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George Ellison Aug 2011
I honestly hate myself, because I was a fool
24 hours, not even one day at school
I know for a fact my heart won't heal from this
I wore my heart on my sleeve for you, but now i'm sleeveless
How can a few words crush someone's happiness
**** if I got hurt bad, then I feel bad for Thaddeus
Love does blind the weak
and once again i'm wiping my own cheeks
How could you do that to someone
You wanted me, then you don't all of a sudden
I really did love you, I tried to show it when I wasn't there
Every night I talked to god, hoping you would come back through prayer
You did, then you left once again
and now as much I don't want to...I still call you a friend


This hurts to much God..
George Ellison Aug 2011
Allot of lies and allot of untold secrets
I don't wanna be your friend so go and ask Jesus
because now showing love is a sign of weakness
when confronted you got allot to say but that's needless
I mute out bullshyt so like Ms.Keller i'm just looking and speechless
Please...real nigz couldn't be fake and fake nigz couldn't be real
because in the end you reveal your friends ego ideal and its to be you
so you now they're thinking its surreal
you whisper lies when i'm not in the presence
so unless you reading off info don't say George Ellison in not one sentence
you prolly would think I would respond with vengeance
cause my deference is something you lack in your preference
so all you can do is hate my essence....your style of lies are nonsense
preach what you speak don't lie to yourself
I guess you got allot to prove since you have no rewards on your shelf
so me myself I never hold my breathe on a promise
cause my conscious wont let me consume the nonsense
I guess its from the darkness that turned my heart heartless
but to me being heartless is nothing harmless...
so for friends i'm now apparent because I feel better off contentment
because who likes being looked at transparent...Not me..
feedback please
Jul 2011 · 937
To you Mother...
George Ellison Jul 2011
See you make me hate life and refuse to smile at everything!
I hope ya know yo son loved you more than anything!
But now you just another no trusting ***** who lost all of my love!
You say Thomas quit crying but see this is the **** i'm tired of!
As much as I wanna die right now but i'm not thinking so clearly!
I want you to read this **** and understand how severely this is making me weary!
I got NOTHING I hope you understand this *****!
just like when you lost everything cause you had that itch!
I ain't talking all this **** out of anger or frustration!
I'm saying it cause you were my motivation someone who knew my problems without me giving an explanation,
I thought today would be a celebration but now I now sit and wonder about my education but honestly it don't mean **** to me if ya not even gonna be at the graduation so I now I yell **** the world and back to isolation!
Jun 2011 · 831
Forever ended soon...
George Ellison Jun 2011
You gave up, can't seem to understand why.
But I hope you know that you lost a really good guy.
Giving something is great, but having it returned to you is horrible.
And love now to me is optional, when it use to be adorable.
Holding on to whatever, is better than knowing she is gone forever.
But now I treasure what we had and hoped that things would have gotten better.
People come and people go, but where are the people that stay next to you when you are feeling low.
When can we got back to the first hello, although they show that they don't even know.
Feelings for another couldn't amount to the feelings for the person you wish it was.
Because you have to say that this is what true love does, even though it now kills your life buzz.
I won't move on, but will try to forget, just hoping I don't stumble across someone with your character set.
It will take time, and long hard days, but you have to know that life puts you threw this phase.
This should be the feelings of a heart attack, but you don't be sad because you asked for your heart back.
I just wished you didn't give me mine frozen, cracked and pitch black...
Jun 2011 · 874
For the broken hearted...
George Ellison Jun 2011
This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...
May 2011 · 4.8k
I smile because of you...
George Ellison May 2011
I told myself that I will someday find that girl I could give my heart to,
but every time I did she would return it in pieces.
I cry because of my mistakes in life and the things I have done.
I cry because someone doesn't have time to listen.
But I smile because I have found that person who brings the dimples into my face.
I smile because she has taught me life will stay hard if you never learn to let your guard down.
I smile because she has not only gave me light, but she gave my dark clouded soul light as well.
I smile because if she never had ever said hi I would probably never would truly smile again.
That's why I smile because of you....i truly love you!
May 2011 · 1.1k
You!...
George Ellison May 2011
When I am dead my dearest please don't show up to my grave,
knowing that I have lived a life full of misbehave.
Don't cry tears of joy but let them flow tears of hate living life trapped so I'm happy I escaped.
You were the dead tree in the backyard that I punched when I was mad, then I grew up and began to punch dad.
I don't give a **** if you will ever remember me, but I want you to know that I strangled myself with your rosery.

