Evie Young: Favorites

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Megan Hundley

you don't understand at all do you
not truly
you think
I'm a liar
that I still hold the knife
that
stabbed you in the back
[and in the heart]

kinda speechless
that you feel that way
think that way
believe it
untrustworthy? misleading?
false emotions?
can you not read?
here let me try again
maybe I can make it like braille
feel the words

it's like when the clouds stormy eyes
welled up and let fall the
tears of weekend rain
soggy, we laughed along with the thunder
and under our waterfall we let the windows
fog
tell me I lied then

or picture if you will
standing by the tree I
always parked by
it was a starry night, but we didn't see it
we were too focused on our faces
except
why is it I was the only one
drowning in the sadness that overtook my eyes
shaking with each strained, choppy breath
clutching that gray shirt like a life jacket
do you think that was all
for show?

haven't you looked at
my collection of black and white
silly letters scribbled down as fast as possible
trying as hard as I can
to leave it all
on the paper
but it's as if each word I write
is a tattoo
slowly invading every part of my skin
it's sinking in, it's staining everything
do you think this agony I speak of
is fake?

if so
if I am that liar with the knife who
led you astray and "******* you over"
let you down, kicked you around
if you can't seem to
open your eyes
and notice
just how much I love you
just how much I always have

then you don't deserve it

ill run miles for you when I know I only
have the strength for one
but don't you
dare
watch me run
if you don't even grasp
that I stabbed myself in the back
led myself astray

you have a right to
hate the wound
but if you can't see
what I feel
one day
I will learn
that I have to let go
and I will

then all these silly letters
all for you

well. go ahead and throw them away
on that day
they will carry no life
anymore

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Want

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Icould

Want

I want to be, your number one
I want to be your late night thoughts
I want to be the reason you lose sleep
It's selfish, I know, but it's what I want

I want to be the reason for your excitement
I want to be the one you cry over
I want to be the one you laugh with
I want to be the one you long to touch and hold
I want to be the one you tell others about
when you are talking about, things you love

I want to be to their wish upon a shining star
i want to be their birthday wish
i want to be their unspoken prayer

i want you
and i want you to want me too

Nov 2013 Evie Young

The Definiton Of Forever

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Kailee Bright

The Definiton Of Forever

The definition of forever
As I was always told
Was something pure and lasting
Neverending, whole
But now as I remember
Forever is not what it seems
Something lasting always
Could only be in dreams
And as I grew and shaped my mind
I created a definition of my own
So here I come to be
Still not fully grown
Though now I know forever
Is a thing of fantasy,
For that is what you promised
And look where you left me

Nov 2013 Evie Young

puppeteer

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Pippa Bean

puppeteer

although

everyone else may be

although

you may hold their strings

i cut mine long ago

and

when you pull away

(as you always do)

leave us to gather dust

(as you always do)

when

you pull the strings once more

i

will not go dancing back

i

will perform for you no more

i would rather be unused

then be used by you

a flighty puppeteer.

Nov 2013 Evie Young

I Need You.

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Little Wing

I Need You.

im so confused,
i dont know what to do.
im losing who i am.
you've changed.
i hate it.

im doing what ever i can to lead you into the dark.
because im so scared.
i dont want to be there alone.
when im with you, everythings better.

its like your the light, im the darkness.
you make everything good and happy.
i just **** everything up.

you dont need me, but i need you.
i need you to keep me sane.
i think your only still with me because if you leave,
your afraid i'll do something stupid.

the truth is, i probably would.
everythings black and white,
but your heart is the fondest colour of red.
and mines placed at your feet, rotting and black.
but your bringing the life back into it.

i need you.

