Soon it became a habit, a habit I could not kick, like being addicted to cigarettes

My heart, the delicate glass, broke and the pieces flew out of my ****** hands.
All my time was wasted, all my smiles, my "how are you's", my wishes wasted
K, I feel okay you know I won't let my distaste my "Oh hell NO" show
Everyone deserves happiness right? Yeah so I will leave you 'lone



Moving on, they said and you know I did
Eventually I did

Each blow was every word he told me
"It
Might
Happen"

Each blow was every word she told me
"You're
Going
to
Hell"

Each blow was every word I told myself
"It's
All
My
Fault"

The tree no longer looks the same

Have you heard about the man
Who was hit by a van
He was carry pans
When BAM!
He got hit by a van.
Did you hear about that man?

The truth is hitting me, wrapping it's deadly claws around me, preventing me from entering fantasy. But I am beginning to acknowledge it slowly, letting the beast become my friend, for it might be the answer, though dreading it, it might just let me free and let me forget all the pain, all the words that were written and spoken. The truth is becoming a friend not foe

If I rest my head on my pillow
Close my eyes and sleep
Will you be in my dreams?

my mom said the post I posted was disgusting
and I shrugged and said you just have to read the poem.

I have grown alot
wow.

FUN
Right there for me
I love them all
Every single One of them
Never will forget or try not to at least
Don't deserve them but glad I have them
Sure they might be weird and a bit out there but so am I

Sometimes when one is able to let the words take up the space around them
It isn't enough for there is no more room for the words left unsaid.

And it's behind these notes
I hide and let myself sing.
Tomorrow will be better.

And then I heard a whisper in the night
One word was all I heard
"Freedom"
A concept I have yet to learn.

I whispered back
"What of it?"
but the whisper was already gone.

I alone must understand "freedom"

Maybe I became distant for the simple reason I no longer can hold a conversation
can no longer talk as if everything is okay
can no longer be there
when at home i am a nobody

or maybe its just me?

When do you know you have fallen?
When you don't even want to get up....

Sometimes I can't help but to think
If you are writing poems about me
Like I write poems about you.

a little piece of a soul
and we read these stories untold
-we are all the same

I let my guard down
And I let you in
But you didn't catch me
I'm still fallin
In and out of love

With every touch
I exploded with Bliss
But With every touch
I longed for your kiss
But you never seemed to give it up

You had me in your grasp
With only enough room to breathe
Twisting and turning
I wanted to be free
From you I had enough

I hope you take the time to look over the edge
And think.
Just think.
Think Hard.
Cause I'm gonna push you in.

And think.
Think Hard.
I hope you take the time to look over the edge.

Cause I'm gonna push you in

And smile.

It might seem impossible
but I have felt the corners of my mind folding towards one another.
my Malleable mind then felt the edge of my skull and I thought I felt it ooze through some pores.
It came back down with a deafening roar and I held my eyes shut.
I can't be here anymore
I need to get away.

How simple it must be
To write endless poetry
Of Hate and Love, love and hate
But in reality
It just not that simple.

You can do so many things to hide,
Warp yourself in clothes that show A different view,
Hang with people who don't even know
But in the end
As you lie in your bed,
The you that you try so hard to conceal is there
Patiently waiting for you to shake it's hand and say you are done with hiding

Take your heart and let it whisper to mine.
Let them both have a conversation only we could translate.
Let them both write endless poetry but only the ones written with our love.
Let them laugh,
Let them cry,
Let them be together.
Take your heart and let it whisper to mine.

I smear the tears on the page
and they make words.
Confessions.
Hopes.
Dreams

The tree was a seed before it became the thing with leaves
The tree was strong before it thirst and the leaves fell

Want to know why I love Winter?
*The summer sun digs it's nails into my skin
Carving, bruising my skin into a deeper shade of brown

F
A
      L

L
  I
N
G

F
      O
                   R

Y
O
    U


This is something I thought I would never have done
I am not going to catch myself
Only fall until I land into your arms

S
        L
O

     W
L
    L
Y


F
      A  
                L
     L
I
  N  G

Take me out to places that I will never see again
Fake a smile here and there while you see other men
Make me chase for your love while you I defend
Wake me up from this dream when my heart can't amend
Break me from fantasy cause it would've never been.

I can't help but to feel
I accidentally changed you
For the better
Or worse
remains yet to be seen?

Dear Self,

And you told yourself
to despise those moments lost
To confine them into an abyss
Hopeful that you never will remember again.

You told yourself
"  Cherish the brokenness for a life in longing is torture and a life in solitude is bliss."
But you know the truth.

You told yourself
To hold onto the pebbles of reality
in hopes the rough edges will reopen your wounds
to remind you of the gravel you were force to consume.

You told yourself,
"Be like the air rising, for it never falls onto the lips of fantasy"
But you know you are the leaf falling.

You told yourself
but a self has a way of lying to itself.

Sincerely,
Francisco D.H

And he spoke
And I melted
He reached
I pulled back
He walked
But I walked away

None of us are wrong
Everyone else is wrong
But its all in the head

Tonight
h
e
r
e

Were
i
s
h
e
s

Made

But
e
c
a
u
s
e

Of
u
r

d­istance

We
e
r
e

done

The pavement absorbs the energy my foot gives As I run
The air is displaced and it chills my skin
Who knew I would be the only one
But I should have known Time and time Again


You told me that this was the only we could be together
Me running away from you
But there was never any love to occur
Stuck with my love wanting to get through

I look in the mirror
*why hasn't it cracked yet

And it was time for our goodbyes
but as we embraced for the last time
I looked to the sky
"I don't want to let go"

It gets harder and harder
To believe it's just coincidences

I don't want to be alone with myself
While your arms are around someone else
I can't handle your name as it falls of my lips
It's the knife that pierces my heart
Slowly the A, the tip,
Pushes its way through the muscle tissue
To the point the pain is too much and my tears swallow my screams

I can't manage being on my own
While I sit wishing you called my phone
I can't stand to see the color purple flash in front of my eyes
It's a light the blinds me
A color that brings my heart to cry
making me turn around with my back to it
I can no longer stand the sight of anything that makes me remember you

Do I dare get closer when I know he will be gone?
Do I let the words flow even when they are wrong?
Do I be at his side be that friend but go home and cry?
Or
Do I just hide in my shell to never come out?

The moment was never lost
you just failed to look for it

Holding on when I should let go
Everything makes me think of you
Letting my mind take over
Please just leave my mind

Moments away from forgetting
Eventually I do forget

And just like my dreams
Let the concept of myself
be nothing but dreams

Some might wonder what's the point of writing poetry.
I ask them this
What's the point of stumbling, crumbling, tumbling through life
Without writing something down?

Slowly or maybe quickly you are pulled in.
Only after a few notes you realize, this is my story
Never thought it could tell your story perfectly
Getting every memory right
Sending you flying with emotions just because they got your story right.

Where are you on this lonely night in May?
Did your car go up and die while you were on the way?
Or maybe you left for you could not stay?

Where are you while I sit on this chair?
Did you stop and think of How I cared?
Or Maybe you took your heart and left me bare?

And I walked among the crowd and realized
I don't belong anywhere but the safety of my mind.

Just let me
                          
                       G
                              O

Just let me

                       F
                            A
                                    L
                                    L

Just let me Feel
                              
             F
                 R
                    E
                       E

When there's too much to say I write it all down
but
When there's too much to write I close my eyes
and sleep

With a heavy fist
Death came rapping on your door.
Calling out your name.
Death begged for a kiss
Death wanted a little more
Death, for you it came.
It couldn't resist