My life was a pit so it was constantly full of darkness,
so all I knew was to be obnoxious and heartless.
I never listened but heard your voice when I cried myself to sleep,
and I never talked to him in the sky because the stranger never speaked.
So I hope you haply remember this when you wake up in cold sweats, because your face I will haply forget, now that I know my soul is haply at rest.
feedback...please
May 2011 · 1.2k
Hurt and still Heartbroken
George Ellison May 2011
Why do I cry myself to sleep about thinking of the things you have done to me.
I never asked for you to hand me back my heart in broken pieces but to cherish it to your heart and hold it tight.
I want you to feel loved and cared about and not feeling like I am slowly coming closer to wanting to leave you...because i'm not just takes it awhile for me to gather all my thoughts from all the ***.
Its hard for me to fully grasped the emotions I have grown for you because when you do hurt me I just want to be in your presence and I never have a feel for vengeance.
And the thing that takes the smile away from my day is the thought of you abandoning me all alone...so then i'm stuck with no one to talk to cause speaking in your mind gets boring when there is no one to hear a response from.
Heartbroken I felt when I was old enough to think straight and because I knew the people that raised me wasn't my kind and I could tell that by their face.
But shame I never felt but a loss on their part because I don't take heartbreak too easily but you seem to make me want to fix things peacefully and equally.
But I am hurt you can tell I know you can. I see it when you tell me how much you are trying hard to fix things...but its okay because regardless of what ever happens I will still be hurt and still heartbroken.
feedback please.
May 2011 · 499
G.I.C
George Ellison May 2011
I send questions,
but he gives no answers.
I try talking,
but he speaks through actions.
I never fully understood him,
but everyone else did.
I look left instead of looking up,
and everyone looks down upon me.
I came from her,
but where did he actually come from.
If seeing is believing,
then where is my proof.
feedback please.
Mar 2011 · 510
Do you know?
George Ellison Mar 2011
I guess I have changed lately I don't feel I am the same me
I push away my family my friends and the love of my life
I guess I cant have the things the way I want and thats apart of life
But I still get up do the the same thing at the same time is this really what I want
I stress the little things in life when I should be praising them and smiling
But I guess it seems to me I have ran out of hope for myself so I am just floating lonely daily just trying to find my spot but keep traveling with no intentions on stopping
I can try to get back what was once mines but it seems she is to gone in her world so why try anymore
but you know what........well do you?..because I do not....
feedback please...
Mar 2011 · 915
I tend.....
George Ellison Mar 2011
I tend to not smile but I stare and think
I tend to hide all my emotions and express it through the ink
I tend to mind my own and watch and learn from other peoples mistakes
So I can figure out their skills and character traits
I tend to close my eyes and put myself where I am not
Somewhere that no one else is and no ending point or stop
I tend to speak truth to cold ears and hollow minds
but people choose not to listen so I give them nothing but time
I tend to break away from the circle my life tends to go around
by breaking away and going the other direction without my head held down
I tend to tell myself the future holds great mysteries
but honestly sometimes I dont even see it in my destiny
but I can guarantee happiness in this life I call a legacy....hopefully....
need feedback....
Mar 2011 · 493
something..
George Ellison Mar 2011
Yeah I can kinda tell how my future is gonna turn out..Things changing so as the people I feel like I am sitting back and watching life go not trying to keep up because it feels I am ahead of everything...I can care less honestly about most of the people around me because everyone is caught up in there world to bother so I dont stress it...I guess its time for me to actually start to show people my life not through my eyes but verbal its time for me to single out from everyone I have been doing me and I do not plan on stopping I wont better things for myself not the people around me who doubt,clown and lie to me and stand and say they love me but when I was 13 I told myself I was on my own and I had to get whats mines and not care about what people say...I continue to live life blow my own trees by myself and smile at the the things that have gotten me this far but its tough finding out things on your own but I guess it made me who I am today....But I will show everyone and as soon as I do they will perish underneath...so you reading this laughing peace and love to you no hate just love always fam keep ya thumbs up.......
