Why do you make me hate you?
Why do you turn away?
Why are the looks of affection so few?
Why do we fight everyday?
Time after time you hurt me.
I am tired of hurting,
Can't you see?
Tired of crying.
Yes you care, but very little.
It shows in everything.
My heart so brittle.
Tired of feeling like I'm going insane.
Chaotic feelings, thoughts, all astir.
My head so full, so heavy,
Reminds me of a tilt-a-whirl.
Why cant you just love me?
Why did it have to be you?
Why can't I walk away?
B/c I am so in love with you,
But the hate grows, day after day,
No guilt, no remorse, only hate anymore.
Did I drive you to do it?
As I drove myself insane, no more.
Goodbye, or live w/ it.
I don't know if I can get better,
Don't know if you even care,
My cheeks cant get wetter...
All of this I can no longer bare.
Got to do something,
Can't think of anything.
I'm losing my heart.
Why did I push you,
Guilt with pain crushing my heart.
Do you know I love you?
Do you care enough to fix my heart?
Help me I'm drowning,
Can't breath, I need you.
Drowning in the tears I'm crying.
Do you care enough to save me and you?

I hope my children grow up
Knowing what all I gave up
So they could be healthy
Could be loved and happy
And I hope they make something
Of themselves, when I am nothing
I would die for them
Commit any sin
I will love them no matter who they are
or what they become, or how far
they travel, they will come back
I will love them, no matter what they lack
My son, I hope will be strong
My daughter smart, and they both live long
I would willingly go to hell
My soul I would sell
Just to love them
And be with them.
Most any mother
or father
Knows the truth in what I say
and feels what I feel each day.
Children as you grow older
And get so much bolder
Remember what we give
And try to live
Each day to the fullest
Do only your best
And know everything has a place
And you can never replace
Each moment, there gone in a blink
We are standing on the brink
Of this life and we gave ours
For yours....

Giving in, giving up,
When does this all stop?
Giving you one more day,
Telling you I'll stay.
Giving you the best part of me,
Maybe one day you'll stop and see.
Giving you two,
When you never knew.
Giving you trust and love,
When all you do is push and shove.
Giving in, giving up,
We're never going to make it to the top.
I give and give,
When I barely live.
You take and take,
Forgetting each mistake.
One day I won't be here,
Will you even care?
I give, I love, I give, I stay.
Giving you everything, everyday.
Forgiving you for it all,
Forgetting never the pain of it all.
My heart broken, bleeding,
You stand there greedily feeding.
Giving you each drop.
Knowing you'll never stop.

There are times I look back and see
Everything that's been done to me.
Everything that's been said,
Or everything I have read.
So much in so little time,
To hurt this way must be a crime.
From the moment I met you,
You tore my world in two.
I cried more tears over just you,
Then everyone I knew.
You took everything from me,
And still, you don't see,
That it's slowly killing me.
You just couldn't let me be.
After all this time, I still love you,
Once again, I am slowly learning to trust in you.
Countless times you threw me out,
Took my child, and turned me inside out.
She cried for me,
Because she loved me.
I was her only mother,
You couldn't even be a good father.
I walked alone,
Thinking of everything you have done.

(chorus) I guess it's hopeless,
And I'll always feel helpless.
When your with me,
Can you see?
What you do to me???
  

With you I feel helpless,
And I can't help this,
I know it has to be this way.
This love, growing day after day.
I'd feel as if I'd die,
If you ever said goodbye.
(chorus)
It's agony you see...
What you do to me...
My love will never falter,
I'll take it to the alter.
I'm lost to you,
Helpless to it too.
(chorus)
Just don't ever leave me.
I'll never give you a reason to flee.
I'll never do you wrong,
This is where you belong.
I was so alone before you,
It was cold and black too.
(chorus 2 x's)

All her life she's been promised things,
Now it's too late and she's not staying.
She's leaving on a one way ticket, see.
And it seems to me...
Sh just wanted love, friendships, to be needed.
But all warnings went unheeded.
She's giving everything up on hope,
It's like climbing a rope.
Don't look down,
She'll never be found...
Momma never loved her,
Where's daddy? Totally unaware.
She'd do anything.
Her life is momentarily ending.
She never really belonged,
Her life prolonged.
Is there really someone like her?
Unaware of their power?
Love doesn't exist,
Never could resist.
All her fantasy's,
Her final romantasy...
Lost...
At what cost?
She just wanted love, to be loved.
For now she's unloved.

Feelings that I should not feel,
People telling me I should just deal.
This endless cycle twisting in my mind.
Can no one be truly kind?
One day I may have the courage I seek,
One day I may not be so weak.
Everyone telling me its wrong not right,
One day I will not runand hide, I'll fight.
One day I will stand up and face my fears,
Someday no more hurt and blinding tears.
Can someone just love me?
One day free the me I see...
The me hiding inside,
The chaotic thoughts put aside
One day can you hold me?
The unending thoughts of suicide.
Admitting that yes, I lied.
That self mutilation is what tried.
Knowing you couldn't love me, I cried.
You said the hateful hurting words,
And yes it was he who you drove me towards.
No longer depend on a man,
On my own two feet I shall stand.
Love me or leave me,
Or it'll wind up bad see.
One day I'll either fight,
Or take the blade, I just might.