you threw me in the ocean
with cement blocks tied
around my ankles
and ask me why it is so hard
for me to keep my head
above the waves
{hko}

AND I KNOW I AM NOT THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON BUT NEITHER WERE YOU AND EVEN THOUGH I LOVED YOU WITH YOUR FLAWS YOU COULDN'T HELP BUT PICK ALL OF MINE APART BUT I AM NOT YOUR FLOWER AND YOU CAN'T PICK AWAY MY PETALS WHEN THEY BEGIN TO WILT AND EXPECT ME TO REATTACH THEM ON MY OWN. (hko)

AND MAYBE THE REASON I'M STILL LATCHING ON TO YOU IS BECAUSE I KEEP HOPING YOU'LL CHANGE YOUR MIND. THAT YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY BACK TO ME BECAUSE  WE MADE A HOME IN EACH OTHER. AND WHILE I MADE MINE OUT OF STONE I WATCHED YOU CONSTRUCT YOUR GLASS HOUSE. AND YOU STILL BLAME ME BUT YOU WERE THE ONE THROWING STONES. AND DARLING I KNOW YOU THINK IM SO MUCH MORE BEAUTIFUL ON MY KNEES BUT THE SHARDS ARE DIGGING IN LIKE THE WAY YOU USED TO SAY YOU LOVED ME.
(hko)

everyone says
it will get better tomorrow
but if getting better
means getting well without you
then I would rather
be sick

               hko

and I don't know
what heaven looks like
but if I could guess
it would look
like the sleep in your eyes
and if i could feel it
it would be a close resemblance
to the way
you used to hold me
  
                                      hko

people who are broken
are beautiful
they are made of the
little pieces leftover
from chaos
and life
and they know what it's like
to feel the bottom of the ocean
and still be in love
with the stars
to take the pieces and
put themselves
back together
leaving mid chapter
to start a new book
because some endings
we're not meant to be read
and some beginnings
we're meant to be written

                                               hko

now catch myself thinking of you
in the little corners of my mind
and in the blurry visions
before I sink into sleep;
in the smell before
the rain
and during the storm;
you hide
in the areas in my head
where my memories reside
and summer lasts forever
because those
we're the days you loved me.
so when I lie in bed
and my thoughts wander
back to warm days
and tan skin
I have trouble remembering
it's winter
and your heart now
is just as cold
as the
weather.
                             hko