Please don't go yet...
I haven't told you my deepest secret...
My heart was haunted...
By despair and hatred...

But when i met you everything changed...
Breaking me down you set my heart free that once had been caged...
You turned me into another monster...
A heartless creature that breaks women's hearts as his was torn in tatters.

Thursday.
I saw her again today. It's been years since the last time we met. She's so perfectly beautiful. I loved her brown eyes. And she couldn't take her eyes off me.

Friday.
I finally talked with her. She's cool. And i got her phone numbers. God bless me! :)

Saturday.
I called her twice today asking how she was. She responded positively which means good to me.

Sunday.
I met her today at church. For the love of God. She looked so beautiful in her white long-dress.

Monday.
I called her again today and found out that we have a lot of things in common. Great! She likes chinese food as much as i do.

Tuesday.
I called her again and asked her if she wanted to go out with me tonight. She said yes. God it's about time. I'm going to tell her.

Wednesday.
The dinner went great. We talked of a lot of cool things. I called her again this afternoon and invited her to dine with me and my family tommorow. She said yes and was so excited about it. God i'm the happiest man in the whole world.

Thursday.
.........................................

Frid­ay.
*******! In the middle of the dinner she announced that she's going to get married next month. And she wants me to give her away.

Saturday.
I need more beer to rock the night away. Cheers, mates!!!!



(Ten years later)
I could've been that man....

After The Break Up (Part 2)

I just got back from a cool party.
I had so much fun with my mateys.
Why should i get involved with any kinds of romance?
Only to turn me down and try my patience?

I am so happy this way.
No more teary eyes as a give-away.
I don't need to change anything about my life.
Simply being myself makes me feel so alive.

As i start to get ready for bed i think to myself 'a resolution to open a new page'.

As i lay me down in bed suddenly a very weak scent that i know fills the room.
A scent that makes my heart stop beating so gloom.
No!!!! I scream! Oh God please no!!!!
I'm just about to open a new page of my life!!!!!!
There it is!!!!!! On the window-ledge!!!!!
An empty bottle of perfume that still emits its fragrance!!!!
Your perfume!!!!!
The one you wore that ****** night you dumped me......left me!!!!!
I thought i had got rid of all your ****** stuffs.
****!!!!! I am just about to get over you and the pain you've caused me!!!!!!
You feckin' *****!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling like i've just been shot in the head i take the gun i stole from my friend and without thinking twice i pull the trigger.......


BAAAAAAAANNNNNNNGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!
...........­.........

Just like that......
That easy......
Really....

Hurt so much makes you go that far...

Wasted.... Check.
Bitterly spent... Check.
Worn out... Check.

Great ***... Check.
Drinks... Check.
Parties... Check.
Money... Check.

Cool mates... Check.
Visiting interesting places... Check.
Hot ladies in cool laces... Check.
Pretty faces... Check.

(My conscience asks 'what are you happy now??!')

I was hasty and stupid.
I did not know what i wanted.
When i saw you all i wanted was to snog you
You looked feckin perfect in your blue shoes.

I didn't know what was coming my way.
I didn't know i was going to get hurt that way.
Cold-bloodedly and unmercifully.
Painfully and pitifully.

I was ****** ignorant....
You were my bestfriend's ****** girlfriend!!!!!!
Thank you for making me romance-intolerant.

I was sitting in the basement in the dark.
Feeling all cold with all these gloomy sparks.
Tears runnning down my face like rain.
Everything i had done in vein.

The walls were closing in on me.
The lights were fading away
I had got nothing left to see.
I had no more roles to play.

My pain was real and severe.
I could not find peace no more.
My heart was torn into tatters.
The agony hit me hard like a spear.


There was only one thing i could do.
I got on my knees before the fire....
And cast your stupid note into it....
And i walked out of the room...

''i'm sorry... I can't do this. Please don't hate me!''

Hate my ***!!!!!!!!!!!!!