"No confidence, no self-esteem
Everybody else is right.
To speak my mind is to be a buffoon
So I'm told to " just sit tight"

"I collect stars because I want proof that I am paying for whatever sins I have committed."

"I think I am
a better ghost
than I am a
human being."

My first and second half of 2019 felt like two different years.

"He's been taught to shove his words down his throat, and cover them over like he's burying a body; but now it's so full he can't breathe."

& when my mom asks me "what's wrong?"
I just say I'm tired because I don't have the heart
To tell the lady that gave me life
That I don't want it anymore

"is a wonderful place...
         but nothing but thorns grow there.

"is just a piece of charcoal that handled stress exceptionally well."

"Don't bother walking a mile in my shoes, that would be boring.
                      Spend 30 seconds in my head. that'll freak you right out."

'Ha, she was just another broken doll
dreaming of a boy with glue.

when you know you cannot change things by loving them harder.

"because nothing ***** more than feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around."

"Too often I don't tell people,
                                                people I love,
                                                                       I am sad.
Because I don't think
                    that's something
                              they want to hear,
                                        because they love me."

Somehow I've become that friend that always walks behind when the sidewalk won't fit a group of three...

Can only be shot by pulling it backward.
     When life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means it's
                                          going to launch you into something great.
                                                                                       So, just keep aiming.

" I felt tired.
    like the world had
d
  r
   a
      i
        n
           e
             d
                  me for everything that I had.

"having a body made out of thorns, and being constantly surrounded by balloons."

I can feel myself becoming everything I never wanted to be.

Stu(dying)

Stu(died)

I'm
homesick
for places away
from my own
                    Where
                 the people
            are friendly and
         my name is not known.
                                              You
                                       can tell me
                                     I'm crazy, but
                                    I'll never forget
                                                         I'm
                                                    homesick
                                               for the places
                                           I haven't been yet.

There's nothing worse, than the lump you get in your throat when you hear something that you really didn't want to hear and you have to pretend like its' fine.

"She was made and remade continually.
Different people drew different words from her."

"inspire people even when you're far from full."

'Just because you grow wings doesn't mean you can fly away.'

"-can create breakthroughs. Things fall apart so things can fall together."

"She wondered 'If I had woken up, would I have smelled his sadness, his desperation, and his detachment?

His death, her breath.

He told her once, she remembers, these two words have no other rhyme but each other.

If she could go back, she thinks---

She would open her eyes, instead of her heart."

Even if I catch ten thieves out in the mountains,
I can't even catch the one thief that is in my heart

you can't plow a field by turning it over in your mind.