And then the sun whispered and it's breath warmed my neck.
The Sun's fingers traced the length of my arm and held my hands.
I rested on the Sun's chest looked into it's eyes.
How can the Sun be so close yet so far away.

And then the Moon whispered and it's voice was saturated with solitude.
The Moon's fingers clasped onto mine and pulled me along
Deep into the forest.
Struggling to keep with it's pace I saw the eyes of the moon
Hollow, empty, nothing.
How can the moon present a glowing yet be a illuminated tragedy?

If I could speak what needs to be heard
You would hear that I want to be the one.

If I could show what needs to be showed
You would see that I want to be the one.

If I could send mental messages
You would know that I want to be the one.

But I can't speak, can't show, can't think
You will never know

Never thought I would break
But you were the hammer that was thrown
And you landed on me with a heavy blow
I cracked and splintered like some chopped wood
My heart was pounded to dust
And trusting you was my mistake

Never thought I would fall from my tree
But you were the saw that dug deep breaking the skin
Cutting into it's muscles until you were able to  pass it all
It's blood dripped and filled the air and the tree fell
Taking me with it as my breath was ****** out from my lungs
Once the dirt cleared and my body laid sprawled on the grass I saw you leave

Never thought, No I never thought that you could be so awful
The sour candy that nobody dare tastes because they saw how you made the others' face twist and turn
The car that nobody wants to drive cause you will break down in the middle of the road
The person nobody likes because you have so many hearts in your hat, taking them like they are yours for the plucking
No, I never could have thought that you would do this to me

I never thought Just Never thought

This heart calls out, screaming out your name, trying to get your attention.
But that was then.
This heart calls out,whispering your name loudly, wanting your attention.
This is now.

And it seems that your humming bird ways, the coming and hovering, tell me that you have answered the calling, the screaming, the whispering of your name.
But the thing about now is I so desperately want you to revive the voice in my heart but i am not sure if you will.

The morning rain
fills  the room with cold whispers of love
He tried to ignore it all but
the echoing of the metal being struck
induced the feelings to come in a rush.
D
r
i
p
p
i
n
g
     against his will.

And then the tree tried to take time in letting the leaf loose
but then came a humbled hungry homely moose.

My heart is 60 percent dead
40 percent wallowing.

There was a time when I thought you did everything right
I must have been too blind to see
No wrong, No lies, Boy I must have been out of mind*
Uhh Yeah I was But now I am changning what the heart wants

The cries of the world
an orchestra full of pain
echoed in my dreams.

And it seems I was biting off more than I could chew.
When I told you I still Liked you.
I was tangled with my wishes and hopes
that I lost sight of reality.
It was only until I stopped for a moment
and looked back
did I realize
I should have
kissed
you
.

Take me back to the past
where my life was perfect
Where the only trouble was if I had to wear blue or Red.

Take me back quickly
because the troubles of the present
Can only lead to my destruction
In the future.

Everything just disappears.
The walls are not there.
the shower heads are not there.
the people are not there.
Just us.

But there is one thing that does stay.
Its him.
His eyes.
His scent.
His face.
His name.

You see while I fill the void inside me
I think of him.
While I indulged on a feast that satisfied my lust
I think of him.
His name.
His face.
His scent.
His eyes.

I stopped not because the food wasn't good
But because him in my mind was becoming to great.
making me realize that I wasn't eating with him but with another.

Does it start like this?
With Conversations that seem to never end
With continuous laughter through the lonely night
With virtual hugs
Does falling for him start like this?

NO! I don't want any of your promises
Throw them at me, think that I will catch them
But NO! I will let them fall

NO! I don't want any of your time
I already gave you enough of mine
NO! NO! NO!

....................
...................
Okay........
Maybe.­.........
Find Yes.

i can hardly breath
is it lack of clarity
clogging up my lungs

am i even alive

slumped, barely keeping up with their feet a tapping  ,on a chair
                                                                  (Tap tap tap)
where

did
you
                                          go?

When the days are cold with the snow covering the ground
While black birds fly over head
As tracks are left ,things that once were.

The window was locked
as if to confine my whispers  
to my room
so they would not find him
and let him know
That
I
Love
Him.

I heard the devil today.
he nagged of my noncompliance
But I can't help it that I follow no one

Let your heart direct your path not your mind.
Open your heart to new feelings but never close it to old.
Venture with your sleeves and your heart rolled up and take that plunge.
Eventually you will find the one you will love... eventually...

I am a thief.
I am a child who doesn't know what he wants.
I am a ******.
I am a lost.
I am the cause every trouble.
I am not worthy.
I am nothing.

And yet I try to prove it all wrong.

I will be there to pick up the pieces
When you are pushed to the ground
and Shatter

I will be there to give the hugs and kisses
When there is no one around
For you matter

I will be there

And it's in the roots of trees I have lost my faith
As they tunnel deeper into earth my life is lapped away.

Create a world with just you and I
Only problem is I might not be in that world because I
Don't know what I want. I like you that is true but just not in that way.
You were on my mind for the time being but then I started to realize that I like you but just as friends


But Do I?????
Is that what I really think?
I don't know

I read the words of your eyes as I turned you over.
They said, "It's a wonder that the world doesn't explode when two people meet for the first time."

i would not allow an individual to set a foot on paths i have rummaged through the pain is not worth perspective

I never meant to hurt ya
Or bruise you with my words.
I never meant to hurt ya
Just wanted to be heard.

Too much time spent in the back seat
For me to sit and go for the ride.
Too much time spent in the back seat
So just wanted to be heard,
this one time.

