Stained Glass

Stained Glass Mar 2019

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One morning

I didn't wake up

And all of a sudden

The world fell in love with me

Stained Glass Mar 2019

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It's hard when your always lying, drowning beneath the water

Always hiding what you feel

Not knowing what words that sing are truthful

Forgetting what is real

Sometimes I forget to laugh terrified someone might see

Yet society has the nerve to ask, "IS THIS WHO YOU WANT TO BE?"

When you can change yourself, but you can't change the past.
When everywhere you go you can no longer tell if you're generally happy or just faking it.
When you would rather adopt a smile, then tell someone what your really feeling.
They blame our generation for being the way it is, but have they ever thought who raised us?

Stained Glass Mar 2019

H...O...M...E...

a witness to the yells or shouts
a witness to the pattern of "oh okay" and "GET OUT!"

a witness to tears and uproars
a witness to hurtful words and slamming doors

on the outside i'm holding it strong all together
but the demons are as unpredictable as the weather

it's like being in space and trying to breathe air
when they preach about the future i don't really care

"no one knows what's worse drowning beneath the waves or
dying from the thirst."
my life is altered because of this, the cheerful 5 year old is the person that I miss

The changes were so sudden I don't blame you for not seeing, but what you don't understand is that I'm a human being

Stained Glass Mar 2019

OnLy ThE GoOd DiE YoUnG

I'vE lOsT tRuE fRiEnDs

I've been a lost friend too

I'vE sAiD i'Ll NeVeR lOve

And I've said, "Love you."

I'vE bRoKeN mY fAmIlY, mY fAiTh, AnD mY hEaRt

I don't remember my real smile or how to have fun

It'S tRuE wHeN tHeY sAY OnLy tHe GoOd DiE yOuNg

Stained Glass Mar 2019

No-OnE-eVeR...

Even when I'm walking underwater
Even when I set myself on fire
No one can see me
While I wrap barbed wire around my wrists
And decorate the walls with my fists
No one can ever hears me
A witness to the yells or shouts
A witness to the pattern of "Oh okay" and "GET OUT!"
A witness to tears and uproars
A witness to hurtful words and slamming doors
No one's ever needed me
Even when I'm showered with stylish clothes
Even when I have the perfect nose
No one ever wanted me

Stained Glass Mar 2019

F R E E

Innocence is what prisons the past and eventually if flies away leaving only a feather
If only I could learn to tame my tides, rinse the past and outrun the weather
The inevitable is coming and just like school you can't avoid and among the wild berries there's an imposter, this is why his ribs were caged in because he was an angel born in a monster
Not everyone can remember who they were before the world told them who they should be
As my body sinks under the waves my smile says,
"I am F R E E"

Stained Glass Mar 2019

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A violin player:
Plays a song
Builds a smile
She seems okay and
Strums denial
'Practice makes perfect'
With a bow of "I'm fine"
Choose your performance and sing a lie
And upon that hill
Tie your voice
Pull on violin strings
Self-destruction such a beautiful thing

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