I know you, thats why you know me
We've had enough time to ourselves
I threw knives in the circus-
Got in an argument with the lion
My boss is the only one who tamed him
So I got in a fight with my boss

I took my knives
and left - west
I know you know -why you know me
is a mystery
but I still remember your address
from all those postcards I would Send
I never told you that,
I threw knives

So heres my money and the death of me
since you never replied
                                         This is for your home
I dont live there anymore.

it was 4 am the baby was kicking
they both wanted mint chocolate chip
which was the only thing
not in the hotels mini fridge
I being the loving father to be
left in my levis from yesterday
the best decision I ever made
was kissing her goodbye

So now here I am in the closet
of the man who ruined our vacation
Alameda trailer home
clutching a vial of heroine
and a pair of pliers

Symbolistic white walls
surround my fate
if i dont pull these teeth
in secret

the villain shakes the whole
**** death trap
opening his lock for the last time
the worst decision he ever made
was locking the door
a few minutes later his hand
scratched at the ****
until the opiates
settled the score
his body now the rag doll,
I wanted to impregnate him
with the love my son could have been
and tear it out of him with the same tools
dangle it from the same floor lamp
that is in an evidence room locker
with my D.N.A. all over it

the worst decision the cops ever made
showing me the list of suspects.  

the worst decision I ever made
was narrowing them down, one by one.

This time I'm not so manic
now its been a year since
we
talked

Its not like thats a bad thing
were both still alive
its not a good thing that
I keep track of days
by the divider for medication

It feels like no time at all
just blackout and wonder
what happened all those times
you scared me, so much
I couldn't hurt you like you wanted.

I remember vividly
when you were riding me
and asking what we could do
I said I could love you
and that wasn't enough

What more do you want from me?
Its yours.
I just need this settled- am I yours?
I know you are mine.
I put a spell on you before

We broke up in email

I regretted it instantly
I curse the modern hand of man
just for the separation I felt
from you , the moment we first talked

Down the hall
through text

I remember the first time your beauty
ever rendered me speechless
and the years that my broken heart
convinced my head to be alright.

Well I'm not. and
I dont know if you are alright

I just know what I want to know.
I want to know why,
failure to let go of what I know
I want to see again and again.
Maybe its all in how you disappear

But Ghostie  - Here it is again
your beauty rendering me speechless
all in one picture that I thought
would be worth a million words.  

Well it is, but us remains impossible.

I miss the rain Like
I miss your face while
Sewing seeds of anger
Can't harvest the love
I am a child of light
A man of darkness
All emotions lead
Out of balance

can't touch the light this time
but its alright, its alright
handing torches of our time
yeah its our time
never or for now; find
that we sing together
and pray for no one
they are all fine in theyr ways

love the light inside of you
not the illumination that casts
shadows on our face
i remember before i knew
i look like you
heal to cleanse the soul

This is another year
without upheaval
another disregard
for the common good

I asked the cards
how will today
effect the world?

One deck said
Your Hierophant
will be upside
down and your
five of cups
hooded
the lady hoodwinked
will cross her swords

and the other  yelled
the world affects today
by the ways of the lovers
juggling two coins
watching the world go by

Not this year my gorillas
the monkeys still rule

Not this day young write
your way is your will

Some people think I worship the Devil.
If Lucifer was to walk in right now,
I wouldn't be on my knees
-some people would bow to Christ-
they would be shaking,
but I would still fumble with speech
while I would shake his hand,
I would not shake him for questions-
besides that of will he **** the joint
weakly shaking in my forefingers.

I would respect Abaddon,
for he could destroy everything I
-just as godlike in explanation-
have created with the will of love.  

Mammon; I would be wary of
for he could create anything In
-an a attainable sort of nature-
because if He and greed
were to take over my steps
and breath, I would have
everything material that I
Wanted; someone to understand

I do not worship the demons
but I do not doubt they exist
but then again, I dont say
their names aloud


too often.

                  so I to say
Do you worship the Heirophant?
the man more connected than you, to God?
would you shake his hand-
or shake him with questions&
Do you worship the Television?
that you need to make it home to

too often.

sometimes
were given chances

some of them hidden
some of them obvious

to cut and make short cuts
cuddle in black and white

and short shorts


somereads
were foundbi chance

some of them hidden
some of them obvious

who cut up the short runs
favorite films as you say so

and short stories