if i told you all of the dark things
all of the pathological lies i've told
you wouldn't trust me any more
so when i tell you this
believe me
because it might be the only reliable thing i say
don't trust me
don't listen to me
and never think that the words i'm saying are real

that feeling where your heart hurts
and you just want the tears to spill,
kinda like having a tooth ache
and just wanting it pulled finally
you know?
that kind of sickness in your heart
where you want something so bad
and you know in your heart that you'll never get it
you know?
that kind of feeling where you stay on the phone for hours at a time
just to feel good
for once in your ******* life
you know?
i suppose you have some sort of mental stability left if you don't
have fun with that

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I'll scream in my own ******* head
Until this ******* feeling goes the **** away
Until this sadness in my chest
This nothingness residing within my head
Goes away
I'll scream
All the time until it goes away
But the screaming doesn't seem to break the silence
Doesn't seem to bother the voices that won't let me go
All those **** ******* voices

I've always loved the villain
The one with the bad past
And a good heart
The villain with dark hair
And a defined jaw
I've always loved the villain
The boy that makes killing art
With flaming eyes
And a broken smile
That'll break your heart
If it doesn't break your head first.

i am enough
i've eaten enough
i've loved enough
i've hurt enough
i'm pretty enough
i'll be fine
but there's that one voice that keeps yelling at me
in the back of my head...
'what if you aren't;
what if you aren't enough;
you're not fine;
and you never will be'
i hate that voice
because until it says anything,
i can really believe all of the words that i've been saying

Hey
Can you see me?
Or am I still here trapped inside my head?
Hey, can you see me?
Or am I just over here being stupid?
Hey
Are you still there?
Or have you left because my mind is a trap?
Hey
I try to say all the right things at all the right times
But I never do
Because I am trapped inside of my skull
My silky white bonnet
Made of bone