I had a dream.
In this dream ,that my mind conjured up for my enjoyment while my body rested, you were there.
I was there and some random lady who was a TV personality was also there.
We were all talking and having fun.
You smiled as she made a joke and my eyes lingered at your lips.
I wanted to kiss you but knowing how you didn't know yourself I contained myself to the spot I was standing in. and Plus I didn't want to do it in front of her cause she gave me the creeps.

You reached into your pockets and there was 30 dollars. You thought you placed them back in but I saw them falling. Twirling like Maple leaves onto the damp floor.
I picked it up and and called your name but you already went.
I spent my time throughout the whole dream trying to find you.
Jogging down stairs I didn't even know Ours school had.
Asking people if they have seen you
I searched and searched but to no avail.

I was left with nothing more than 30 dollars and a sadness that began to sweep it's self over me.
Then the cops came and I was running from them for no reason
then I woke up.

Let's stay this way
Old shirt on the floor with the Axe Colonge lingering in my nostril
Visit my hair with your fingertips
Eventually give me a gentle kiss

Look into my eyes
Oh How I love looking into yours
Visit my arms and I yours
Eventually We fall asleep

Lose your thoughts of the outside world
Only me and you is needed
Visualize just you and me
Eventually the love between is greater than all

The stars shine on you.
They shower you with their light, letting every bit of you glow
The moon also shines on you but with only half of it self
The other half is unseen cause it doesn't trust you fully
To let all of it shine on you

Have you heard about the man
Who was hit by a van
He was carry pans
When BAM!
He got hit by a van.
Did you hear about that man?

Life is moving forward
The Earth is moving forward
The water is running forward
I am moving forward
Is anybody moving backwards?

Look a Firetruck!
Why A firetruck?
Look an ambulance!
Why an Ambulance?
WHAT!!!! No I heard you WHAT!!
Heart beats faster everything I told myself was a lie
The joy I had turned to worry
Highly allergic to bees
Freaking highly allergic to bees
my mind turned to images of death and sorrow
I don't know if you are okay or not
Let's assume that you are
Who would have thought that it would take you being highly allergic to bees and getting stung
For me to realize that though I can hate you for as long as I want it won't stop the fact the this heart still longs for you

My need is to let my pen drip and let the puddles form letters. These letters find who they feel comfortable with like my hand searches for a pen or pencil because it feels comfortable with one. My right hand feels naked, feels as if a part of it has been cut away, if there is not a writing tool in its grasp or near its fingertips. I am sure the letters feel naked as well without the other letters to form words. The words move left, some push to get their spot on the right, until all are in their proper place and a story appears. But the problem is never what to tell though there is much to say. No the problem is how to share a story. Should I compose a book with a character’s flaws and misgivings and then he or she rises to the top? Or should I be very blunt, pluck one word from the endless word vine and let the letters run sideways? Or maybe just tell a story in the format of 5-7-5? Or just let my hand move to and fro until words no longer clog my head and cloud the insides of my eyes, until I empty for the day? However I tell my story, or the story of others, my pen, or whatever tool I use, will never dry. It will drip endlessly

Don't take me for granted cause I may let you fall
may let your undoings consume you.

Don't ignore that I might be losing patience  cause I may just let go
And watch you stagger to keep your balance.

Don't  acknowledge I'm there and then keep going
Cause I may just ignore your presence completely

Don't expect me to turn around to wave good bye
Cause no Goodbye is worth saying or waving

Don't forget that I can leave it all behind
And never
Not once
Not even a twitch of my neck
look back

When I close my eyes
I see you hazily
like when I take my glasses off
and only can make the general shape of things.
but when I open them
I see you perfectly
Like you are right up in my line of sight
and can see every detail clearly

I don't know which one is better
Only being able to see the good in you
or being able to enjoy the view but having to see everything that makes you

The robins pick at the ground with grass beneath their feet
while worms try to get away so they wouldn't be eaten.
The wind plays with the leaves above
As the sun gives it's warmth and love.

