#Mental abuse is much more painful than physical abuse because you are consumed by your own thoughts. I think that after being hurt so many times I created a shield where I don't allow anyone to get close to me. I love being friends with people and I enjoy having friends. But, to be close friends with someone for a lifetime and to share each other's secrets, wants, needs, etc. sounds like a complete nightmare. If I had one wish that could be granted it would be for me to have never been born. My ultimate wish is for the all the people who have met me to unmeet me. Then I wouldn't be such a burden on anyone. I no longer wish to die, I wish to have never been born. If I had the power to turn back everything I would give my parents a better child and give my friends a better person.