and every time
your name lights up my screen
at 3 in the morning
I know you're only lonely
but so am I
and if we can fill
each other's hollow pieces
then why not
numb the pain?

                                 hko

I can't stop
my hands from shaking
and I can't keep
my heart from
ripping itself
out of my chest
every time
I hear your name
I'm falling apart
slowly
piece by piece
and I keep this smile
on my skin
to make you believe
I'll be okay
I do it for your convince
I would do anything
for you
but just because
you can't stand me
doesn't mean
I can't stand you

all I think of is you
but every night
it dulls
and I don't know if
it's the reminder of you
or the fact you'll turn into
a memory
that kills me
I've never contemplated
suicide
it's mind erasing
and I'm not sure
if I could handle
not remembering you

i gave you everything and all you gave me was this hollow feeling in my chest when you told me that you couldn't do this anymore.

I'm sick
and I can't tell if it's the weather
or the fact you left
the symptoms began that night
inability to sleep
loss of appetite
so on and so on
and the doctor said its normal
for the season
he said the cold weather
can affect the mind
but all I remember
was the cold touch
of when you held my body
for the last time
and the nights are longer
it happens in the fall
but they last forever
when I can't roll over
and touch your face
and I can't remember
if it was that night
or that morning
that you had emptied everything
you had ever felt
and washed it down the shower drain
while I still slept
under your sheets
cold
I'm so ******* sick
and I wish it was
just this weather