Every Poet has some story to tell.
every word that flows from their pens and onto paper is a piece of them they are willing to share
every Curve of a letter, every break between words tells you something you may have never known
every poet has some story to tell.

When the poem doesn't make sense
Grab some gloves and a mask and begin dissecting each stanza.
Each letter that hugs closely to each other break them apart
make sure to peer inside what's between them
Because every poet has a story to Tell  

A poet can tell you about  butterflies begin kissed by the sun but the sun, being selfish, doesn't leave a trace of saliva.
A poet can tell of love lost and about love ones tearing into their soul, shredding them like some paper shredder.  
A poet can tell of you anything they want with just whatever they have be it a napkin or computer
A poet can't help but to tell parts of their story even if the poem only makes sense to them
Every poet has a Story to tell.
That's just how they are.

Never be the one
To tell me that you love me
Cause I won't listen

Never be the one
To give up all just for me
You'll be wasting time

Never be the one
To long for me and need me
Cause I won't be here

The last thing That I do
Will be the last thing for you
No more helping, No more trying
No more anything,
I am through

The last thing That I do
Will be the last thing for you
No more wishing, no more thinking
No more anything,
What was felt just done and flew

Helping you
This one last time
Is last thing that I do
For you

Time went by and distance grew between me and liking you
I now see that you are just holding me back
Replace what was felt with what is felt now
Every thing I thought and felt is through
Dead these feelings, Just growing tired now

If you were to leave today,
Pack my love in your suitcase
make some room and tuck it nicely so it won't wrinkle

If you were to leave today,
Don't say good bye to me
But instead say I  will see you later
Because the idea of you leaving for good
Makes me want to cry

If you were to leave today,
Leave slowly and keeping looking back
So I know you yourself didn't want to go

if you were to leave today
I would want you to know that I would miss you terribly
I would be the bird who's wings got clipped
The dog without his bone
I would want you to know I will never forget you
If you were to leave today

Tell me something I need to hear but don't want to hear
Tell me something that my heart longs for but doesn't long for
Tell me something that Causes me to melt but then causes me to freeze
Tell me something, anything that has a double meaning

I wait and wait for you wondering if you will ever come'
But this waiting is slowly becoming to much
My head tires as it plays images of us together
holding hands and laughing together
I still wait for you wondering if i should keep on waiting
Should i give up? SHould I throw in the towel and walk away?

No i shouldn't but yet i cant help feeling like you will never come.
Like you will never be able to search in your heart to love me
I close my eyes and see your face
Those eyes hypnotized me
and when we touched accidentally i could feel your soft skin
that sent a jolt throughout my body making my heart
beat like a drum a drum that beats for you

seconds turn to minutes, minutes to hours and you still are not here at my side
This world is cruel and human feelings are cruel too
making us want something that cannot be taken for one's own
But you are not cruel, can never be cruel even if you never can bring yourself to love me

I love you with all my being, every fiber of it
Though i can't have you my love for you is like outer space
cause it is endless always going
I love you and wont be able to find myself another to love

What are you to me?
You are the candy, that brings me to smile because you taste sweet
You are the sun that breaks through the clouds and brings warmth
What are you to me?
The rain to my parade but not intentionally
The one who makes my heart beat like a drum
but then makes it stop and beat slowly
What are you to me?
You are my roller coaster ride
With the ups and downs
The twists and turns
What are you to me?
You are
My love

I have no idea whether I should stay put and endure whatever may come my way
Or seek refuge.
I have no idea if I should give in and let myself fade to nothing or if I should fight and struggle not to be led to the background
I don't know what to do.

I hear the voices
My head is exploding
Why don't they leave me

Here, There, There and here
They are not leaving me be
I hear the voices

I can't be like this
They overlap each other
I don't like voices

There was a time when I would care
There was a time I didn't bother with caring
Now i just don't know

there was a time when I would cry for being hurt
There was a time when I would force the tears back and just keep moving
Now I have no idea

There was a time when I would have loved to be in your company
There was a time when I hated being near you
Now I just don't know

There was a time for everything
There was a time for nothing
There was a time
Then There wasn't a time

It quickly became clear that I had to stop the chase
So I turned my back and felt the tears stream down my face

I didn't want to let go, to move on to some new boy
To show another love and admiration
But it became apparent, like when the sun's fingers touch my skin, that I had to.

