Why do I cry myself to sleep about thinking of the things you have done to me.
I never asked for you to hand me back my heart in broken pieces but to cherish it to your heart and hold it tight.
I want you to feel loved and cared about and not feeling like I am slowly coming closer to wanting to leave you...because i'm not just takes it awhile for me to gather all my thoughts from all the ***.
Its hard for me to fully grasped the emotions I have grown for you because when you do hurt me I just want to be in your presence and I never have a feel for vengeance.
And the thing that takes the smile away from my day is the thought of you abandoning me all alone...so then i'm stuck with no one to talk to cause speaking in your mind gets boring when there is no one to hear a response from.
Heartbroken I felt when I was old enough to think straight and because I knew the people that raised me wasn't my kind and I could tell that by their face.
But shame I never felt but a loss on their part because I don't take heartbreak too easily but you seem to make me want to fix things peacefully and equally.
But I am hurt you can tell I know you can. I see it when you tell me how much you are trying hard to fix things...but its okay because regardless of what ever happens I will still be hurt and still heartbroken.

I send questions,
but he gives no answers.
I try talking,
but he speaks through actions.
I never fully understood him,
but everyone else did.
I look left instead of looking up,
and everyone looks down upon me.
I came from her,
but where did he actually come from.
If seeing is believing,
then where is my proof.

I guess I have changed lately I don't feel I am the same me
I push away my family my friends and the love of my life
I guess I cant have the things the way I want and thats apart of life
But I still get up do the the same thing at the same time is this really what I want
I stress the little things in life when I should be praising them and smiling
But I guess it seems to me I have ran out of hope for myself so I am just floating lonely daily just trying to find my spot but keep traveling with no intentions on stopping
I can try to get back what was once mines but it seems she is to gone in her world so why try anymore
but you know what........well do you?..because I do not....

I tend to not smile but I stare and think
I tend to hide all my emotions and express it through the ink
I tend to mind my own and watch and learn from other peoples mistakes
So I can figure out their skills and character traits
I tend to close my eyes and put myself where I am not
Somewhere that no one else is and no ending point or stop
I tend to speak truth to cold ears and hollow minds
but people choose not to listen so I give them nothing but time
I tend to break away from the circle my life tends to go around
by breaking away and going the other direction without my head held down
I tend to tell myself the future holds great mysteries
but honestly sometimes I dont even see it in my destiny
but I can guarantee happiness in this life I call a legacy....hopefully....

Yeah I can kinda tell how my future is gonna turn out..Things changing so as the people I feel like I am sitting back and watching life go not trying to keep up because it feels I am ahead of everything...I can care less honestly about most of the people around me because everyone is caught up in there world to bother so I dont stress it...I guess its time for me to actually start to show people my life not through my eyes but verbal its time for me to single out from everyone I have been doing me and I do not plan on stopping I wont better things for myself not the people around me who doubt,clown and lie to me and stand and say they love me but when I was 13 I told myself I was on my own and I had to get whats mines and not care about what people say...I continue to live life blow my own trees by myself and smile at the the things that have gotten me this far but its tough finding out things on your own but I guess it made me who I am today....But I will show everyone and as soon as I do they will perish underneath...so you reading this laughing peace and love to you no hate just love always fam keep ya thumbs up.......

flying past your mind is ideas hate and emotions
bullets make a gun a gun
but really its the hate and and anger that makes it a gun
why grab a  gun when you can use your mind to take them out
or your thoughts and creativity as your bullets....to end it all....

They say when it rains it pours
They say when you open up your heart it opens up doors
Crying is just our heart telling us its going to be alright
And crying makes the pain cool down but it only makes thoughts build up
Tears falling while your mind is chasing
emotions are everywhere making it hard to comprehen
Raindrops are gods emotions on the world
Teardrops are your Hearts emotion
Watery eyes and lots anger can take away the true meaning of teardrops
because you shouldnt be crying because of anger or sadness
Because what is the best word ever Happiness...........