I dreamed I once lived in a stone
somewhere near the sea
and my voice had a clown’s tone
but there's no sound when I tried to scream

with a woman standing next to my cradle
I tried to memorise what she said
then her body moved into the shadow
and dropped a box on a table

I dreamed I was once a monkey
in the zoo next to my home
I was hungry and alone
with a weird pain in my bones

with a tree branch at the middle of my crate
I climbed to its top and wait
for the sun to go down so I can escape
this lonesome one day.

I dreamed of my friend dying
next to a light pole in the street
I dreamed of a group of children marching
in the city roads like an army

I dreamed of a bus driving
over people like they are ants
I dreamed of myself screaming
at a puddle in the rain

lately I keep seeing ravens flying over
landing on that tree branch like shadows of my lovers
staring at me like I'm what they're after
and then they will leave

I don't miss things til they will come back never
the sun it rises but doesn't make me feel much warmer
I know that I have dreams that I can never remember
and nothing stays in here

but the only thing I can do is to run to the same street
hope all I will see is the clock that tells me when I can leave

I'm all ******* in this perfect closure
drinking the wine that bleeds out of my inner soldier
I find it giving an unspeakable pleasure
for my loneliness

now I'm drunk in this pool of liquor
watching all the bottles floating around like the best swimmers
making noises that cools my fever
and then they will drown

I can't see those birds til it's getting too close to a failure
they set me on fire but it makes me feel much better
I know I love things that will eventually turn into ash forever
so I keep closing my eyes

then I will cry at this hopeless scene
wishing me not as the same as my father

I'm overwhelmed in this endless measure
counting the birds have come out of the farthest corner
I don't see **** that draws me a picture
of your existence

when I close my eyes
I see you jumping around like a child
but time always just flies
and the flower in my yard always dies

then you will turn around
then you will whisper into my ears
then you will give me that smile
ask me to look beyond myself

I see blocks of rejection
******* on my feet
I try to swim away
and at the end I will die

I see lights coming from that line
I’ve done nothing, but why am I so tired
I keep forgetting the dreams I’ve had
I keep wondering what you’ve said

breath with me if you can
I hear screaming from under the ground
we sit under the tree and there's no light on our skin
and you said it's worth the waiting just for this pain

I see the light traversing thru the surface
and the story rumbles into a certain phase
we agreed home to us is just some imaginary place
and you said let's play this game with pride and grace

you said **** the world, we are better than this
you said here we go, let them run over us
you said put the gun down, it will only make it worse
you said relax your arms, let it take your breath

so dance with me if you can
let the running liquid clear our vein
we can hold our hands and everything will become red
then someone will yell "you are so dead!"

*Oh, it's Sam!