As I try to forget,
Simple words, simple phrases
I learn your lies,
Those things you call the truth
When I'm near tears,
And you're completely oblivious.
I can't stand to look,
To gaze upon your clueless eyes.
Are you willing?
To understand the mistakes.
The ones you made.
Are you ready to
Earn my forgiveness?
I don't think you'll understand.
For you're just being
Who you were born to be.
There is no right or wrong for you

Will you leave me, love?
Say no, say no
Save me from grief
Of my love's departure
Don't let me shed a tear
Say no, say no
To loving another, dear
Don't be the knife in my heart
Cutting away, slowly and unjust
Will you leave me, love?
Say no, say no
For my life is worthless,
Without your arms around me
And your warm breath on my skin
Say no, say no
To loving another, dear
For my brittle heart can't take it
Not another word, not another lie
I'll grieve until you return
My unfaithful butterfly...

Will you leave me, love?
Say no, say no
Save me from sadness
Of your untrue love
Don't let me shed a tear
Say no, say no
To loving another, dear
Don't pierce my soul with lies
Ripping, quickly and cruel
Wil you leave me, love?
Say no, say no
For my world is crushed
Without you by my side
You fingers intertwined with mine
Say no, say no
To loving another dear
For my fragile heart is still broken
Don't speak a word, another lie
I'll always be your's
My devoted dragonfly...

Say yes, say yes
To being together,
Forever and a day
Don't fret the lies that people
May spread amongst themselves
For I shall always be your servant
Your lover at least,
Forever and a day
My heart will always beat for you
And I shall remain by your side

I have a feeling you don't exist
Distance makes it easier to believe
I know you can be touched,
But I know that I cannot feel

I'm numb, inside out
Everything looks the same to me
Colors of the rainbow merge
and turn all the shades of gray

Laying, unmoving, staring
I watch stars as my mind races
Knowing that I'm not dreaming
I feel your presence within

You're consistantly on my mind
I know giving up isn't an option
All I've wanted to say is
I love you and I'm not afraid

But you're too far away to hear
Though I tell you in the depths
Of my sorrowed mind.
I feel like I'm dying

A ice cold hand has it's bitter grip
On my slow beating heart
It's chained without links
What's wrong with me?

Like an angel without wings
I feel trapped

Shards of glass,
Strewn across the counter
Revealing a broken face
Riddled with cuts and bruises
Hiding agony with lies,
A fake smile only to get by
A fate so undeserving,
Innocent,
Making decisions so young
Life isn't fair,
It's cruel, unforgiving
Thrown away with all the letters
Something no one will understand

She knows what she's doing.
Hair pulled back, a perfect smile
Bright blue eyes that sparkle

She's the girl everyone wants to be
Boys waiting on her, arm and leg
Waiting for the chance to be with her
It's not that easy

Hidden behind her fake smile,
Is the life no one wants.
Dad's ran away, Mom's full of hate
Perfect beautiful girl
Lives a life of anguish

She's the girl everyone wants to be
Perfectly fake, hiding behind lies
Screaming on the inside
She's alone in this life
Barely breathing, barely alive

She indulges in dishonesty
Wearing a colorful mask
Hiding all her shades of grey
Disguising it all with beauty

She's the girl everyone wants to be
Always deceitful, always insecure
So easily broken inside
Her body only a tomb

It's like I'm dying,
The actual realization
Of my own downfall's
Rapid approach.

I don't want to lie
But I'll smile and pretend
Because in the end
I know you wont understand.

I'm surrounded by people
Day to day, but I'm alone
Always the same faces,
It all becomes old to me

I thank you for making me smile,
Behind all the salty tears
I know you wont ever understand
The things that go on inside my head

Someday I'll be able to explain,
When all this misery finally fades.
I'll tell you, word for word
Maybe then you'll comprehend.

Quiet, that's all I ask for
Complete silence is what I need
Your voice is the ringing in my ears
Loud and obnoxious
You whine and complain
Critisize and bicker
Do you find pleasure in destruction
A sense of success in my pain?

My patience wear thin,
Someday I wont be here
Who will you lay your faults on?
When you lose contact with me?
Will you recognize you wrongs then?
After it's too late?