So I began to walk and let myself crumble, let my walls tumble
I tried hard not to trip and fumble, but I failed and stumbled

I had to look back, just had to. Would I my atoms change form and become Chloride and Sodium, bond together to turn me to a pillar of salt?  Would looking into his eyes halt my heart and turn in cold as my muscles, bones, and blood turned to rough granite?

I turned to face him, turned to his direction
The chance of stay live was grim but I need to see his complexion

And I saw it
And I saw him
And I saw his eyes
And.....

Too much going on
Too much circling me
My breath slows as I tell myself
"Everything will be okay" and only for a moment does that work
Before I began to slow my breath even more so I wouldn't have to take another breath
Because breathing comes with too much trouble
Every breath I take I get a new problem to deal with
Each inhale ices my lungs with trouble and each exhale burns my nostrils with worry
Maybe I just need to stop breathing

I let my guard down
And I let you in
But you didn't catch me
I'm still fallin
In and out of love

With every touch
I exploded with Bliss
But With every touch
I longed for your kiss
But you never seemed to give it up

You had me in your grasp
With only enough room to breathe
Twisting and turning
I wanted to be free
From you I had enough

Yolo is the dummifed form of Capre Dieme
No offense but its for the dim minded. The not so bright. I need an acronym to tell me ** to live peopl.
You only live once
Ha! Duh you only live once cause you only got on life
To hold on to. There aint no restarts. No regeneration this aint no game.

Seize the day! Go ahead and explore that cave that seems endless and could swallow up like some big two headed monster
Go head and take the roller coaster ride. Look at square its false eyes and say yo you, think you is big and bad i can take you i aint scared.
Cause that's what Carpe Diem is all about
Seizing the day like there ain't no tommorow
Give all your love
Pay back what you borrowed
Hang with yo buds and have a few laughs
Do the things you want to do
as long you don't get handcuffed

Just go out and Carpe Diem!

Never thought I would break
But you were the hammer that was thrown
And you landed on me with a heavy blow
I cracked and splintered like some chopped wood
My heart was pounded to dust
And trusting you was my mistake

Never thought I would fall from my tree
But you were the saw that dug deep breaking the skin
Cutting into it's muscles until you were able to  pass it all
It's blood dripped and filled the air and the tree fell
Taking me with it as my breath was ****** out from my lungs
Once the dirt cleared and my body laid sprawled on the grass I saw you leave

Never thought, No I never thought that you could be so awful
The sour candy that nobody dare tastes because they saw how you made the others' face twist and turn
The car that nobody wants to drive cause you will break down in the middle of the road
The person nobody likes because you have so many hearts in your hat, taking them like they are yours for the plucking
No, I never could have thought that you would do this to me

I never thought Just Never thought

You can do so many things to hide,
Warp yourself in clothes that show A different view,
Hang with people who don't even know
But in the end
As you lie in your bed,
The you that you try so hard to conceal is there
Patiently waiting for you to shake it's hand and say you are done with hiding

Be the Dementor, **** all my happiness till there is nothing left
Be the bullet that's shot from the gun and pierce my chest
Take my life and like the Dementor Digest
Till my soul is gone be the one with the gun so clever and deft

Be the one to tell me that all my hopes are done for
Be the one to crush them and throw them on the floor
Pluck each one and throw them out the door
Be the one to  make my dreams no more

But Don't be the one who shows me that I can dream in colors
Don't be the one to let me see that All is possible
Don't be the artist who paints happy children and mothers
Don't be the one to say nothing is impossible

Cause I have others to do that for me

Circle Me with red
mark me diagonally with death
Take me heart and use it for your sacrifice
Just know I am already dead

The pavement absorbs the energy my foot gives As I run
The air is displaced and it chills my skin
Who knew I would be the only one
But I should have known Time and time Again


You told me that this was the only we could be together
Me running away from you
But there was never any love to occur
Stuck with my love wanting to get through

What was it about you?
Off in my mind dreaming that i would have you
What was i thinking?