this is not a poem just some mind clearing.....
May 2010 · 834
Bullets
George Ellison May 2010
flying past your mind is ideas hate and emotions
bullets make a gun a gun
but really its the hate and and anger that makes it a gun
why grab a  gun when you can use your mind to take them out
or your thoughts and creativity as your bullets....to end it all....
May 2010 · 1.7k
TearDrops
George Ellison May 2010
They say when it rains it pours
They say when you open up your heart it opens up doors
Crying is just our heart telling us its going to be alright
And crying makes the pain cool down but it only makes thoughts build up
Tears falling while your mind is chasing
emotions are everywhere making it hard to comprehen
Raindrops are gods emotions on the world
Teardrops are your Hearts emotion
Watery eyes and lots anger can take away the true meaning of teardrops
because you shouldnt be crying because of anger or sadness
Because what is the best word ever Happiness...........
Comment if you like
May 2010 · 1.3k
Careless Mind
George Ellison May 2010
Life brings good and evil paths
Making you decide on which way you are going to lead it
Having no thought on whats right and wrong
Just stuck in that whatever and i dont care mindset
everyone says they dont care but there has to be some care in your heart
Lies and Untrustworthy people make it hard to think and sometimes focuse on the truth
But people now dont take time and think about the outcome
they just do what they want to do
While having no care for no one
They see lies and hidden fortune in themselves so they just Dont Care And Give Up on EVERYTHING!!!!
Putting more Poems up have'nt been on in awhile got add more...comment if you like.
Mar 2010 · 2.0k
NO LOVE AT ALL
George Ellison Mar 2010
see when you loose tust i someone..its all gone
no talking no laughing no smiles
see we live this world hoping on the best...
but we still come out at the end.
i ask myself every day why  im here
why did the person in the sky....
drop me in this ******* hole....
filled with hate, fakes, fake *******..cheating hoes...and snitches..
take me away from here i have no love 4 this place....
i could careless if he took me away from here today!!!!
comment if ya like!!!
Mar 2010 · 766
DREAM
George Ellison Mar 2010
my dream is way beyond the forecast.
back tracking on the past..
thinking of all the things have gone good and put me where i am 2 day
laughing at stereotypes that try and bring me down..
no frowns.....just smiles because i know...
its all hate and i know my dreams will take me far...
and i will forget about the past.
my dreams are filled will thoughts and my emotions
put them in words and its 1 big mayhem of disaster.......
dreams take you on a journey throught your emotions.......
believe in your dreams no stopping your heart..
put critiscim past you and just........DREAM BIG!!!!!!
COMMENT IF YOU LIKE!!!!!
Mar 2010 · 480
her..
George Ellison Mar 2010
i think i could be her next........
maybe.....my mind is filled with thoughts
kinda lost....
i cant picture whats she's thinking next...
thinking about her gets me lost in ideas....
just something i had to write down...
Mar 2010 · 2.8k
dead homie!!!
George Ellison Mar 2010
give me 1 shot
1 bullet
click-clack i think i pulled it
not time for talking the cops are now looking
stupid mistake why didnt i have it on safety
god i dont know now my mind is pasting...
back and forth thinking on my decision
is it even a reason
for running and just leaving...
hes heartless with blood to cover him no shield....
hes bleedin now left in the streets
trapped inside caution tape and the ******* police
**** why me.................................
comment if ya like
Mar 2010 · 682
MONEY
George Ellison Mar 2010
my thoughts on money aint nothig but paper with a number on it.
make the world eager and power and money hungry.
money makes the world go around but after awhile you end up in the same spot.
forget money just live for the fame.
i would be happy i the world even knew my name.
but people still acting the same.
not caring about your thoughts
worry about what they bought.......
or must have......
they dont give a crap about "US" little people or how we feel
the still do them act the same way....
living there life on what the pay..........
but remember this world.........money is the root of all evil.....................
comment if like!!! do not comment if you do not like it please!!!!!
Mar 2010 · 1.1k
illusional friends
George Ellison Mar 2010
friends can be there at 1 minute and gone the next....