I'm done with hiding it.
You're like the air in my lungs
I need you to breathe
But I won't go down easily
I'll try until I turn blue,
From the lack of you.

I could talk to you for hours
If only I could call you mine
Tell you everything is gonna be alright
Love you, I just might

I barely remember you
It's been two or three years
You went on business matters
To another country
You practically ignored us
Gave us barely enough money
To ever support all of us
We lost our home,
had to leave everything behind
But eventually mom met someone new
Now I don't like him either
But sadly he's better than you.
He doesn't yell
Or kick holes in walls
I'm not afraid of him.
I can't him dad, or father.
I never will.
You may be my father,
I won't call you dad either

I held onto my mother's hand
As she lead me, bare foot
Into the cool water.
A man look's at me weirdly
My mother said it was
Because of my skin color
But I couldn't see
Much difference between
him and me
Except he was a man
and I was a little girl

He came to us purely by accident
A spirit from beyond the veil
He does no wrong, he is an innocent
His words are a song
Waiting to be sung
By those who remain loyal
Who honor promises made
His name has undoubtful meaning
An act needing to be remembered
He seeks to avenge
Those who have done no wrong
But have the upmost evil
Done to them
He brings forth Justice
As himself and as his actions.
He is a knight,
A skillful man with a blade,
A hero of peace.
Our unrecognized savior

Thundering, booming, loudness
Striking fear into young souls
Winds taking down loads
Rain turning up flower beds

I toss and turn
Through the night
My eyes wide open
The noise keeping me awake

I worry for tomorrow
The pouring rain
Pounding on the roof
Like a stampede**
Of angry horses

I wonder how tomorrow will look.
Will there be any sun
To gaze upon in the early morning?
Will there be any beauty?

Laying in the closet
Unused, unwanted
Collecting cobwebs and dust
Buttons hanging by threads

It looks like an overused rag,
Falling apart and stained
It has seen many a special occasion
and caught many a mess

It lays dormant in the dark
Completely forgotten about
Like an useless item
To be thrown away

I always wonder what feelings you have for me
Mine are quite obvious it seems.
Everyone knows, but it doesn't feel like you do.
I try so hard, just to make little observations
To see if you're trying to show
Just a little emotion for me

Can't you just tell me?
I want to know if you're mine...
I want to know if you and me exist
But I have my fears
Will you say no?

I want to be his girl,
but I'm not sure how to.
I want to be his only,
but I know I wont..
I can't make myself any clearer
I practice talking for hours,
watching that girl in the mirror.
She looks clever,
More confident than I.
She has that beautiful smile,
White teeth, plump lips
But I know I'm not her.
Perfect figure, straight posture
But I want to be her
Maybe then he'd notice
I want to be that girl,
Then one he watches
As she walks by,
The one he writes songs for.
The one he holds at night.
But I can't.
I'm not her,
No matter how hard I try.
I'm not the girl I see in the mirror

Her lips have that clever smile
She doesn't know what's in her drink
Nor does she really care.
He's watching her, she's losing it.
He hands her that bag of golden brown
She drowns it in her veins

Everyone wants to be her,
Following in her wake
Destruction, mishaps.
She wants her escape,
That purple haze just isn't enough

It's in her water,
She doesn't know
She's having too much fun to notice
He throws an arm around her waist
To keep her from falling into window panes

She's a lying waste of space,
Her purity is lost,
All she's tastes are her drugs.
Everyone's starting to call her bluff

Did they tell you I'm leaving today?
I see you in my rearveiw mirror.
Did you realize your mistake?
I know tears are rolling down your face.

Did they tell you I'm a wreck?
I saw you messaged me.
Did you just realize you loved me?
You know it's too late.

Did they tell you that you lost your chance?
You're begging me to come back.
Did you know I hate goodbyes?
You said it everytime.

Did you realize it was just for today?
I told you how I felt.
Did they already tell you?
You should have believed them all along.

