Stained Glass: Poems

Dec 2019 · 88

Stained Glass Dec 2019

I just wanted to let you know that how you react to my sadness says alot about how long I intend to keep you in my life.

Dec 2019 · 157

2019 realization. . .

Stained Glass Dec 2019

2019 realization. . .

My first and second half of 2019 felt like two different years.

#alot has changed. . .

Dec 2019 · 127

Mood?

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Mood?

Have you ever been so disappointed in someone that you forgive them & don't say anything, but in your head you completely detach yourself from them?

#exhausted

Dec 2019 · 181

To my Past Friend

Stained Glass Dec 2019

To my Past Friend

I am not obligated to explain my past and my abuse to you.
I am not obligated to tell you anything regarding my feelings.
And you are not obligated to know.

#Because in the end, it is honestly not any of your business.
#No one should feel as if they have to spill out their feelings and past in order to get along with you.

Dec 2019 · 115

i'm tired.

Stained Glass Dec 2019

i'm tired.

I went to HELL and back for some people and they still have the audacity to say, "I never asked you to tho,"

#hurt&tired

Dec 2019 · 232

Hard Truth.

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Hard Truth.

There are some people who will hate you because of the way other people love you. They're the type of people that will be your friend as long as you're never doing better than them, you're always doing less than them, as long as they're always slightly higher than you in every aspect.

#I'm in complete disgust.

Dec 2019 · 428

Lesson Learned...

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Lesson Learned...

Waiting for someone to act correctly is a disrespect to yourself. You're compromising your worth because someone can't fully afford it.

Dec 2019 · 39

Recovery.

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Recovery.

Recovery is hard work. Not wanting to die is hard work. Trying to ignore the calorie calculator in my head is like trying to ignore television subtitles and sometimes I just can't, body, forgive me. Every time you asked if I was full I heard you say "fat" but I am trying so hard not to do that.

#bulima #depressed #youth #speaks #poetry #trapped # alone

Dec 2019 · 147

Toxic trait (pt 2)

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Toxic trait (pt 2)

I hate the fact that I need so much reassurance; for example, things could be going perfectly fine but there's always a part of me that believes that it's all a lie.

# real #deep #thoughts

Dec 2019 · 286

My Toxic Trait:

Stained Glass Dec 2019

My Toxic Trait:

Is that i hurt in silence and pray that someone loves me enough to notice I'm not being myself.

#hurt #tired #mental #depressed #needy #trapped

Dec 2019 · 142

Relief?

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Relief?

My only relief is to sleep.
When I'm sleeping, I'm not sad,
I'm not angry, I'm not lonely,
I'm nothing.

Dec 2019 · 237

Insignificant.

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Insignificant.

Do you ever feel depressed over the smallest things and then when people ask what's wrong you feel like you can't tell them because it's so insignificant?

Dec 2019 · 157

Strong Words?

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Strong Words?

Whenever I say I hate something people feel the need to respond with "Hate is a strong word"
Yeah?
Well so is love and people throw around that word like it's nothing..

Such as:
"I love this,
I love that,
I love you."

Dec 2019 · 309

Weakness.

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Weakness.

I smile and laugh because if the people that cared about me knew my real pain, they would be worried and I cannot burden them with my weakness. I'm the strong one.
I do the saving, I don't get saved, I'm not supposed to be...

Dec 2019 · 1.2k

Stay?

Stained Glass Dec 2019

Stay?

"Why do you stay even though it hurts?"

He answered:
"Why do you hold a rose even though it hurts?"

Nov 2019 · 205

Alone.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Alone.

Somehow I've become that friend that always walks behind when the sidewalk won't fit a group of three...

Nov 2019 · 212

Safe Haven

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Safe Haven

The only reason why i stay in my room is because it feels so safe in there. No one yells at me and no one judges me. I can be me without any fear.

What's your safe haven?

Nov 2019 · 948

PAIN.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

PAIN.

Nothing annoys me more than when someone expects you to be okay with something that they wouldn't be okay with if it was done to them.

why

Nov 2019 · 602

Toxic People.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Toxic People.

(ex) those who condition you to believe the problem isn't the abuse itself, but instead your reactions to their abuse.

Nov 2019 · 751

Bad Feeling.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Bad Feeling.

There's nothing worse, than the lump you get in your throat when you hear something that you really didn't want to hear and you have to pretend like its' fine.

why me...why do this to people?

Nov 2019 · 616

Problem

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Problem

I have a group of friends
I'm just not "in" that group of friends

when you know that there wouldn't be a diffrence if u were not there

Nov 2019 · 146

Children Learn What They Live

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Children Learn What They Live

When a child lives with CRITICISM, they are taught to CONDEMN.
When a child lives with HOSTILITY, they are taught to FIGHT.
When a child lives with FEAR, they are taught to be APPREHENSIVE.
When a child lives PITY, they are taught to feel SORRY for themselves.
When a child lives with RIDICULE, they are taught to feel SHY.
When a child lives with JEALOUSY, they are taught to feel ENVY.
When a child lives with SHAME, they are taught to feel GUILTY.

If children live with ENCOURAGEMENT, they learn CONFIDENCE.
If children live with TOLERANCE, they learn PATIENCE.
If children live with PRAISE they learn APPRECIATION.
If children live with ACCEPTANCE, they learn to LOVE.
If children live with APPROVAL, they learn to LIKE themselves.
If children live with RECOGNITION, they learn it is good to have a GOAL.
If children live with SHARING, they learn GENORSITY.
If children live with HONESTY, they learn TRUTHFULNESS.
If children live with FAIRNESS, they learn JUSTICE.
If children live with KINDNESS and consideration, they learn RESPECT.
If children live with SECURITY, they learn to HAVE FAITH in themselves and in those around them.
If children live with FRIENDLINESS, they learn the world is a NICE place in which to live.
By Dorothy Law

Nov 2019 · 480

Paralyzed

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Paralyzed

I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I'm in a box
But I'm the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen

@nfrealmusic

Nov 2019 · 571

If You Want Love by NF

Stained Glass Nov 2019

If You Want Love by NF

Yeah, as a kid I used to think life
Is moving so slow, I watch it go by
Look out the window on my bus ride
I thought the world was so small, through my closed eyes
I've always tried to control things
In the end that's what controls me.....