they are a figment of our imagination a tiny little speck.
its kind of hard to tell if your friends like you or not.
they will remember you when you reach the top.
they put you down but  you still don't stop
wounded by back stabbings from the past
it seems like just happen so fast.
middle school homies telling each other we gone ride or die
but now we cant trust them and it isn't the truth its all just a lie
despite all of that im just gone watch my back
but until then we just gone leave it at that............................
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Mar 2010 · 641
"TEEN EXPRESS"
George Ellison Mar 2010
*** n drugs rule the minds of teenagers.
going threw pubirty life takes us threw lots of stages.
depressed and feeling left out and stuck with no courage.
it puts thoughts in our minds that just leave extra luggage.
parents and teachers aint giving us no hope.
so kids turn to drugs living in despite and gun smoke.
teens living and doing watever the **** they wont 2.
thinking its alright and just doing what the other kids do.
express there mind threw creativty and smoking trees..
but please just stop...and put down the negativity...not 4 me...you..yourself...do whats best.....now..............whats next......
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Feb 2010 · 728
''WHY IM ME''
George Ellison Feb 2010
im me because i act different than you.im me cause i look at things different than you.the reason you succeed and i fail.i beacuase im not good for nothing except for living in a jail cell.dont give me handouts or benefitsfuck colors and dumb racist ****!god put me here to do the same thing as you.but im me because i act different than you...............
comment if like or got something to say!!!
Feb 2010 · 571
Me (part 2)
George Ellison Feb 2010
the world made me who i am......
but still i ask.... what is my plan....
what do i wanna be....
is it the drug dealer, the serial killer, the hobo, the rapper, the leader, the nice man from the bus stop.....
i will never know....
they say my kind is only supposed to live until 25....
if so **** me when i dreaming so i will never wake up 2 this world full of nothing and lies......
but hey i will kept hoping and keep dreaming.....
that 1 day i would change their mind on what they thought i would be.......
Feb 2010 · 577
love 2 me.....
George Ellison Feb 2010
well love to me is like passion and hate....
im informing you on my opinion so please dont debate....
girls look at love different we see it stranger out of our eyes....
love is a mixture of youre heart with youre lovers heart..
doesnt mean that yall are thinking the same....
most people take love for granted....
if you have love keep love and peace......
the world would be way more delightfully calm and chill with love and peace spreading..
but when you look at things....love is just like............well....you tell me?.....
George Ellison Jan 2010
yea life can be a pain in the ****.
buts its like we cant leave we are just here.
i try to imagine i can just fly to anywhere but im still here.
the world is just cold and no-hearted and mean.
the world is just a spinning sphere of hate.
you cant tell nobody anything cuz the look at you different.
i mean streets are just filled with killing and stupidity.
and people say this world is great it is at a moment then its gone......
Jan 2010 · 610
"WHATS NEXT"
George Ellison Jan 2010
I SIT HERE LOOKING OUT MY LONELY WINDOW.
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHATS THE NEXT PLACE TO GO.
I KNOW YOU WONDER WHATS GONE HAPPEN NEXT.
CUZ YOU DONT WANT IT TO BE MEANINGLESS.
COMPARED TO ME ITS YOU VS. THE WORLD.
ITS LIKE COMPARING PLASTIC TO A PEARL.
WITH ME ITS THE RICH & THE POOR.
AND IM TRYING 2 FIGURE OUT WHYD IT HAPPEN 2 ME AND WHERE DID I END UP IN THIS POINTLESS CATEGORY.
Jan 2010 · 986
'ME"
George Ellison Jan 2010
I GREW UP ON THE ***** SIDE OF NASHVILLE.

FOOD STAMPS AND GETTING MONEY JUST TO ****.

AINT NOBODY SELLING DRUGS NO MOE(MORE).

THEY BREAKING IN HOUSES AND ROLLING WITH THE THUGS YOU KNOW.

MY ONLY DESIRE IS TO GET UP OUT DA HOOD.

BUT WE DONT WONT TO LEAVE OUR FAMILY CAUSE ITS ALL GOOD.

WE GETTING MONEY AND WE STAYING AWAY FROM THE POLICE.

BUT THEY TRYING ALL WE WANT TO DO IS BE RECOGNIZE.

PUT YOU IN MY PLACE SEE WHAT I SEE OUT OF MY EYES.

YOU DONT KNOW WHAT A YOUNG BROTHER BEEN THREW.

BUT IM GONE STILL  BE HERE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN DUDE.

IM GONE MAN UP AND, KEEP MY HEAD UP AND, PRAY FOR BETTER DAYS.

IM GONE DO WHAT I WANT TO DO NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY.

CAUSE IF LIFE GIVE YOU A CHANCE MAKE THE BEST OF IT.

CAUSE REMEBER THIS, AINT NOBODY GAVE YOU NOTHING.

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