I'm standing here
Trying to make this life on my own
I'm frozen,
The memory you gaze at.
I'm two summers ago,
Something you've forgotten.
This purpose is a curse
Capturing your memories
Holding them forever
Only to be thrown away
When you no longer care.
Wish you had me now?
I'm already gone,
wasted away.
I wasn't yours to keep

Ma amie,
You're always there for me.
J'adore tu pour tout ce.
I couldn't imagine my life without you.
Ma ange dans le deguisement.
You're my savior.
Tu garde de tant de les choses.
My protector.
J'adore vous.

We find ourselves always weaving a web of lies
Hiding behind in the despair we wish to vanquish.
Painting faces, painting personalities.
To try and make things right.
But who is to say it's not wrong?
We walk down the wrong roads,
Trying to find ourselves,
But it's not really us.

Dreams remain unfollowed,
Hopes are forgotten,
Everything is just a memory.

Reality is just the faintest remark.
Everything is so ideal.
Masks are real faces,
Costumes are everyday clothes
No one is living in Reality.
Just webs of lies...

I think you've figured I write about you
It's probably quite obvious.
I think I've fallen in love,
but baby you're not here...

Can you hear me?
I'm pleading for you.
It's so difficult knowing
There's too much road between us.

One day I'll pack my bags,
And we could be together.
Call me crazy,
I've fallen head over heels for you.

You're a rhythm in my head,
my beating heart is the drum.
my thoughts the guitar,
my voice the bass.

It's a sweet melody,
Just because you made it.
I'm intrigued by the way you speak.
Clever words the make me fall ever faster.

I'll kiss you, no regret.

I don't know where I'm going with this,
I guess I think they're some useless words.
If you don't really mean them.

Saying them would be a waste
Once you think about it.
Since you don't mean them...

Pass the glass please,
I need to drown these thoughts out.
To take a breath of fresh air.

Sun-shiney days, so far away.
Rain is pouring outside,
It makes me feel so relaxed.

Your side of the bed is empty
I have room again.
I can feel at ease....

I miss you

I'll let you in,
If you'll trade that heart of gold
So it can be mine to hold.
Lock and key,
I'll be your inspiration
If you'll be my melody.

You're my dream in reality.
My sanctuary dressed in light.
You're the only one I believe in
I wont break this memory apart
It was love from the start.

As beautiful as it is,
I know soon it'll be gone.
Let me be honest with you,
Each moment spent here
Makes me miss it more.
As darkness swallows
That big ball of blood red.
Imagine how it feels,
Being cloaked and hidden,
Fear consumed.
Dancing in the moonlight,
Stolen love.

Morning welcomes the new,
I stayed up all night,
I didn't want to miss it.
The scene painted golden,
As the sun rises.
The colors reflected in the water,
It's no wonder I can never forget

Tired, exhausted
But we don't need sleep.
Silence keeps us awake
Minutes turn to hours
the hours to days
Time seems useless
Our goals becoming futher
We work harder
Tear ourselves apart
To finish what we started
Nothing ever seems to go right
We don't give up
Even in our worn out staggering
We continue in our labor
Only to please ourselves

You didn't fit in,
It wasn't something you could ever do.
You never were good at
Putting up walls.
Or mending them.
But you always held your head high.
You'd rather create distance
Then keep communication.
You knew you could always do better.
But why did you light it up?
Why'd you let it all burn down?
You know you had it all
Cause in my eyes you were perfect,
Til' you met him.
You let him get the best of you,
He didn't think you were worth it
I do, I'd take a bullet for you,
I'd take a whole round.
Honestly, you're my best friend.
I admire so many things in you.
Why'd you let him get you down?
When we know you had it all
Before he came around?

I've been hoping for a way
To show you who I really am
Inside this shell I've made

Tell me how, how can I be
Something that means everything
To you, 'cause I wanna be
Everything to you

You can stay if you want to
I'll try to write a song,
So we can forget the world
outside that is so fake, so fake

You can stay if you want to
I'll try to name all the stars for you
In hopes it'll ease your mind
Cause the world outside is so fake

I get lost in your eyes,
While you tell me about your day
You smile when I say it'll all be okay

Play my heart like you play your guitar
Make me everything that's been good so far

You can stay if you want to
I'll try to write a song,
So we can forget the world
Outside that is so fake, so fake

Write a melody that'll make me hum along
It doesn't have to be a love song
As long as it can be our song

You can stay if you want to
I'll try to name all the stars for you
In hopes it'll ease your mind

I'm in love, I'll tell you everyday
I hope it makes you stay
I hope you know you're everything
You're everything good that's happened to me

Maybe I'm a nobody,
and everybody knows you.
Maybe I won't get far,
and you'll be famous
But you wont get there on wit.

