FromMySoul: Poems

Dec 2020 · 137

FromMySoul Dec 2020

Make me quiet my mind, disregard these incessant desires
Assure me I’m deranged for wanting to touch you for hours upon hours
Tell me I’m crazy for believing in the things that I cannot see
I’m just hopeless for hoping there’s something between you and me
It’s just a fantasy and there’s no magic brewing between you and I
Bring me back to the logic that I so easily abandon and leave behind
Force me not to think about it, as I imagine all the friction and heat
Say I’m mad for wanting you to come so deep and hard inside of me
Tell me I’m immersed in insanity my lust for you has taken over my soul
And I’m a fool for begging you to take my body and assume control
Warn me I’m playing with fire and that I’ll eventually get burned
That I’m a lunatic with a bleeding heart that is never going to learn

Dec 2020 · 128

No Need for Words

FromMySoul Dec 2020

No Need for Words

One look and it will all make sense, there will be no need for words
For a moment everything will cease to exist, fade into the background of this world
The past will be so far behind I will have no desire for reaching back
And my walls will slowly start to crumble as my foundation begins to crack
Rusted chains of incarceration will fade from just his touch
And the eyes of love will assure me that I truly am enough
Passionate thrusts of his pleasure will feel like the first and only time
Fears and doubts will subside as the moon and the stars align
My body firmly wrapped around him, his kisses hot on my lips
Sounds of ecstasy will escape me from the steady rhythm of his hips
Lightning will crash through us as he rolls like thunder through my soul
Past, present, and future will collide as my spirit finds its home
His puzzle pieces filling me as his lust and fire feed my hunger
Releasing himself into me when he succumbs to the spell I’ve fallen under

Nov 2020 · 109

You Are

FromMySoul Nov 2020

You Are

You're like the needle in the haystack, a shining diamond in the rough
And I'm the broken record, going round and round, fearing I could never be enough
You're a rarity, a mystery, a sweet breath of unpolluted, fresh air
And I'm a beggar lying in the street, fearing there is no way I could ever compare
You're the innocent, the uncorrupted, the gentlest nudge towards the unknown
And I'm the guilty, the tarnished, the wanderer, fearing I'm not worthy of a home
You're the tender pull on the heart strings, the subtlest symphonies of love
And I'm the the rusted, bruised and used up chords, fearing I will never rise above

Nov 2020 · 122

Overdue

FromMySoul Nov 2020

Overdue

I don’t want to hold you down, hold you back, suffocate your soul
And we made a deal we’re just going to go with the flow
So for you, I’ll ride this new current wherever it leads
Before it goes too far you should know the broken parts of me

I’ve been holding on to this heartache for so long now
I’m not sure I can let it go, not sure I know how
There is a comfort inside all of this stored up pain
Cause a heart’s that’s already broken can’t be broken again

I’ve been on the ins and outs of living in the past
You make me wonder if it’s time to let go of all that I never had
Is there a reason, maybe just a season or a lifetime spent alone
I was born with a drifters heart always searching for a home

I'm idealizing, fantasizing...turning this into something it’s not
Through all this space and distance I guess my dreams are all I’ve got
But the sound of your voice ignited something and I know I want to be close to you
Little pulses of hope I thought were long lost but, maybe they’re just overdue

Nov 2020 · 99

Daydreams

FromMySoul Nov 2020

Daydreams

I know it sounds crazy, but I don’t want to wake from this dream
Laying in this bed I’ll admit...I’m wishing you were next to me
Your words about making love entice my soul to long for more
And I’m aware that my confessions can be a lot for one to endure
This yearning that’s within me is as strong as it’s always been
And I’m not saying it’s you that will be the one to save me from all of my sins
But I live inside my world of daydreams and I pretend that you do the same
I dream that you can see beyond the human, through the illusions and the shame
With the sound of my secrets surrendered, they echoed through the night
I slept in fear of what you would hear in the truth of the morning light

May 2017 · 1.5k

Surrender

FromMySoul May 2017

Surrender

I have poured out my restless soul and I have laid it at your feet
I have laughed and I have loved and I have mourned in our defeat
I have felt your soul breathing within my arms and I have laid my body down
Lived lifetimes in your eyes and in love with you...I have drowned
I have chewed my pride and I have spit it out, left my ego dying in the street
And I have called and I have cried and I have felt love beyond belief
To you,
The love....that lingers in my soul
I shall always remember, always surrender, and never let you go