Nov 2019 · 516

Mood.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Mood.

have...you ever been in one of those moods where you don't really know whats wrong but you feel really irritated with everyone and everything?!

hate myself for being like this rn

Nov 2019 · 604

Do...

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Do...

you ever sit back and realize ur, not anybody's favorite person, you're just kinda there and then you get the sudden urge to distance yourself from everyone and be alone?!

Nov 2019 · 420

It breaks...

Stained Glass Nov 2019

It breaks...

my heart when I try to join in a conversation and no one hears me so I slowly stop talking, getting quieter and quieter into silence.

Nov 2019 · 261

A Comfort Zone

Stained Glass Nov 2019

A Comfort Zone

"is a wonderful place...
but nothing but thorns grow there.

#jajajajajajajajamamamama
drafts again...bored

Nov 2019 · 230

Untitled

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Untitled

Yeah, it's hilarious, ain't it?
You'll spend the rest of your life in my backyard or back of my mind, depends how you see it
Put the shovel away, time to go back in the house now, you'll be out in a week
Tellin' me you want your room back, that's funny, what, you ain't got nowhere to sleep?
I'ma just look out the window and laugh at you, this is crazy to me
'Cause I thought you had me in prison this whole time, but I'm the one holdin' the keys

#nfrealmusic + more draftssss

Nov 2019 · 296

NF

Stained Glass Nov 2019

NF

I remember getting teased as a kid
'Cause at the place that we lived
We never had it easy, believe me
But that don't excuse the things that we did
Wouldn't accept that I was never accepted
Shed so many tears like I fell in depression
But if I changed, I wouldn't get called names
But it was all the same, I was feeling rejected

in my drafts

Nov 2019 · 218

From class

Stained Glass Nov 2019

From class

Maybe the oceans crashing with the shore isn't the issue
Maybe it's our need to deny anything that's different
Maybe the winds of this world against our souls isn't the issue
Maybe it's our need to blow against the wind

been sitting in my drafts

Nov 2019 · 156

WHY

Stained Glass Nov 2019

WHY

I know I like to preach to always be yourself (yeah)
But my emotions make me feel like I am someone else
Me and pride had made a pact that we don't need no help
Which feels like I'm at war inside myself but I forgot the shells
I hold my issues up for all to see, like show and tell
A lot of people know me, but not a lot know me well

@nfrealmusic

Nov 2019 · 97

Remember This

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Remember This

Look at the world we live in, defined by comment sections
Surround yourself with people that challenge how you think
Not people that nod their head and act like they agree
Those people will cut you open just to watch you bleed
Always be yourself, not the person that you pretend to be, no!

#nfrealmusic

Nov 2019 · 164

Wish

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Wish

Imagine meeting someone who wanted to learn your past not to punish you, but to understand how and why you needed to be loved.

Nov 2019 · 244

Facts.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Facts.

Sometimes giving someone a second chance is like giving them an extra bullet for their gun because they missed you the first time.

(more internet drafts)

Nov 2019 · 3.5k

"You're heartless!"

Stained Glass Nov 2019

"You're heartless!"

I'm not heartless, I've just learned to use my heart less

#alala!@#$%^&*Z(){}|~<><><><><><><><><><><><><><<

Nov 2019 · 224

Truth.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Truth.

"Church is where I found God, but it's also where I learned to judge"

.nf

Nov 2019 · 225

Introverts

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Introverts

are like a slow website.
They might be the coolest site, but usually, people don't wait that long for them to open.

this has been just sitting in my drafts don't know where I heard this

Nov 2019 · 236

Dear Past Me,

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Dear Past Me,

I wish that I could look at you with empathy

Sometimes I feel like I've become what you were scared to be

Which makes it really hard to look at you with sympathy

'Cause if I'm feeling bad for you, then I have to feel bad for me

And that's just something I feel like we don't deserve

nf

Nov 2019 · 454

Earth.

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Earth.

"Yeah, seems like we're all trying to climb a ladder
It's crazy what we'll do to climb it faster
It's like we throw away the things in life that really matter
Just so that we can make it to the top, and wonder what we're even climbing after"

#nfrealmusic

Nov 2019 · 248

Love

Stained Glass Nov 2019

Love

(n.d.) is a language and it's where you find someone who speaks your language, so you don't have to translate your soul.

Oct 2019 · 240

Thiss

Stained Glass Oct 2019

Thiss

and I hate how you made me question myself when the problem was you all along.

Oct 2019 · 238

thth

Stained Glass Oct 2019

thth

I stopped explaining myself when I realized people only understand from their level of perception.

Oct 2019 · 240

A hard truth

Stained Glass Oct 2019

A hard truth

when you know you cannot change things by loving them harder.

#hurt&tramatized

Oct 2019 · 312

*Warning*

Stained Glass Oct 2019

*Warning*

Stay away from people who think you're arguing every time you try to express yourself.

Oct 2019 · 174

Depression

Stained Glass Oct 2019

Depression

where sometimes you don't want to live but you won't make the effort to die. You don't want to talk to anyone but you feel very lonely. It's where you wake up in the morning and simply wait for the night to come.

Oct 2019 · 349

Untitled

Stained Glass Oct 2019

Untitled

what a terrifying thing it is, to merely be yourself.