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Your new girlfriend

Nov 2013 Evie Young

M R

Your new girlfriend

i feel entitled to something that was never mine,
but you made me feel- which is new to me
i don't think it was love, but something of the sort
around you my stomach inverted, my chest did the opposite
palms damp and unsteady, but eyes wide open to let you in
if you could see me now,
you have my heart but you never had me

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Untitled (No. I)

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Brendan F X Leonard

Untitled (No. I)

We were both running
But when we were together
It didn't feel like running at all

Your lips
Stained mine
With a taste
Both bitter
And beautiful
That I can't kiss away

After you
I could understand
Why the poets share their words
Why music can bring me to tears
Why I wake up hopeful

In the deepest silence
My heart started to beat to new
Music
Music composed by the love you gave me

I am forever in those moments
We shared

I loved you
I thank you

Nov 2013 Evie Young

I am a Survivor

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Tasneem Moosa

I am a Survivor

If only you could look into my heart I know you would see how afraid I am
afraid of the unknown, afraid of the known

What you did demolished my soul and destroyed me
Yet I still allow you to control my life
Every decision, every guy,
Every encounter spurred on by the fact that you took what meant the most to me

I found that I've been punishing myself
I've been too afraid to let go of the past hurt
Too afraid to be hurt by another
So I let them take what they want only to lose a piece of myself each time

I will no longer be a victim and stand by watching my life go astray
Today I will fight, fight for what I once had that was taken from me
Fight for what I want and what I believe
But most of all I will fight for the girl I used to be

The girl I was before
The girl whose scarred heart you took and ripped open
Open for every other guy to make a mockery of
Her self-esteem gone in those few moments, changing everything

Today I will fight not only for me but for every other girl and women who's been through the same
You destroyed me now watch me pick up the pieces and make myself whole again

You will not win
You will not get the satisfaction
I am a strong, independent women
but most of all
I AM A SURVIVOR

Nov 2013 Evie Young

What could we be?

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Chris Thomas

What could we be?

If I was granted just one wish,
for how we'd spend our lives,
I'd have to give it so much thought,
till perfect plans arrive.

We could be lovers on the wing,
soaring through the air,
but I think flight is overrated,
there's lots more we could share.

We could be swingers in the trees,
laughing with the chimps.
I'm sure we'd be entertained,
but there's so much more to glimpse.

We could see the great savannah,
stampeding cross the plains,
being one with mother nature,
but I'm sure we'd be drained.

I think we're more like little otters,
splashing playfully.
Holding hands we rock to sleep,
we'll never drift at sea.

Nov 2013 Evie Young

I'm MINE

Nov 2013 Evie Young

Jenna B

I'm MINE

Who am I?*
To you-
I'm the pin cushion for all the weak fumbling shots
I'm a bundle of nerves from all your panic
Your panic
Your pin cushion
Your mannequin, shaping  as you please
Up and down over and over
Late and hard
Your cupboard of insecurities
All your words too big for everyone else to hear
the ones you save for me,
'cause you always knew I wouldn't fight back
All your fists and bruises that you echo
onto me
my skin
my hurt
ME
*******

I'm my own being and this isn't yours
I'm the darkness in my head, and the sunshine in the day
I know because the clouds never reach my hands
only ever brushing my thoughts and leaving them cold
I'm my own worst enemy, and my only best friend
Confidant and abuser, I know how to keep myself awake
Nocturnal and alive- you made me love the night
and the darkness to cover up the secrets
Now I'm living in MY day, MY life
dancing in the sunshine, letting the world know
let them see your ugly secrets

I know me more than you ever will
I'm the lock on my door and you aren't invited
I'm the key to my heart and I know how I work
You won't pick this lock again,
I'm saving my love and life for something else
not to be chained to somebody like you
I'm connecting now to people who know me
and allow me to work through myself before they push themselves in
Unlike you- who tore into my life with such a vengeance that it  broke my ability to trust all together
Until I met people who helped mend me, without even knowing it
Who smile and laugh with me
They seem to like me for me, and appear
to genuinely want me to be better tomorrow
Friends who believe that I can shine instead of stamping me to ashes

It's like clockwork in my head now, and I know how this will end
a crazy messy kind of order that you will never understand
I'm the noose around my neck,
but I know how to untie
the pretty bow you keep me trapped with
I'm my own cartographer, creating my mountains and climbing them
I'm mine
and you claim to be my creator but those are only words
I am a child of this Earth, and a mind of my own
designed by the elements and a God more powerful than your blows
given to you, entrusted to you
to take care of, not kick down
I'M MINE
not yours to play with
I won't be your punch bag, *** toy, secret or
******* victim anymore
I'm me,
My thoughts are mine to treasure
my body is mine to nurture
and maybe I don't know
'who I am' yet
I just know that I am definitely
not yours.