Poem #1

It really hurts to see that I’m not important to you anymore
That I am just  became part of your past
That you’re trying to forget what had just happened between us
That you treat everything a mistakes

It really hurts to see you happy with someone else
And treating me nothing just like a silhoutte behind
I dont know what had just happened
I cant see the old you anymore
I cant see any glimpse in your eyes when youre looking at me

I missed the old you
I missed everything about you
I missed everything that makes us connected together
What happened to you?
Why suddenly changed?
Why are you hurting me like this?

I want to hurt you too and I really hate you.

I am really afraid on the conception of being an outcast
I don't know when, where or how it was started but every time I talk to someone without knowing their opinion, it creeps me out and it gives goosebumps down to my spine and I cant help but remain silent
Everything doesn't mean I hate or I don't trust myself. I graduated college with flying colors and presently taking Masters Degree but still it so hard for me to decide

What happened to me 'cause today I was distress
People around doesn't understand me
They were thinking I am tough
Thinking that I am not hurting
And they think that I am alright

I can't take this anymore
I don't know what to do with my life
I just ask people to understand me
But they does not

People giving me  a reason to get weak
To be more pessimist
I really wanted to cry above my knees
I need someone to talk to

A friend that will try his/her best to comfort me
A friend that  can understand what I felt and listen carefully to what I say
A friend that I can lean on
A friend that I can use his/her shoulders to cry on
And a friend that  I can feel what's true friendship it was

I really wanted to cry right now.
Can you be my friend?

Every life has a struggles that you need to face off
Sometimes we cry but sometimes we laugh
Sometimes we fall in love, sometimes hurting so bad
But you need to be strong to make your life better
We chose EVERYTHING we want
We used our mind to do everything in our lives
Even we don't have any choices that we can do
It is better to fight and don't give up
Don't lose hope!
Just be ready and be cool to the problem you encountered
everyday, tomorrow and today
Be friendly and love the person who loves you
So that, If they disappear you have memories
You can kept for the rest of your life