you pinned my legs to the ground
                    with your feet
                         and demanded I stand up.

"The moon could not go on shining if it paid any attention to the little dogs that bark at it."

"My parents checked my grades,
Not my mental health
My parents told me I could talk to them
They didn't tell me what I could talk to them about,
My parents said they care,
They never said what they cared about
My parents said they love me
They never said which me."

(n) an overwhelming urge to run away.

you can't plow a field by turning it over in your mind.

I hate the fact that I need so much reassurance; for example, things could be going perfectly fine but there's always a part of me that believes that it's all a lie.

the worst feeling is when you feel like you're annoying the only person you want to talk to.

"I am no longer looking to escape my darkness, I'm learning to love myself here."

Lately I don't ever want to wake up from my dreams
because at the end, they are my dreams.
Dreams show what the heart wants most,
and whenever I close my eyes
I see you.

"----makes you feel like you want to disappear from the world, but sometimes, in reality, all you truly want is to be found."

is in knowing you know nothing.

-this sentence has killed more dreams than anything else in the world.

My parents warned me about the drugs in the street, but not the one
                with the big brown eyes and a heartbeat.

Silly me, thinking I was good enough.

"is just a piece of charcoal that handled stress exceptionally well."

"A drop of ink may force a million to feel,
when it comes to art, it's vital not to hide the madness."

"-can create breakthroughs. Things fall apart so things can fall together."

"When I kissed you, you tasted like war, and that was funny, because I craved the chaos."

they say that nothing is wasted:
either that or it all is.

"The dead weight of your legs from sleeping pills,
the dizziness from the alcohol,
the soft throbbing of your pulse as blood is pumped out your wrists?

That's it.
That's what we've been waiting for, that's the quiet comfort.

The beauty of dying."

"Mom why do the best people die early?"

                         "When you're in a garden, which flowers do you pick?"

"The most beautiful ones."

....it's my downfall, that I will always miss things that hurt me.

they say that it will take time
but flowers will eventually bloom in the places I believed would remain bare
they say that my soul will find peace again
in the spring
but the problem is that you return when it is autumn
and i fall every time.

I just wanted to let you know,

that I put your name on the bullet so everyone will know that you

were the last thing that went through my head.

"all the words that leave my tongue, it's like they came from someone else."

the soul will heal itself

but the heart tends to ache

and our mind likes to scream

Have you ever been so disappointed in someone that you forgive them & don't say anything, but in your head you completely detach yourself from them?

"We don't see things as they are. We see things as we are."

I am not the result of the past
I am not the result of the abuse
But
I am the result of the future
And I am the result of who I pretend to be.

"---make me feel uncomfortable cause I feel like I fooled someone into believing I'm this special person that I'm not."

I can feel myself becoming everything I never wanted to be.

" I felt tired.
    like the world had
d
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        n
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             d
                  me for everything that I had.