And I probably end up in a crash
all bruised and battered
But I swear I've been on track
I just wanted to be heard.

Darkness consumes this world and not because the Sun runs away into the other part of the Earth every night.
No, this world consumed by darkness because of the people who live on it. They themselves are covered in evil with it seeping  through their pores and polluting their minds.
The only hope that this world has, to see more light amongst the dark, is if people start to realize that having evil run through their veins is the most evil anyone can do.
Until then this world will be forever veiled in Darkness.

I'm sorry.
I didn't mean it.
Forgive me for remembering you.

I have felt the sting of love
And The emptiness of lost
The high of happiness
The consumption of anger

Dear Heart,

You must be exhausted with all the emotions swelling in our veins,
exhausted with the rough rhythmic running, reaching no end,
so I lift my head from the pillow.

It’s yours for the night.

Don’t bother with the curtain; I will draw it to a close.  
Don’t fret over his voice; Silence he will be told.

Heart, Why must you rise and rummage through our memories?

Come now, rest.

Your companion,

Francisco D.H

1.) You would never leave my side as if you were an extra appendage I was taught I couldn't function without.
2.) You knew me like the back of your hand as if every word I spoke nestled inside the wrinkles.
3.) You loved me as if I didn't know about the whispers you told the one on the side.

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I find myself on the bed alone tonight
But it doesn't have to be this way
I take the shirt and hold it close
It doesn't have to be this way.

I look out the window and see the stars
I hold the shirt closer to my chest
Take in a breath
and make the wish
I just wish you would.

You make me smile
May I rest her for awhile?
Or must I leave before the shadows on your wall leave.

I closed my eyes
  And watched your face become the black
      That my eyes see.

Do you think of me when i think of you
Do you think of my eyes of when I think of yours
Do you think of my laugh when I think of yours
Do you think of me when I think of you

I just don't know.
I love him.
That is all I know at the moment.

I just don't know.
I feel like crying.
That is all I know at the moment.

I just don't know.
I can't take a chance when I know how I feel.
That is all I know at the moment.

I just don't know.

Take a breath
Let it out.

Take a breath
Let it out
Let it out.
someone told you you weren't enough
Someone told you your time is up.
Take breathe
Let it out.

And turn.

We all have those moments
when we drown in self doubt
We all have those moments
when we get stretched out

And the world becomes nothing like our dreams
And the world becomes nothing we can see

Take a breath
Let it out.
stare the world in it's eyes
and turn.
Take a breath
let it out
They can't give you
what you deserve.
They can kick you in the rear
And smear you with "queer"
But Take a breath
Let it out
Take breathe
Let...it ...Out

Rain fell from the sky
Drains into my soul
I regret something
That I never told

With everything seeming so boring
You were the only thing with color.
Everything was always black and white but
When you came around, everything you touched seem to light up with pink, blue, yellow
You were the color white that gets mixed in with everything to make it be brighter

It came in the night.
Took its place right next to me.
I could feel the warmth it gave me
But
there was something odd about the warmth
Under the bundles of warmth  
There was a coldness.

Once there was a cat
but it ran into the path
of an on coming car.

But you told me that I was the sun for your flowers
The rain for your flowers

But you told me I was the tune you played
The song you sung.

But you told me that I was the ember worth saving
The fire worth feeding.

But now you tell me that I am nothing to you.

Take some time and see that I’m the one
Take some time and see that I love you
Don’t ever forget that I was the first
To break the walls , to get through


Lend closer and feel the warmth inside
Lead closer and feel my heart beat
But don’t forget, oh lord don’t forget
I was the first you did meet

Take my hand and fly away
Take my hand together we’ll stay
Take my hand so we can be alone

Give me the love and the time
So I can say that you are mine
Show me all that I have shown

And then I begin to fall
I tried to grab a hold of the ninth cloud but the vapors of water slipped through my hand.
And then I was falling
I was suspended in the air and for a moment everything was calm as I held on to the tiny cloud that was left.
But then again I fell
I hit the earth.

The leaves have dried
The light extinguished.
There is nothing here for me

Hands manipulated the strings of the heart
leaving
nothing

Quick glances are extinguished
Leaving
nothing

It's nothing
*ignore me

Too much going on
Too much circling me
My breath slows as I tell myself
"Everything will be okay" and only for a moment does that work
Before I began to slow my breath even more so I wouldn't have to take another breath
Because breathing comes with too much trouble
Every breath I take I get a new problem to deal with
Each inhale ices my lungs with trouble and each exhale burns my nostrils with worry
Maybe I just need to stop breathing

Take your words and throw them around but there will be no one left to catch them
Take your words and say them loud but there will be no one left to hear them
Take your words and eat them slowly one by one as you take a swing of your pride
Take your words and wrap yourself to give you a false sense of security
Take your words and use them as a cane to help you walk but they will only ******* you more
Then soon you will go to the grave with your words buried with you while others use them to bury you
For there will be no more people to take your words

You left me in the darkness
All alone to fend for myself
You let me keep thinking
But you loved someone else

Was it all just a big game?
I the fool as you played charades?
Cause I can’t handle
This big scandal
Why oh why must I feel this way?

I am tired of playing these games
I am tired of feeling the pain
Do you want me?
Do you want to hold me?
Do you need me?
Cause I am slipping
Away

Never be the one
To tell me that you love me
Cause I won't listen

Never be the one
To give up all just for me
You'll be wasting time

Never be the one
To long for me and need me
Cause I won't be here