I am broken and torn.
Left here on the cold floor...
Blood pouring from my inner wounds.
Killer thoughts like bloodhounds,
Ready to bring it all down,
All I see is red when I stand here...
****, it is so not fair.
Leave me be
Before you see
What holds me together
In my dark place I wither.
Useless from being so alone,
One day I will be gone,
Do I accept these things
Things, pain brings.
Swallow my pain
Staring at my mirrored insanity
Grinning oh so wicked
I am so sickened.
Black with disease
All I do is beg please
Turn your back and walk away
You do it every **** day.
As long as I am here
You do not care.
Throw me away
No longer play
With my shriveled heart
Which falls apart
slides through
Your hands, its true...
I died that day
So far away.
Will I ever return?
Or will my soul yearn
For what I cannot ever
No never ever
Be, whats so deep inside of me.
Locked so tight
My wings will one day take flight
You will have your fight
My pain  is my might...
Over and over I stumble
My chest rumbles
Its all the same
I am the one to blame.
Why do I do this???
Did I miss...
Something along the way?
What can I say...
Here we go again
Do this, it must be a sin...
Save me
From me
I lost touch
With so much
I seem to not be able to get enough
Is it b/c I am so ****** tough?
I am sick of this
Stupid ignorant b/s.
Lead me on
Let the fun begone...
I am done...
Before I come undone.

Let me go before I die,
All I can do is hurt and cry.
I am so tired of all this pain,
You make me go insane.
I think I wont miss you,
Yet I know I will too.
I know I love you
And want you...
And it is time to move on,
I will be so long gone.
The tears will not stop flowing til I am free
Free with him to be...
Can you see it hurts me
Hurts with you, I cant be.
I scream so silently
Holding back violently
Passionate thoughts.
Love is all I have sought.
Is it here with you?
Or did we lose that too?
I give up everything for you
I do all you ask me to do...
Each time it rips apart
A small peice of my beating heart.
I am no longer human
Something not quite demon,
Monsterous inside
Its dark and it does hide.
It seeks ultimate release
Or my pain will not cease.
I take all this to keep you
From hurting too.
And now I see,
The one to end all pain wont be me.
I hurt you, him, or me.
And I have two lil ones that see
And feel my pain.
Will it all be in vain?
I beg it to all end,
To the blackness please send.
If the demon I hold
Gets too bold
It will wreak havoc on everything,
A sight to behold among other things.
The blood will flow,
His starvation will only grow.
I keep him at bay,
With all I have each day...
And now my will has worn thin,
Will this be the end?
Let me go free,
Or all will see,
What I really am inside,
Will you hide?
The destruction will befall
You, me and all...
What I need you cannot be,
Please stand back and see.
Either be that man for me
Or just let me be... Free!

I have fought ****** battles,
Thought of humans as my cattle.
Tasted of such delights,
Seen morbid and hellish sights.
But nothing in all my thousands of years,
Has ever brought me this close to tears.
Your beauty shines so bright,
It takes away my keen sight.
Your delicious smell calls me from far away,
Your makes me unbeating heart  sway.
Please tell me that you will be mine,
Asking you should be the sign.
Your dark looks unnerve me
So badly see...
I've never met a man,
Who so easily can...
Bring me to my knees,
Want to forever please...
Undo years of pure hatred,
We have to be fated,
To walk this world for millions of years...
I'll shed limitless tears
Until I have you in my embrace,
Able to kiss your exotic face.
Share my world of gore,
I am so sure,
That with you I can be
What I use to see..
Tame and mild,
Surely not this wild.
I want you to teach me,
Help me be free.
Free from my darker demons,
Bloodthirsty Demons.

People don't realize that in a a brief moment,
All can be gone w/o a word or hint.
One day your fine,
The next your crying.
Be grateful for life, love, and time.
Life is crazy w/o reason or rhyme.
Everything you cherish,
Could instantly perish.
With all hold dear,
My only fear,
I'll lose never knowing,
Or never even showing.
Mothers, fathers
Sons and daughters,
Even sisters
And Brothers...
Gone without a last word...
Such a savage world.
To give us such
Then take so much.
No matter how much you scream,
Wish, hope, or dream...
Its gone, their gone,
Everything eventually comes undone.
To all who have lost,
At such high costs...
I share my pain,
So much like drops of rain.

People dont realize that in a a brief moment,
All can be gone w/o a word or hint.
One day your fine,
The next your cryin.
Be grateful for life, love, and time.
Life is crazy w/o reason or rhyme.
Everything you cherish,
Could instantly perish.
With all hold dear,
My only fear,
I'll lose never knowing,
Or never even showing.
Mothers, fathers
Sons and daugters,
Even sisters
And Brothers...
Gone without a last word...
Such a savage world.
To give us such
Then take so much.
No matter how much you scream,
Wish, hope, or dream...
Its gone, their gone,
Everything eventually comes undone.
To all who have lost,
At such high costs...
I share my pain,
So much like drops of rain.

Do you ever stop to wonder,
Who you are for sure?
Just letting the days go by,
Living your life like a lie.
Its just so hard being me,
I feel as if nobody's free, including me.
Always moving, always hurting, dying inside.
Just wanting someone by my side.
It's just so hard to make a friend,
Just to give them up in the end.
People living to hurt, living to succeed.
What do you possibly need?
Time flies by as I grow older
Somehow I get bolder.
This song in my head,
demands me so much more.
My heart gets a little more torn.
It's just so hard being me
Am I the only one not totally free?
Always living one more day on the outside,
Dying inside, wanting you by my side.
God gets a little closer each time.
Lifes' it's own crime.Crying more,
smiling less, dying more.
My life's a story written lore.
Living this life over and over.
Is its own hell,
why don't you come right over,
Be my friend, my lover,
Your life may be over.
Just being me is not fair,
Why can't you share?
Always living one more day one the outside,
Wanting only you by my side.

I live so very lonely within these caged walls,
Self infliction, dark demonic calls.
My innermost turmoil shining brightly for all to see,
My animalistic instincts, as always, cry for me to flee.
I've lost this moment, forgotten the devious why,
I only know that in this current life, I live through the lie.
Breathless, engulfing pain radiating,
This one among many, emotionally frustrating.
I answered the relentless call,
And once more I begun the cycle, I fall.
Reckless moments echoing within all,
Here again, once again fall.
Each life's patterns all the same,
Only this time different, with no one but me to blame.
Searching blindly eternally and I know it's true,
So many others like me, yet I'm one of very few.
My empathy soaking in the pain,
Taking in the anger and I'm no longer sane.
The broken, reflective fragments of endless time,
I piece together just don't rhyme.
I always answer the call.
I always know I'll fall.
Can't change what the fates saw,
In agony, I beat against the impenetrable wall.
This cycle one of so very many,
Leaving me always broken and empty.
No one to blame,
And no one to shame.
My own inner hell,
My fault, I fell.