Hey captain of the Barbie squad,
Did you bleach your hair?
Seems it comes with stupidity too
Miss know it all, but really doesn't

Brand name clothes?
They look expensive, oh dear
Is that a stain? Money wasted!
Still obsessing over your hair
In the bathroom mirror?

Did you see your boyfriend was cheating?
Oh wait, it was with me wasn't it?
Maybe you're that boring,
Same drama everday
"He said, she said" nonesense

So, miss I can do anything,
What happens when daddy's money fades?
Bills pile up?

So miss I can do anything,
Having fun being Queen now?
In the end you'll still be the same
Queen of the Brainless

Your plans are always second best
The lies you spread, useless
Secrets kept, you're unfit
War is the only option you wish,
Words are a hit and miss.
Violence is key in your endeavor
Power is your goal

Sleepless nights you lay planning
Ideas swarm your head,
No one has a choice but to follow
You're a ruler with strength
You hail to no one
You are a tyrant

I know I have a thousand things on my mind
And I have a million words to write
But this constant writers block
Is keeping me from these lyrics

I'm no good at writings songs
I can't really explain things in a few words
And there's nothing I can do if you
Don't believe the words I try to say

I have a lot on my mind,
And not all the paper in the world would
Be enough to hold all my thoughts in words
But I know it'd be enough if I could just
Hold your hand

I'd do anything for you, my inspiration
I could recite love quotes, write endless poems
I'd stay up all night on the phone, even if we have
Absolutely nothing to talk about for those hours

I'm no good at writings songs
I can't really explain things in a few words
And there's nothing I can do if you
Don't believe the words I try to say

I've got a lot on my mind,
Like my past, your present, our future
I contemplate phrases that could explain
Nothing seems to run together on paper

Just leave me here,
While I force thoughts into words
Cause I've got a lot to say
But I keep backing down
Where does this end?

How can you love
Something so torn?
How can you love
The remains of life and time?
A hallow form
of horrid memory and hate.
Always making choices,
always the wrong decision.
How can you feel for
a failed impressionist?
It's baffling,
how much love you possess.
It's confusing
how your affection never wavers.
Sometimes I think it's misplaced,
but the love and affection
will always be returned,
though disguised,
or afraid to show.
It will always be there

Blue
Is communication and healing
It inspires spiritually and creatively
and is always calming and patient.

Red
Is passion, courage, lust and love
Fast action and driving forces
and arouses strength, vibrancy, and health.

Purple
Is the marking of royalty
The love of the third eye
and our self-ambition

Black
Is the cloak we wear to hide
Mistaken for evil or harmful
and long afflicted with the "dark side"

Green
Is the dress of mother Earth
Meaning prosperity and fertility
and connected so closely to good fortune

Pink
Is romantic and passionate
Associated with goodwill, peace, and affection
and nurtures emotional health.

Orange
Is the secondary color of the sun
Connected to ambition and success
and self-confidence, strength and justice.

Yellow
Is our mind and intellect
It is intelligence and philosophy
and related to attraction, charm and persuasion.

Gold
Is the color of the sun,
It symbolizes all things masculine
and imbued with wealth and winning.

Silver
Is shade of our moon
It is associated with all things feminine
and is intuition and psychic abilities.

Brown
Is the animals in nature
It is related to dwindling wilderness
and is a color of protection

White**
Is the absence and combination of color
The symbol in purest form
and the sign of innocent pure love

The fountain of youth
In a place unknown
Not marked on maps of old
Only heard of in stories told.
I don't care for the immortality
Or the fame and riches
I just want to feel the success
Of the discovery,
To lay my eyes upon its clear blue waters
If only for a moment,
I want to feast upon its glory
To gaze at its magnificent beauty
If only for a moment,
I want to reach
My own state of immortality
Even if
It's only a state of mind