You know the drill.

Do not fall for that innocent smile.

Do not fall for that promising lies.

Do not fall for that sweet gestures or that husky bedroom voice.

Do not overthink that he's into you when you know that he does that too to every woman he meets.

Do not justify your feelings.

JUST DON'T

There are times I wish that you can see me more than me.
More than the friend who can be with you anytime, anywhere.
More than the friend who can give you advice when you're having a hard time with her.
More than the friend who doesn't say anything even though you don't call or chat for more than a month.

I wish you could start seeing me as a girl who continues to improve herself.
I wish you could start seeing me as a girl who is capable to love and be loved.
I wish you could start seeing me as a girl who can take good care of you... you can love you wholeheartedly.
But I know that you can't so I will just pretend dumb and numb from the pain.

Today. you provoke something inside me that I thought was gone.
You made me happy with your innocent gesture of asking me to accompany you to buy coffee.
You made me happy by sitting beside you in your new car, in the same seat that I usually see your girlfriend on.
You made me happy that you still make sure that I don't feel out of place while the Baristas tries to flirt with you.
You made me happy by confiding with me with your latest shenanigans and family problems.
You made me happy that you find me trust-worthy enough to know this information.
You made me happy by being there...
As a friend.
Even though I earnestly pray that we become more than that.

She's a girl that doesn't yield.
She fight and **** and destroy that hinders her way.
She doesn't think twice in pulling the trigger-- innocent or not.

They say that she is a monster born in a good family, but they don't know that we are all,
You only need to release the anger, the wrath, the devil inside you.
Listen to the voice inside your head.
Do what's he said.

But everything has come to an end.
She found her match -- too good for her rotten soul.
Finally laid to rest in her pool of blood.

When you don’t know the answer to your problem and you feel that everybody is against you.

When all you want is peace and love and happiness but you cannot get not even one.

When you just want to do your job, at least well, but no one appreciates your effort.

When everybody has its own opinion and it feels like yours is not worthy to be heard of.

When you’re trying your best to understand everyone and everything but all you can get is ‘because you’re too kind! You’re to good. ‘

Is it bad to be a good person? Is it bad to spread kindness? Is it bad that I’m too emotional less of intellectual compared to other people?

Is it bad to ask for understanding when the people who you serve treat you inhumanly? Is it bad that you don’t treat them the way your boss treat you? Is it bad that you accept all the bullets instead of dodging them just to protect people you care? Am I dumb for doing all of these?!

I hate this life that I’ve chosen. I hate myself now.

2018 why are you so harsh to me?