must stay cold, remain solid as….ice

remember to just try each day to laugh and even smile
happiness is inside and this you should not hide…….
you know you care and positive  messages you can share
here or there you may be joyous as it’s anywhere …….
laugh and play be free your aura calm will steadfast stay
kind words they will mostly be generously honour made……
oh unto thee my fellow beings
i wish your hearts will see
what will be is how you choose
to make life truthfully….
meditate orate or pray or good rituals vocate
know good memories will stay
……..enjoy what is today

you feel sad unattractive, one who’s defective. you’re negatively subjective, self attitude destructive.
you treat yourself unfair, with others compare. you really shouldn’t dare, you say you don’t but you care.
outwardly display youre affable, self esteem low unbearable. the pretence isn’t laughable, for inside you feel horrible.
you see clothes that you want, but you say that you can’t. this is where it’s really at, your self confidence lays flat.
you should be very thankful, stop acting like a fool,
stop treating yourself sad cruel, for inside you’re beautiful.
just learn to let it go, inner happiness let show.
you’re a treasure much like gold…i thought i’d let you know

you can question my sanity, lace words with profanity, accuse me of vanity, an oddity, in spite of me living in simple reality.
you can intentionally despise , ill-willing attempt to entice, reputation abuse and defile, go and revile, use all your wiles, i’m unaffected i sit here and smile.
you can call me the devil, unrepenting and evil, unbeliever, deceiver life’s cantilever, stirring up masses in unbridled fever, i reply with nothing for nothing is neither.
creating complicating synthetic syntax for the quick mind, overpower’s the ones lax,
splitting your brain cells with a  dictionary axe, only in truth do i put forth the facts.
i am normal not crazy insane, but i play minds like you play video games, i could leave you in verse borderline and deranged, this was always me and nothing has changed, it’s my revelation that you think is so strange, welcome to my mind as it roams the free range.
who i am is what i will be, no need to to change who you now do see, i accept you as thee…so just let me be

frustration anxiety loss and tears, anger sadness doubt and fears.
hypertension stress through all the years, cold impersonal let none near.
disloyalty seeds so much distrust, confusion or illusion decode you must.
unwise stories what is the truth, ripping away pure virtue’s own youth.
dissect like an insect what is all good, distorting reality as it very well should.
if you only all could just realize, open your minds and open your eyes, seek for the truth and repeat no lies, this is the only way all rumour dies!!!