May 2017 · 295

Poet's Curse

FromMySoul May 2017

Poet's Curse

In the reflection of the ocean, rolling in at my front door
The wind does blow...in from the South of that Im sure
In the midst of winters white, a poets blood does run thin
Dreams are not meant to break, but blossom from within
Who am I to say such things, for I am shackled too
Once the words start to escape...there is nothing either of us can do
Prisoners who know no cage, just slaves to the verse
Passion filled lonely souls...victims of the poets curse

May 2017 · 373

Pocket Full of Lies

FromMySoul May 2017

Pocket Full of Lies

I don't know why you try to deny it
Try to tell me that it isn't true
That the city's web of wonder
Doesn’t mean a **** thing to you
All the drifters know your name
They call to you from the sky
And those streets they know no shame
So just leave me here to cry

Go ahead and take my emeralds
Trade them for your diamonds and gold
Admit that is what you have wanted
And add them to your box of truths untold
There's no need for excuses or spent up alibies
Cause we both know there ain't no change
In your pocket full of lies

Those irises of blue know more than they reveal
Along those roads of ruin take all that you can steal
I can't love past all your lust and greed
So surround yourself in those city walls
And just leave me here to bleed

May 2017 · 808

From My Soul

FromMySoul May 2017

From My Soul

I cannot force them out my friend
They just flow out from time to time
Some days I fear they will never end
All days I’m left with no reasons why
I don't know if it's the pain of lost love
Maybe the chaos I bring upon myself
Could be the scent in the air or the stars above
Or just the dust that lingers on the shelf
Some are past lovers, friends, unwanted enemies
Dreams I haven't had yet come true
Some lines...just plain old memories
Heartaches and heart breaks, fate mixed in too
But at the end of every day
Beginning of each new year
There isn't much that I can say
When you ask if my words are near
I'm not sure if it was destiny
That I assume a poets role
There is only one thing I can relay
My words...they are from my soul

May 2017 · 364

Inhibitions

FromMySoul May 2017

Inhibitions

Footprints in the snow...I wonder if yours will ever follow
There are no guarantees and I'm suppressing some guilt dreaming about tomorrow
Is it all just something to hold on to, when there is nothing and no one left
Or more lingering in the inhibitions that remain, after absorbing all the substance
Do we continue as we have before, coexisting in the pretenses of gray
I'm getting too far ahead of myself again, letting my hasty heart lead the way
Some things I can't understand, but it's in the way you draw these words out of me
The sound of your voice beckons to them, gently begging for me to set them free
It's in the simple curves of a seductive letter, in the distant stroke of your pen
The emotions left behind slithered back around, I'm just unsure if I can live with them again

Apr 2017 · 1.8k

The Other Woman

FromMySoul Apr 2017

The Other Woman

She takes him away...to places he has never been
With every stroke releases all his pain, erases all his sin
A slave to the battleground, a willing soldier of the war
****** as it may be, he'll always be back for more
Always be back for more...
Doesn't matter what is lost, all the years he can't get back
She has all he'll ever need....the monkey on his back
And through prices paid, all her jealous rage....she won't let him go
Just one look was all it took for her to possess his soul
Still, he believes he lost it, left it somewhere behind
But there is no seeing, for a man that's bleeding and doesn't know he is blind
All reason gone, dreams dissolved in fighting for an endless plight
Cuts and bruises, broken bones, lines blur between wrong and right

Apr 2017 · 539

Hope

FromMySoul Apr 2017

Hope

I miss you, when the woods are still and the river is low
In between the spaces that you and I call home
Where the ocean stirs... and tides come and go
There's a fire that burns...
As I ache for your lost soul

Who knows where we'll wake tomorrow
At the bottom of a bottle...or the edge of a spoon
Still...I hold on hope...that our love's enough to cope
And that you'll be coming home soon

It's too easy to take it all for granted
When the glass is empty and the dirt is dry
I sit alone....eyes slightly slanted
Telling myself all anyone can do is try

Through this life and in the next
In the winter snow and the spring rain
I'll wait for you... by the light of moon
Still...holding on hope
You'll be coming home soon.

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