Whatever it was it's gone now
Off to some distant guy who will crush on you
Wow, thats all i can say just WOW

Does my face show what is truly felt by my heart?
Do my eyes reveal what is hidden inside?
Can he see through me?

What does he think?
What does he say?
Can he hear me even when I make no sound ?

I don't and won't pursue no longer
He is happy it seems and that all that matters
Can he feel me giving up?

Suppose to teach not tell us that people like me are disgusting
Under my skin and I feel like lashing out to her but I don't
Because I know better, I might say a word or two to My Principal though

Every night when I lay my head to sleep
You enter my mind.
Every night you are beside me
On the bus, at school, on my bed
Every night I hold you close  so you can feel the fire
I rub your neck, you look at me with those intense blue eyes and smile
Every night you are in my dreams
But only Every night when I fall asleep.

I am no light switch you can turn on and off

ON  
To feel the warmth inside your could damp heart
To brighten up the room so you can place your things ever so neatly inside my heart

OFF
When the heat becomes too much for you
When you need to flee to another room to turn that light on

ON
When you need to heat the sweet words that fall from my sore lips
When you need me to illuminate your day cause you had a bad day

OFF
To make sure you keep the price of the light low
Cause you don't want to invest too much in this "love"
To evade the light cause you see that I deserve more than this

I am tired of your child like hands turning me on and off
to entertain your child like mind
This light bulb is growing weak and I am growing tired of changing the bulb constantly

I think soon I will tear the switch from the wall and cut the wires and just leave
I hate this light switch between you and me

Because I was drawn to you I broke another heart
Regret I have now because I lost a friendship
Everything I tried failed, I still dreamed of you even when I was with him
All the nights it was you holding me, you caressing me, you loving me in my dreams
Knew I had to break up with him because I couldn't pretend i was interested when my thoughts were
                                                                                                                                                                 On you

Breaking his heart I could hear the shatter, hear the groans
Reaching for forgiveness but none was ever gave
Everything went wrong ,you came up to me
And Asked what happened. But I couldn't tell you that It was for you I had to break up with him
Knowing that you were already with another one, I kept quiet about it

Well, Homework is calling
but I wish it was you
The dishes are beckoning for my touch
For my hands to cleanse them
But I wish it was you

My bed wants me to sleep with it
and wrap its warm arms around me
But i want It to be you

I close my eyes and things go dark
In my dreams I am with you

My heart, the delicate glass, broke and the pieces flew out of my ****** hands.
All my time was wasted, all my smiles, my "how are you's", my wishes wasted
K, I feel okay you know I won't let my distaste my "Oh hell NO" show
Everyone deserves happiness right? Yeah so I will leave you 'lone



Moving on, they said and you know I did
Eventually I did

T ired of feeling like this
      because you are so far away, stuck in your head with what others would think
       not thinking of anything but that
R eally? That's the question I ask, why? I wasn't good enough, if you break his heart or he yours you'll go  
     with me and be mine.
Y esterday I might have waited. Yesterday I might have just dreamed but now I got someone
     I don't know what will happen, but I am going to TRY.

Surrounded by hypocrites.
I can feel there words press against me.
Surrounded by liars
I can feel their lies tug at their hearts
Surrounded by strangers
I can feel their eyes, their elevator eyes
Each part of my body is a floor they want to explore
Surrounded by the truth
Something that I want all the time but it is scarce like mining for the one Diamond


I don't like being surrounded

There was no bells that rung
No angels that descended from heaven and sang
No there was none of that

Only my words being ****** away by the noiseless night
I just don't know why but I did
And I can try but I just don't know

There was no heart fluttering like the wings of a Hummingbird
No fuzzy-wuzzy feeling in my heart
No there was none of that

Only me thinking out loud and wondering
Just me and you "Running like *******"
I don't know what possessed  me   but I did it

