all i can say is
thank You
thank You
thank You
because who looks at this
mess of a heart, of a soul
and finds beauty in it?
You.
who looks at the awful things i did
and instead of pointing a finger,
instead of casting a stone,
or turning their back
they smile and whisper that it's okay?
You.
who looks at this heart who everyone couldn't love
and tells it that it is the most loved heart in the whole entire universe?
*You.

You deserve to
belong and
be loved
because you exist.

You're so big
and great and glorious
and endless and amazing
and perfect
and You don't need
tiny
little
ordinary
me
and yet You saw
tiny
little
ordinary
me
and i don't know what You saw in
tiny
little
ordinary
me
but You chose to take
my heart and make it Your home,
and You chose to make of
tiny
little
ordinary
me
a canvas
to display Your glory,
to shine Your light
and even though You don't need
tiny
little
ordinary
me
You chose to give me a chance.

it is like a spring shower,
refreshing and renewing,
making everything bloom.
it is like a river,
bringing life to a dead land.
it is like the stars in the sky,
endless.
it is like a summer breeze,
rushed and unexpected.
it means hope.
a second chance.
freedom.
life.
You call it second nature,
i call it grace.

I don’t know you yet.
But I know you’re out there.
I don’t know if you have blue eyes or green eyes or brown eyes.
I don’t know if you’re tan or pale
Or if you look like Christian Bale.
I don’t know if you’re short or tall.
But I know you’re out there.
I don’t know if you can swim or ride a bike
Nor the ice cream flavor you like.
I don’t know what your favorite color is
Or if your name is Chris.
I don’t know if you hate math like I do or if you have seen Toy Story 2.
I don’t know if you like to read; I hope you do.
But I know you’re out there.
There are many things I don’t know about you,
But some things I do know.
I know God made you for me.
I know that your smile will make my heart flutter
And my legs melt like butter.
I know I’m gonna love you with all my heart.
I know you’re gonna love me too, yes I do.
I know the day you kiss me, my head will be spinning
And you’ll have to hold me, ’cause I might be fainting.
And one day I’ll know
If you’re tan or pale
And if you look like Christian Bale.
I’ll know if you like ice cream
And if your favorite color’s blue.
I’ll know if you have seen Toy Story 2,
And if you haven’t, we’ll watch it together,
Because I haven’t seen it either, to tell you the truth.
I’ll know if you like math and if you like to read
And I’ll know all of this because
I know you’re out there.

i ran away from You
and hid in sin,
in its darkest caves,
in its smallest holes,
in its deepest coves,
but your grace chased me
and found me.
everywhere i went,
there You were,
wooing me,
enamoring me,
and i realized i couldn't run away from You
and so
i opened my heart,
let You in,
and fell in love with You.

i wasn't there but it was me.
it was me who scoffed at You,
it was me who spit on You,
it was me who laughed at You,
it was me who crowned You with thorns,
it was me who put a cross on your shoulders,
it was me who nailed your hands and feet.
i put You on that cross and You stayed there
for love of me.