Don't know what is going to happen
I just don't know

The failures of the world echo
They fill the skies with uncertainty and fill the air with doubt
But some chose to ignore it
They chose to block out those noises and listen for the sweet Chime of Victory
They let those sounds fill  their hearts
They let Victory win and overcome Failure

Phones reflect the self within us.
We use covers that show a hint of our personality maybe a panda cover, covers that mask and hide the scratches and bruises but they are still there.
They seem to grow and deepen each day and we have the power to stop it but how do we stop the scratches from showing, stop the smudges from appearing on the screen?
The point is we can't.
If the phone drops, it drops simple as that.
yeah we should make a big deal out of it especially when new scratches appear but we have to pick the phone up.
When it slips and falls again we must again pick it up.
When the screen cracks we feel like we should have put a screen protector on.
Then we try to protect it as much as possible.
We try to prevent the cracks from deepening.
We can't get new phones though, the self might be able to reassemble once cracked but fragments of the older self still remain , it can never be replaced.
We can only try to take care of it like we would our phones.

This heart is wanting
But it can't have what it wants
It tries to move on

It beckons for love
It calls to be loved by him
Him and Only him

This heart knows it can't
It tries to forget but can't
Wants him only him

Time and Time again
This heart begs for him to be
In his arms always

But it knows it can't
This heart knows if it was to
Be then it would be

When You told me I felt a mixture of emotions
My heart was a *** boiling with sadness as some salt of anger was poured in
And when the pepper of hope was added my heart just went blank
My mind went blank
but my mouth manged to say "Oh"

When I told you about a dream of you and a friend
you told me something I wasn't expecting
Noodles of Hurt was added to the ***
More Peppers of Hope were added
and some more salt of anger was sprinkled
But something was missing to this meal you were creating
then you added the secret ingredient.
I don't even know what it is
but it made the cuisine finished

After all was added and cooked
All I manged to say was "Oh"

However long it's between you and me I will always love you
Of the times we spent together, I chose all of the them to represent you and me
Let's hold each other, you hold me and I hold you
Don't ever let me go and if you have to just let me down easy

Most of the time I think of you just holding me of us just resting together
Every moment spent is a moment I love to the extent I want you to hold me and never let me go

Take some time and see that I’m the one
Take some time and see that I love you
Don’t ever forget that I was the first
To break the walls , to get through


Lend closer and feel the warmth inside
Lead closer and feel my heart beat
But don’t forget, oh lord don’t forget
I was the first you did meet

Take my hand and fly away
Take my hand together we’ll stay
Take my hand so we can be alone

Give me the love and the time
So I can say that you are mine
Show me all that I have shown

Take your words and throw them around but there will be no one left to catch them
Take your words and say them loud but there will be no one left to hear them
Take your words and eat them slowly one by one as you take a swing of your pride
Take your words and wrap yourself to give you a false sense of security
Take your words and use them as a cane to help you walk but they will only ******* you more
Then soon you will go to the grave with your words buried with you while others use them to bury you
For there will be no more people to take your words

Never tell someone that you love ‘em
When you aren’t even sure you do
For they might believe then feel dumb
And ask why they believed you

Sure, you can pretend
Sure you can show affection and not even mean a thing
But that is shallow, that is horrid
And when some one wants to mend their heart with their love
They shy and turn away for they don’t want to be hurt again

Take your lies and feed them to yourself
Eat them one by one
Remember this as you love someone else
Though you left your work’s never done

Sure they can find another man
Sure he can show all the affection and mean every little thing
But they will feel broken, feel like every man is a deceiver
They would kick them away like they are kicking sand and run away
For they don’t want to be hurt again

Don't leave me behind as you walk out the door
Don't leave me behind sprawled on the kitchen floor
For the longest time I have had these feelings for you
But somehow my message was not getting through

Don't leave me behind as you turn the corner
Don't leave me behind as you go and love her
For the longest time I fought to ignore
But somehow I always wanted more

Don't leave me behind,
just don't leave me behind
For I want to always call you mine
For the longest time I have watched from a distance
So don't leave me behind please just listen